The Secret Love Story (End)
The Weird Girl's
"If you're lonely, and need a friend
Troubles seem like they never end
Just remember to keep the faith
And love will be there to light the way
Anytime you need a friend
I will be here"
~Anytime You Need A Friend - Mariah Carey~
Ara is enjoying her lunch with her office friends in the basement below which is now in magic to be a pantry. In enjoying the provisions that he had prepared this morning and after eating and praying dhuhur, he also joined his friends to talk to spend their rest hours. Nimbrung in this case does not mean he chat and tell each other with his office friends but rather as an observer only. Yes, Ara still withdraws from the people around her, she only speaks when spoken to and the rest she only gives a smile when hearing stories from her friends. Ara does have an introverted or closed personality. He prefers to be alone struggling with a pile of books compared to going in crowds or chatting with his friends.
But, Ara became someone completely different three years ago. Where she can laugh freely, share and listen to all her best friend's stories. He can tell all the things he feels to his friends and no longer dwell only on his diary. Three years ago precisely during her college days Ara became a cheerful person. Ara does also have a personality side like that when she is comfortable with people and circumstances that make her feel comfortable. The next second song If You're Not The One Daniel Bedingfield reverberated on his phone. Ara then raised a call that displayed the name Aprillia on her phone screen.
Aprilla Calling :
"Hallooo..............Ra............,"
"Yes Pril....,"
"Eh, Ra I just want mastiin nieh. You fix so come to Yogja?" ask April.
"Hu'umb..yeah.so..,"reply Ara.
"OK deh...Tomorrow he gathers at the bascamp as usual yes..," said April.
"Yes..," said Ara ended her communication with April by phone. "Huft.what is my decision to go on vacation with them. But, I don't feel good about always refusing their invitations. But why Yogja? How about there I. "Great Yogja Ara, there's no way I can meet that person again...," his murmur assures him that his decision is the right one and that any consequences that will occur later he is sure he will be able to overcome them.
*****
Erlangga was still curled up in his room and read a small light blue book with a cover of a little girl wearing a yellow shirt sitting between the branches of a tree with a sad face. The book is called The Anthology of Poetry: All About You. However, his activity of reading and looking at the contents of the book became disturbed because of the arrival of someone who suddenly barged in and immediately threw his body on the same bed where Erlangga was lying.
One was surprised to see Erlangga sleeping on her back leaning against the pillow and reading the little book. He closely watched Erlangga and then shook his head.
"When did you like to read this book?" ask Erlangga's sister who is known by the name Ares. But the question was only silent and did not pierce at all Ares' question. Ares then forcibly revoked the book that had been previously held and read by Erlangga. He closely watched the book and smiled at Erlangga's taunting mark. "Loe, would you like to learn romance by reading this book?" ask again.
"Diem, it's not a loe affair..," said Erlangga.
"Duuuh kak loe tuh so more strange tau tau. I haven't been home for a long time, uh come home loe so strange like gini. And this, what is this?" ares said with a small book in his hand. "When has my sister been mellow?"
"Stupid, here's my book..," said Erlangga while taking the book in Ares's grasp.
"Hmm.loh anyway, out sono in the room continues to be like a chicken that again incubates the eggs, do not want to get out of bed at all," said Ares.
"Stupid very..," said Erlangga.
"Oh yes if it is said. Go to Kak Brina sono's house, since you came home from Singapore you haven't been there, right?"
"That's my business...,"
"Loe's got another problem with him. Stumped again?"
"I don't have a problem. And we never fight..," said Erlangga.
"Yes, I know that you guys never fight, adem ayem continue. But, you realize that your relationship is not that kind of boring..," explained Ares.
"Loe meant...?"
"Gini yes brother, in relationships there must be a dispute whether it is because of small or trivial problems such as small debates and so on. Sometimes it's a little frustrating how to solve the problem, but that's the challenge. You will learn together to overcome the problem and if it works then it can also make the relationship between you become more tight," explained Ares.
"Sok knows you....,"
"Gue is not pretentious, but that's the truth. To be honest with me now, you've been avoiding Brina because you feel bored right?"
"Don't be pretentious, I don't do that..," said Erlangga.
"Well, you can lie to me, brother, but you can't lie to yourself. I'd like to go on a date first yes..," said Ares while leaving Erlangga who was still fixated on looking carefully Ares said.
"I'm really tired of this relationship." he said. He had indeed decided to avoid Brina at this moment. But, not out of boredom of meeting Brina but there was something else in her heart and mind where someone else was taking all of her time right now. No, not just these moments, but from long ago. Since he had no more news of the girl, his mind was unceasingly thinking about the girl. And he didn't want Brina to see him thinking about other girls when they were together. That's why Erlangga decided to dodge temporarily and immediately finish the affairs of his heart. The removal of such thoughts quickly from his mind and Erlangga returned to focus with the little blue book. In his reading again a poem written by the girl which of course makes Erlangga recall his memories with the girl first.
