The Third Party

11. Wearied

"Will love be enough?" My voice was getting slower, while Handi's voice was getting higher. I feel like I've stepped up with my situation.

"It's Emma, it's night. We'd better get some sleep. You're just exhausted!"

I don't answer anymore. I lay my body against Handi, and vice versa. Then I remembered Damar. It's been the night of how much she hasn't slept with me I can't remember.

"Please get Damar. I want to sleep with my son!" slowly say. Who knows if my in-laws would give Damar if Handi asked.

"God Emma, can't you just let me calm down for a second?! It's not just you who's tired! I'm tired too!" snapped Handi. He got up and threw his blanket.

"I'm tired of working, at least it's not what I expected when I'm home! Let Damar sleep with mom so that you and I can rest in peace. At least for tonight!" I stared at the bar towards Handi. It's the first time he's yelled at me since I knew him.

I feel like Handi deliberately called me and you, not us. His tone was also full of emphasis. I don't know who's wrong, I don't understand the position of Handi or Handi who doesn't understand my situation.

"You said just this once?! I can't believe this?!" I smiled bitterly. "Are you tired of working? Do you mind making a living for your son and wife? After so many days of you out of town do you not want to be with your son?!" I screamed back.

While I was hoping to be with my son, my husband didn't want him just because he wanted to rest in peace. My tears came back hearing this.

"It's true your mother said. You should marry a rich woman so you don't have to get tired of working! Divorce me right now so you can make it happen!!!" I don't care if my in-laws hear it, it will make her happy.

Just when I said that I heard Damar's voice crying from my in-laws room. Does he feel what I feel? Then my in-laws screamed.

"Emma, where's the milk for Damar?!!" my in-laws shouted from inside her room.

"You hear that?! This is the life I live every day. I live at home with my son but I can't touch him! Your mother won't even let me breastfeed my own baby!"

I rushed to get an ASI pump and also a Damar milk bottle. I have tried many times but my ASI did not come out at all, it was my tears that flowed. Plus the sound of Damar's crying this time felt very slashing my heart. Many times I went back and forth with the pump, thinking something might be broken, but it wasn't. The ASI pump is working fine.

"Emma, splinter! This Damar has been crying for a long time! So if I say the stock of ASI that many of you obedient why?!!" My in-laws voice sounded loud while Damar's crying voice sounded distant. It seemed like my in-laws were standing in front of my room while she left Damar alone inside her room. Thinking about this makes me panic.

"How is this Han? Why aren't my ASI out?! Damar has been crying for too long, pity," I said in panic. I forgot I had a fight with Sandy.

Sandy came closer to help me.

"Is it usually like this?" he asked while crouching in front of me.

I shook my head in despair.

All the ways I and Handi have done but my ASI still did not come out even though before smoothly. Amidst this panic I heard Damar's crying voice start to stop but it didn't make me feel relieved. I'm just getting worried.

I immediately ran to my in-laws room.

"Where?!" tanyanya asked for a bottle of milk.

I pushed both my hands forward, not to give the bottle he meant but I pushed the door as hard as I could. My in-laws who still hold the doorknob until pushed along until he fell strung.

My in-laws grimaced, probably enduring the pain in his back from a fall but I didn't care. I went straight to the bed to grab Damar's body. I accidentally saw a small spoon and bowl of baby porridge next to Damar's body. I can't believe I saw this. Where's this baby porridge from? My eyes swept the room and I saw an instant baby porridge box on the nightstand.

"Did mom feed Damar?" my many. My in-laws did not answer. He was still holding his back while moaning in pain.

"Did mom feed my son?!" I asked with a high tone even almost snapped. I don't care anymore. You say I don't respect my parents I don't care. What could be respected by such an old man?!

I'm taking Damar away. As I was about to get out of the room I noticed my in-laws were still sitting on the floor grimacing in pain, but I didn't want to help her stand up. There is no pity in my heart.

"The bottom of the ghost does not know itself! How dare you push your own in-laws?!" my in-laws. His hands are still stroking his back.

Like a hero of misfortune, Handi came after me and Heni also showed me his nose. They both helped her mother stand up.

"Emma, what's going on?" ask Handi.

"Look at your wife Han! He's really brash! He dared to push me until I fell!" answer in-laws.

"I didn't push Han's mother! I pushed the door and Mom stood behind the door. It's not my fault that mom fell."

"Don't deny! You pushed me on purpose, right?!" snapped my in-laws while glaring furiously at me. This time I'm not afraid and I'm not trying to keep Handi feeling as usual. I glared back at him, if you want to fight all together. Maybe tonight is the fate of my household.

"You saw it for yourself, right?!! It was wrong instead of apologizing, he even dared to glare at mom?! What kind of woman are you?! Did your parents never teach you manners?!!"

My in-laws wanted to push me but Handi prevented it. Sandy was standing in the middle between me and her mother. While Heni kept hold of her mother because she was struggling to hit or push me. It seems like he's a grudge because I've made him fall.

Me and my in-laws were like little kids fighting over toys, completely childish but this time I didn't want to budge. Whatever he wants I'm ladeni.

"You just divorce him tonight! And get him out of this house!!!"

Then Sandy tried to tell me to leave. She knew her mother's words only ignited my emotions and made this situation worse.

"Emma, you just go into the room, let me here see your condition."

I almost stepped my foot and obeyed Handi's words even though I wasn't satisfied with my anger.