The Secret Love Story (End)
Learning From Cumulus
"Tell me to be naive, as naive as you can still laugh
As naive as happiness in the nature of both of us
Because every second, when reality starts to intersect
I felt almost unbearable pain
Or, teach me to be a con man..!
When you feel that pain in your laughter"
~Supernove, Dee Lestari~
Ara was looking at the sky on the beach while laying her body on the white sand of the beach and soft. He didn't even mind if his wet clothes would get dirty by the ground. For him to enjoy the beach and the fall looking at the blue sky decorated with beautiful clouds is a beautiful scenery that should not be ignored in the slightest.Suddenly someone activate it.
"Hey boy, what's loe doing?" ask Erlangga.
I looked for where the voice came from. Then he found the man he was looking for sitting beside where he lay.
"Oh.you are ugly.
"Gue asked, what are you doing?" the one who had not received an answer from Ara.
"Again looking at the sky, noisily." replied Ara.
"Why? Why is loe mandangin lagit?"
"Because it's beautiful, especially... You don't see the sky is so beautiful" he said, pointing at the sky with his index finger. And Erlangga immediately followed the direction of Ara's view towards the sky. Ara who realized Erlangga was now also looking at the sky seemed to say again: "Right, really beautiful isn't it? Moreover, cumulus was with him." said Ara.
"The cumulus? Who's that?" asked Erlangga.
"That's Gha, that cloud is called Cumulus" explained Ara. Deg, for a moment Erlangga surprised Ara called him with the word "Gha" not with the word "ugly". Has Ara started to remember? He immediately wiped out the thought in his mind and then he went back to listening to what the girl said.
"Yarea....,"
"Yes, the thick cloud with the high peaks is called the Gha cumulus cloud. He formed during the day when the air began to rise" he explained, pointing to the clouds. Erlangga also listened carefully to Ara's explanation while also laying down her body beside Ara. "The cumulus cloud if he is faced with sunlight then he will look as bright as we can see today. But, if he obtained a beam just next to it, it would cause a gray shadow. Doesn't he have the same side as us Gha?" ara asked Erlangga but did not demand an answer from the man next to her. He just seemed to give an affirmation.
"Like us? Why?" ask Erlangga.
"Yes, Cumulus is like us, our fellow humans who interact with each other. The difference is that cumulus interacts with the sun, but we interact with fellow humans. Just as the cumulus has two sides: light and dark shadow due to its interaction with the sun, man also has two sides. The dark side as well as the light side." explained Ara. Erlangga fell silent and pondered Ara's words while still staring at the clouds in the vast expanse of the sky.
"The dark side.and also the light side." Erlangga said.
"Hu'umb.so that we humans, have two sides, namely the dark side or called the bad side and the bright side or called the good side. It depends on how we choose which side of us is more dominant. Whether we will choose the worse side that is more dominant or vice versa. Everything depends on how we choose, while God the screenwriter of our lives will only watch us from His Throne" explained Ara.
"Which side do you want?"
"Silly question...?"
"I'm serious...?"
"I would certainly like to choose the more dominant bright side. So that way I can close my dark side,"
"Why? You want to hide it?" asked Erlangga with a tone of speech that began to follow the rhythm of Ara's speech.
"No...,"
"Why?"
"Let us never be able to hide the dark side of ourselves Egha. As hard and strong as you try to do that, it will still not be possible. Because it is part of us, and eventually one day it will break down as well, like a strong knot in the end it will also break down, right?"
"Why do you want to cover it up if you don't mean to hide it?"
"I want to cover it with a light side so that the dark side will slowly become small, it is small and getting smaller that it becomes part of the past and then slowly passes through the filters of life into memories. That way when the dark side is unraveled someday then it will not hurt anyone too much because the light side is able to overcome the pain," explained Ara while smiling knot towards Erlangga.
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"Yes.this is beautiful..," I said later after hearing his explanation.
"Fa bi 'ayyi ala'i rabbikuma tukazziban, then which favor of God do you deny?" said Ara with a sweet and bright smile to my Ara.