Undeniable Duality
As if just yesterday we were looking shy at each other
As if just yesterday we were sitting quietly and silently
As if just yesterday we had a fight and a flutter without giving in
Until time goes by and changes everything that exists
Turning the home into laughter
Turn the silence into a joke
Turn anger into friendliness
We, who used to be too far from the word near
Which limits themselves to the distance, a bit..
Now it's getting as close as pulse
But time has changed everything that exists
Everything we've been through together
For the time we've spent crocheting the day together
Now it has reached the final word
We'll be back at some point
Where you became a stranger to me and I became a stranger to you
There are too many words why to know what God meant to bring us together
We, together, share a short story of our lives
But nothing happens until the end
Nothing has changed between you and me
We will forever remain like this
But there was never any regret in my life
I will not blame the meeting, nor will I ever judge separation
Because forever meeting will always be friendly with separation
That is the indisputable duality..
Erlangga pensively tried to recall the past. It didn't take long to remember those memories. Because the poem he had read was delivering him quickly to the gate of memory.
*****
I remember when you told me to set my distance with you. You're limiting our seating distance to your little hands as a measure. One jengkal. Yeah, that's the distance you're allowed then after you've tiredly kicked me away from you but I'm still stupid and won't listen to you. Until I surprised you at that time. I moved out of my seat and did not notice you talking to our friend. Then I sat behind you, breathing out my breath right next to your cheek. And of course it takes you by surprise and the reflexes immediately move away from me.
"Issshhhh.
"Hahahaha." I just answered with a laugh. I was so happy to see his angry face. Funnier. Especially when he blushing because of my treatment. Not so visible, because perfectly he can hide it. But, Erlangga is not his name if he does not know about Ara. Because more than anything I know that girl maybe even more than I know myself.
From then on, he began to limit the distance between us. He said he could not be close to sin or what are the many reasons he. But, I'm still me and he can't stand against me. I always teased her as usual and she finally gave up and let me get close to her later. He knew that arguing with me would never be endless because he gave up on getting me away from him. Taoi do you know anything else that characterizes him when he's irritated with me. I'll tell you. Tell me about that funny past.
That little girl I call a boy often. You know why because even though he's older than me, his behavior isn't like that of a kid. Sometimes he can be mature but on the other hand he acts more like a boy. Because his innocent attitude is what makes him look like a child who likes to be nosy and pretentious. He's called a strange girl. Whether it was by his own friends or by level brothers. You know why he's nicknamed that because he's weird. He often talks to himself, whether it's his phone, leptop or the computer in the lab office, he always invites them to talk. He also rambles all day if he is near me. I don't know this story is the story that sometimes I listen to it but more often I ignore it.
"Gha..," he said.
"Hmmm...,"my thoughts.
"You know what," he always started his sentence with that word. "I was told that I was weird with Mas Jo." he said at the time.
"It's true, is." I said.
"Ishhhh you are. Dengerin used to be napa..," he said starting to look annoyed with me.
"Yes.iya well...gue dangengerin..," I said.
"Mas Jo is weird, cook I'm kind of weird just because I never date. Strange right..," he said that even call others strange when he himself is actually strange.
"Yes correct what Mas Jo said..," I said.
"How's the?"
"You are weird. Everyone's been dating Ra. Even look at your age now,"
"22 years...,"
"Well, right from birth to your age of 22 years you have never been dating at all, while others may have been 3 or 5 times dating in that age range," I explained. He heard my explanation before saying what he wanted to say later.
"Ahhh.so yeah. So I said weird because it's like that. Everyone's been dating at least once like you, right?" he said asking for my opinion which I know is also a satire for me for his words.
"Not to suck.."" I said.
"Hehehe. While I never did at all. That's why I've always been a bully of children and often in strange dwarfs." he said.
"Yes, I've been looking for a boyfriend there." I asked but he shook his head. "Why?"
"Don't you want, didn't God say to himself in the letter of Al-Isra': 32 "wa laa taqrabuz zinaa innahu kaana faahishatan wa saa a'sabiela: and do not approach zina, indeed, adultery is a wicked deed and a bad way. That means God forbids dating, right...?" said it.
I am impressed with his words. "But, as long as we can still take care of ourselves and do not care about it, will not papa Ra..," I said.
But he just shook his head. "Hmm. Still I don't want to date...,"
"You'll always be bullied if you're so stubborn. And just accept your fate of being single for life because of your thoughts, that" I said.
"Being single and choosing to remain alone because not wanting to date is not the fate of Gha. But, that's the principle" he said, smiling broadly at me. "Sweet..," my inner.
Yes, that is his nature when it comes to the principles he holds there will be no one who is able to make him change his mind. And I like his self-reliance like that. Although he seems innocent but his thoughts can be very mature when it comes to things like that. He also accepts all the consequences of his decision. He always gets his bullies from our friends, his classmates and even from the younger siblings.
But he kept thinking stupid and sometimes putting his face in front of all of us and I knew that he wasn't really sad, but he just wanted to cheer us all up with his behavior. More than anything, more than anyone else I know that she is strong, she is a great woman who will be able to maintain the principles that she clearly knows the truth of, not like me though I knew the truth was right in front of me but I still followed my own desires. Selfish, but that's me.
*****
