The Third Party

12. Not Used Up

"Emma, you just go into the room, let me here see your condition."

I almost stepped my foot and obeyed Handi's words even though I wasn't satisfied with my anger.

"What a sin am I until my son gets a wife like him! Her behavior was really like a wild woman, not knowing manners!!!" my in-laws. I just walked a few steps so I heard it clearly.

"It's Mom ... Emma also accidentally made mom fall. He didn't intend to do it."

"Actually your wife has the same problem mom? I'm good enough to help her take care of your son. She should be grateful to have in-laws like her mother who could replace her, not hurt her!"

Hearing the words of these two people, I stopped continuing my steps. I turned around and I looked at my in-laws and Heni alternately. There was nothing on my face but anger and hatred, until I could feel the look in my in-laws' eyes dimming in fear of me.

"I never asked mom to help take care of my son, that was her own wish. And one more thing, your mother is not my mother!" my words are full of emphasis. Maybe my words would also offend Handi as his son, but that was the reality. My mother-in-law will never be able to replace me.

"I hope you feel what I feel even worse!" Not even Heni escaped the target of my anger. Don't blame me because they started it themselves.

"Handi, take your wife to the room now! Let me take care of Mom." Heni who was pretentious also shrieked to see me like this. It should have been like that. All this time I kept quiet so he underestimated me.

"Of course Emm, let's go to the room. Poor Damar." Suddenly Handi embraced me and took me away from her mother and sister.

*

In the room...

I came back crying. All this time my ASI smooth but I do not breastfeed Damar foam, but now Damar's turn has been in my arms I also can not breastfeed him because my ASI did not come out at all. Not to mention I remember my in-laws feeding my son without permission.

Damar hasn't even been a month but my in-laws have stuffed him with porridge. Even though it's baby porridge I still don't accept it. Damar is my son I have the right to determine what and when something is given to him.

Regret enveloped my feelings. If I could be more assertive from the start and not think too much about the feelings of these people it would not be like this.

Handi continued beside me trying to calm me down.

"Emma, stop. Its alright. Just this once."

"This is what I've caught once? What do I not know? Your mother hid the baby's porridge box in her room. Mom did it on purpose, from the beginning she had planned it."

"Yes I know what you mean. But look, Damar's okay, he's even fast asleep. Your reaction is overrated."

"I'm overreacting?!!" I can't believe hearing the words of Handi.

"Do you know, every night Damar sleeps in mom's room. Every time he cried I was just told to prepare breast milk in a bottle. I was not allowed to bathe her or breastfeed her. In a day I can't touch it for more than half an hour. Not satisfied I hugged my son, your mother took him and took him away until I felt I wasn't good enough to be a mother." It's as tight as this chest but I just want to make Handi understand.

Yes, I may be exaggerating, but I have my own reasons. Maybe it wasn't Damar's digestive health that I was worried about, but it was more of a disappointment that I felt I wasn't considered the mother of Damar. My power over my son has been overstepped by my in-laws and I do not accept that.

"You as a father, do you not see your son for days? Don't you want to hug and hold her? You actually deliberately let Damar with your mother so that you can sleep peacefully. What kind of father are you? If you don't want to be with your child then why do you want to have children?!!" I came back in flames.

"You know what I'm afraid of? I'm afraid mom deliberately did this so that if we part ways later Damar gets used to it without me? I think mom is preparing her to grow up without me!"

"Why do you think that far?!"

"Why not? See so far how your mother hated me so much, forced you to divorce me, tried to provoke you by comparing you to your brothers. Do you think your mother would just give up?!"

Handi rubbed his face rough. I know he's tired but I want this to be done right now.

"You're just overthinking. We'll just finish this."

"What end? Our household?!!"

"Emc ... That's not what I meant. We've got this fight. You know I'll never leave you for anything and anyone. I would never do that. I beg ... Don't make this any more complicated."

I'm speechless. My mind was in such a mess that I couldn't digest Handi's words. For a moment I thought if Handi wanted to end our household the way her mother wanted. If asked that now, I will certainly immediately agree to it even though I will eventually regret it.

"You know I it's never gonna happen. I never wanted us to be apart. Forgive me if my words offended you. I was confused and did not understand the situation. Please forgive me." As always, Sandy apologized first no matter who was wrong. So how could I have wanted to part with a man like him if it wasn't for his mother.

"We'll be fine." Sandy looked me in the eye deeply. I know he really meant it. "Now rest, I want to see Mom for a moment."

I also nodded.

Not long after I again heard the voice of my in-laws angry. Looks like he's venting his anger at Handi over me earlier.

"Heni told Hasan and Aaron about your wife's attitude to mom! They'll come tomorrow to take me to the hospital. I have to check if I have any injuries or not!"

"Why wait for Mas Hasan and Mas Harun? I can take you to the hospital right now if you really feel someone is hurt" replied Handi.

"No! Let Hasan or Aaron alone! Let them know how real your wife is! Their wealthy wives did not dare to behave like that to their mothers. Your wife's time who is a nobody even dares to be brazen with mom!"

"There's nothing wrong with Emma Ma'am's nature ... He said he didn't do it on purpose."

"Where is he now? Admitting his actions alone is not, let alone apologizing!"