The Secret Love Story (End)
First Tears
"And I sit alone in the darkest night
My heart is pounding and I wonder why
Why am I invisible, why can't you see?
I'm in love with you, are you in love with me?
You show some signs, but I'm not sure
It's a secret love, and you're the cure
I just need to know what you think about me"
~Possibility, Tiffany Alvord~
"Well before we're going to be apart for a long time and somehow we're going to be able to get together like this, how about we move on to the second round" Tama said.
"The second round means...?" ask Mella.
"Yes, we continue to have dinner together and after that chat and karaoke together..where?" obviously Tama to his friends while throwing questions that demand answers to approval from his friends.
"If I'm okay, then" replied Reza.
"Gue too, but I asked permission first with my husband yes.", said Yola.
"Hmmm...loe how's Ra...?" ask the others.
"Eh.ak..aku....," said Ara who was then cut off by Vreya's words.
"You ya Ra, please dong. Let's spend time together before I return to Batam, Yes.ya..," said Vreya with his deathly appeal which of course can never be rejected by Ara. Because he knew his best friend this one will never disappoint him, that's why Vreya loved his best friend as much as his own brother.
"Hmm..well, if that's how I called Mahdi first, let him pick her up later," said Ara.
"Duuhhhhh iyelah who is now not alone anymore, must really ask permission," teased the Son who of course makes the girl embarrassed. While on the other side there is someone who responded to it with a flat face and cold saw the girl bowed in shame because of the teasing of one of her friends.
"Loe, what about Gha.
"Gue just follow me,." replied Erlangga.
Finally they went to the restaurant first before heading to the karaoke place. They choose their own order and write it on a piece of paper and waitress takes the paper and processes the order immediately.
"Loe still can't eat chicken...?" said Erlangga who accidentally got a seat next to him when he saw the order he wrote on the paper before being picked up by waitress a few minutes ago.
Ara looked at Erlangga with a slight shudder in horror. While the one who was stared at knew that the girl was staring fully in search of him. "Why?" ask Erlangga.
"Kok you can tell I can't eat chicken...?" ask Ara.
"Jeez.so loe looked at me suspiciously just because of that problem. Not only do I know, everyone also knows that you can not eat chicken before and the reason is not because of allergies but you will vomit every chicken meal." explained Erlangga. But, Ara was still looking at him with the same gaze. "Loe doesn't believe me? Loe can ask others if you still do not believe..," said Erlangga. "What looks to me suspicious until you look like it...,"
The one asked still did not answer only by nodding. And then he spoke up. "You are suspicious, like spy..," said Ara.
"Hey, don't go to ge-eran deh, anyway what's lucky I spy loe. Until you think narrow like that...?" said Erlangga while pinching the head of the girl who was protected by a long sky blue hijab.
"Issshhhhh.kamu nih really like my head," said Ara while pouting. "So, who the hell do you know a lot about me, know I can't swim, fear this is afraid of that and now you know I can't eat chicken. Now tell me how I can't be suspicious of you who know almost everything about me while I just don't know anything about you." explained Ara on her grounds who suspected Erlangga.
Deg, at that moment Erlangga's heart seemed to stop beating hearing the girl's words. The girl asked about who she was who could know all about the girl. While the girl doesn't even know anything about herself. "You know everything about me Ra, even more than myself. So please don't ask me again who I am and how I know all about you. It hurts Ra..," Erlangga's inner self who now feels tightness in her chest. However, he tries to hide it by smiling at Ara, a sign that they are at peace and will not continue the debate.
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Violence's Karaoke, they finally got there after dinner. Some choose the list of songs they will sing and even choose their duet partners, some enjoy snacks they have ordered before, and some are engrossed in being spectators and enjoying the atmosphere.
"You say I'm crazy..
Cause you don't think I know what you've done
But when you call me baby,,,
I know I'm not the only one...."
The son finished his Sam Smith song I'm Not The Only One. And they had their own singing turn and left Erlangga and Ara who were fun just being spectators earlier.
"Gha, sing dong..," persuaded Mella so that Erlangga is not busy with games on his HP or busy being a spectator only. But the man refused.
"Yes Gha, sing dong...," Azrel persuaded.
"Wouldn't, I don't want to sing..," said Erlangga still kekeh with his stance.
"Well, if you don't want to, how about you sing Ra...?" tama.
"DON'T.............!!!!!!!!!!! shouted Vreya and Putra in unison.
"Hehhhhh.why is it that Ara sings...,"
"Don't..don't..," said Putra.
"Yes do not yes..please tell Erlangga again to sing..," exclaimed Vreya while pointing towards Erlangga who was engrossed with his HP.
"Why..Why the hell if Ara's singing, he doesn't sound good?" ask Reza.
"Enggg..gak so anyway...," said Vreya.
"Trus..What's Vrey?" ask Zeta.
"Em...anu....Ara it does not know the tone.so if he sang definitely between the music and the lyrics are synchronous and it will certainly sound." said Ara did not continue.
"Done..," cut Erlangga fast. While Ara who heard that just bowed in shame.
"Ish.loe nie..no that's also the time to say it," said Putra. The same son Vreya was indeed the two people who had heard Ara sing. While his other friends never heard Ara sing.
"Oh.so that's it..," said Dinda.