"Yes, which favor of God do you deny. Everything is beautiful only if you look at it more closely, right?" I said while looking at him. And he just nodded in agreement to my opinion without turning to look at me. "You are like that too, beautiful, only if you look at it more closely" I murmured. Then a silence was created between me and Ara. We just keep doing the same thing. Seeing sky.
His friends who were tired of playing water immediately returned and found Ara and Erlangga both lying down looking at the sky. They were all suspicious of the two creatures of God, the article Erlangga who had not looked anywhere suddenly now was beside Ara.
"What are you guys doing?" ask Arif.
"Why not just look at the sky..," clearly the two who had jumped a little shocked because of the preoccupation with the world they were waking up to ignore the surroundings. Then they got up from their lying position while shaking the ground attached to their clothes that were almost dry due to the wind.
"There are.There are you. To the beach instead of playing water even lying down while looking at the sky, not a lot of work..," cried Tama.
Then Ara woke up from her sitting position while fixing the position of the towel that began to slip from her shoulder. "Everything is beautiful only if you look at it more closely" said Ara as she rolled her eyes at Erlangga and then rushed away with Vreya's hand. Erlangga who knew Ara's intention to repeat his words some time ago was just a faint smile, while her friends shook their heads to see the strange behavior of her friend.
"Oh, so you're better than Ara." asked Tama.
"Indeed when I fight with him," said Erlangga who instead answered by giving back questions that made his friends do the same thing as a few seconds ago. Then he left and waved his hand to his friends while carrying a bag containing his clothes instead.
"Basically, the two creatures are still the same as before, a little bit of a fight, a little better and ntar definitely back again." said Yola.
"Yes, it's like that's their life cycle" added Vina.
"Alahhh..had not been to interfere in the household affairs of people..hahaha..," said Reza.
"So, you're better than him, Gha" muttered Mela.
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Mella was waiting for Erlangga and demanded an explanation to her friend. Why did his friend start to get close to the girl again, because he had decided to stay away from the girl but why now slowly they started to get closer again. The time of a few years should be able to erase what is between them to create awkwardness as a distance. But in fact it is not, because for Erlangga or Ara there is no limit in the form of awkwardness when they are together there is only a comfort created from the understanding of the tulud between the two.
Mella stared intently at Erlangga's eyes and probed into the eyes hiding behind the thin glass as the boundary.
"Why....?" ask Erlangga.
"What's up with Ara?" ask Mella.
"What's Mel doing?" Erlangga asked back.
"Don't convolute Gha, answer clearly you're no longer trying to get Ara's memory back so she can remember you, right?"
"No, I didn't do that. It's his decision if he wants to forget and bury all the memories of me with him" Erlangga said. "So he will get better. He won't be hurt by those memories again, given how heartbreaking and cruel I was for always ignoring him first and not even caring about his whereabouts," erlangga said with a slightly moody look and then remembered the mistake he had made a few years ago.
"That's not the fault of Loe Gha. He himself is always dependent on you. Anything he always asks for help just like you even though it's not that important. Loe may not always be there for him, because you also have a girl. While he who knows it will still do the same thing over and over again. Disgusting, what is it because he has never been close to a guy before." said Mella.
"Stop Mel, he's your friend and as your friend you shouldn't insult him like that,"
"Gue didn't insult him Gha, I just told him the truth. Didn't you yourself who used to feel uncomfortable if you were close to him, but why now you....,"
"Here is Mel, stop this kind of pointless talk....,"
"Gue will stop if you promise not to get close to Ara again,"
"Mel, you don't have the right to nag me...,"
"Gue has Gha's right, I'm in a position with Brina. And I have the right to ban loe deket with any girl so that my best friend's heart is not hurt...,"
"Bulshit.. denger ya Mel, neither Loe nor Brina have the right to deny me to anyone, including my own parents. This is my life, and I am free to do what I want..," Erlangga said furiously while leaving Mela.
While Mela was only speechless to hear Erlangga's words with a rather high intonation before leaving her a few seconds ago. They were not aware that there was someone observing their quarrel from afar. He heard all those conversations, and suddenly a sense of tightness in his chest appeared instantly. For some reason it was as if something had struck his heart and created the tightness.
"All because of me. Am I really that disgusting,." said the man with tears that began to appear in his eyes. And he sobbed without a sound a few seconds later.
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