"Eh..but it doesn't matter if we are horrified, anyway just we-we doang. No, no, no, Ra." asked Vina.
Ara shakes. "No, I swear I don't want to sing anymore. Embarrassed. Especially ntar in the voice of my voice as a finalist child idol again." said Ara while glancing at Putra.
"Hehehe.sor....," said Putra while grinning and others also laughed at the honesty of Ara who had been called a finalist child idol when going to karaoke with Vreya and Putra first.
"Em..if so loe can do another if not sing. Anyway appear in front of us all deh.biar fair..," said Mella.
"No, Erlangga aja does not want to sing, brarti he also must be given a challenge also dong," said Ara who was then answered with an eye shot by Erlangga.
"Gue will sing.." said Erlangga later.
"Beneer Gha..," said Mella.
"Yes,, you will sing after seeing the appearance of loe first..," challenged Erlangga to Ara.
"That's it.." asked Ara.
"Let's be fair, everyone has to perform...?" asked Erlangga to his friends.
"Yes, I agree.." said Yola.
"Tap,, but I have to perform what dong?" ask Ara.
"Cake cake, jog-joget or what cake..," said Erlangga who of course in a cynical view by Ara. "Damn it really nie people," Ara growled inwardly.
"Emm..gue knows..loe has to do..," said Tama.
"Ngapain Tam, I have to say something." asked Ara.
"Loe is good at poetry, so you have to musicalize poetry in front of us." said Tama revealed his idea to his friends.
"Yes, I also want to listen to poetry. Loe is good at writing tuh especially poetry, so surely you will be able to musicalize loe poetry right?" exclaim Yola.
"Yahhh.we want the horror of your own poetry..," said Tama.
"Do not want, just do not want..," said Ara.
"Why is it..," asked Vina.
"I'm ashamed to read my own writing in front of people" said Ara as she lowered her face to hide her embarrassment.
"Hadeh you are there, if embarrassed why become a writer. Your writing has been published a lot as well and has been read a lot as well..," said Vreya.
"But Vrey read people I don't know" Ara defended herself.
"Oh, that's the reason you're not letting me buy you a book. Even though I just want to be a fan of loe..," said Vreya who was answered by agrily by Ara.
"Gue read all your writing and not too bad for beginners. Foolish, you still like to humble yourself loe..," murmured Erlangga.
"Okay deh his decision poetry anyone that you bring important you perform now," said Putra.
Finally, Ara stood in front of her friends. Previously he chose a song on the list that is appropriate to accompany the poem he will bring. Ara carried a mic and took a deep breath to relieve her nervousness. Although only his friends will hear but of course he still feels nervous, the article is the first time he reads poetry in front of others even though not his own poetry because he is embarrassed. Ara recited a poem Panji Ramdana, for some reason the poem was stored in her head until she recited it without forgetting, as if she had often heard it whispered in her ear while sleeping.
"Then the sky did not say a word
Unless he sent someone to come to me
You were the answer to a question the other day
When my heart says I need someone...
When my heart is silent...
You are present to fill in this silence
There was a wound that made me reluctant to step
The miss that made me sad
The pain that makes my nights restless
Ye....
Being present carries a name by which my prayers always call it
And I fell in love
To you who relive longing and fretting in a different way
The longing and restlessness I always seek
Which I always look for again so I can guess
The longing and fret that brings peace remember it
Ye...
The most beautiful affection link
Tied up, strung together took root quickly in the heart of my heart
No need to say and not express
When suddenly everything was present
Flowing up my reminder pulse
As we move together
Ye....
Is my best friend, is my brother, my best companion
You suddenly brought wounds together
I never thought I was made
Beauty incised soot
It was like black falling on a piece of shabby white paper helplessly
All is a show
All the theatrics are real to me and you are the director
You play me like a pawn that can only walk forward
I must cry for the dagger that pierces in my heart
And I don't know where to go
If my leaning place is turned out to be my ringing cage
If the place I cry is the source of my tears
And the place I stand on doesn't give me a place to set foot
In an instant you threw me down to earth
Align the wounds and flush them with vinegar
In an instant, I ran over
Still to you my steps are fixed
I want to move this step onto a better path
But why does my path always lead me back home
And still to you my steps are fixed
Opening the ma'af door, rolling up all the cries and wounds
And then hide it
Still to you my dear is on
Ara paused for a moment from reading the poem, some memories flashed through her head. The pain in his head became more and more. He was trying to erase the memory that showed someone's face in his memory. His face was familiar, and he was among his friends at the moment. The face of a person in his memory is not wrong anymore. The face of someone who looked faintly was the same face as someone who was staring at him at this moment along with all his friends. How many times he tried to pull her off, he could not deny it. That face he was very familiar with. Ara looked at that face and continued reading her poem which was just a few sentences away. But unknowingly, Ara shed tears on the sidelines of the poetry reading her last few sentences.
Ye....
Well right, it's still always you
Because my true wound is because of you
And not you anymore
That would be the reason behind all my injuries
Ara still shed her tears looking at the face of the person in her memory. He could no longer hold back the feeling of tightness in his chest. The pain in his head was also becoming more and more uncontrollable. Finally he began to feel dark around him and his body was dazed right when the last sentence of his poem he said with a clear liquid that slowly dripped down his cheeks.
"LUCK.KZ.....,"
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