The Secret Love Story (End)
The Perfect Dusk
And this heart brought me back to you
But you're no longer where we used to be
Have you found half another heart, other than my heart?
~Heart words, Bernard coal~
"I'm enjoying the waves right now with my mom, dad and sister. Parangtritis beach looks beautiful in the afternoon. Orange color can be seen everywhere, he was seen drowning in the middle of the beach that collided in the waves, he was seen in the shadow of the white sand beach and he also beautifully decorated the sky this afternoon. You're right, twilight is beautiful," the inner Erlangga who later recalled a piece of poetry she had read in the little blue book.
The Perfect Dusk
Thought...
I'm sitting with you..
Enjoy the breeze of the afternoon and gently caress
The clump seemed to sway
The leaves also danced cheerfully
Enjoying our togetherness in crocheting the day together
Until dusk peek behind the horizon
A few seconds later his engrossed gaze stared at the suddenly sidetracked twilight when he saw someone from afar. A girl was staring at the twilight by the beach, she was sitting by herself watching her friends playing in the water. Sometimes he smiles to find his friends who fight with each other water. Erlangga stood up from his sitting position for a moment, when he found the girl with her friends walking away from the beach. The girl walked towards him, Ah not that just thought Erlangga because she knew the girl at this time did not know that Erlangga was staring at him from earlier in the distance.
Just as he expected, the girl blinked her eyes in disbelief at what she saw. He was surprised to find Erlangga standing in front of him. The same thing happened to the girl's friends when they found her step stopped suddenly because they saw someone who was only one step away from her.
"Egha..," said the girl shrewdly and almost inaudible from the wind.
"Oh, hi.you are here..," said Erlangga kaku. The girl simply replied with a nod. "Ngapain....?" erlangga asked with a cliche question, because she knew that the answer to her own question was because the girl was on vacation on the spot.
"Vacation..," said the girl stiffly as she bit her lower lip.
However, their conversation was not so long. Only 5 minutes was no more because the girl's friend immediately came and took the girl away. One of his friends a man among them seven wore a long cloth on the girl's back to keep the girl away from the cold wind that blew in the afternoon before the unfortunate. Erlangga was surprised to see that, and his mind was filled with endless questions.
"Is he your lover...?" he murmured in the heart.
After the incident she walked back with her friends after bending her body and waving her hand stiffly before Erlangga a sign that the girl was about to leave. Erlangga did the same, waving his hand stiffly and smiling knots letting the girl pass from before him. However, vaguely he could still hear a girl friend ask the girl.
"Who's Ra...?" his question. Erlangga knew that the girl's friend would definitely ask that question because the girl stopped her steps a moment ago to just say hello to Erlangga.
"Friends.." said the girl.
Deg. "Friends yes..," Erlangga's mind then also moved from where he stood after he knew that Ara had walked away from him. He decided to go back to his family because he knew that the girl would not turn from her steps to meet him again. Because the girl probably thinks that everything is done. It is the end and a part of the past.
*****
Three years, exactly three years I didn't see him. And now I meet him, 3 minutes. For only 3 minutes we talked awkwardly and then he left me still stuck in my place. Three minutes was not enough for me to erase the yearning that had tormented me for three years. I looked around for his figure again from some people who walked by hoping that his little body was tucked between them. I looked for his figure behind the tree that was drowned in the light of the lamp hoping that his shadow would be seen. I even looked for her figure under the table hoping that she would hide down there and then pop out just to surprise me when I realized my arrival. But in fact, I wish I might just be desperate at altitude. Never touched real. I wish I'd been destroyed at exactly the third second.
I sat down with my family, eating the food that was on the table. These foods were supposed to be tempting because of their piercing aroma, but I didn't actually feel anything when they started touching my tongue. I tasted all the food without feeling it. Just to save my stomach that started to wrangle because there was no more energy left. I found my mom, dad and sister doing the same thing. And we had a little chat when the food in front of us had moved into a large, long tube in our stomachs. At that moment, I heard a voice. A voice I know and miss. Well, it's him, it's his voice and I found him. I knew he was sitting right behind my back when I knew I couldn't find him around this restaurant after a few minutes of my eyes running around looking for his figure. I opened my eyes and began to hear her conversations with her friends.
Sometimes I hear his laughter, sometimes I hear his shy words. I really wanted to see the look on her face when she did all that. But, I know I can't. He was sitting right behind me but I could only hear his voice and laughter faintly as the wind blew quite fiercely. I could hear a game they were playing. Truth or Dare, TOD. Yeah, I used to play that game with two of my friends, and then we asked him questions instantly even though he wasn't actually in the game.
"Do you still love Mr. M?" vreya asked the girl who was his best friend. She was surprised to hear Vreya's question, and it was the same thing as me. I also wondered what the answer would be. Me, Vreya and Mas Vito observed her facial expressions still reluctant to answer. But Vreya's not her name if she stops without getting an answer from her friend. Even though he knew that his best friend was not involved in the game we were playing, he still gave the question he was supposed to give me to his best friend. "Do you still love Mr. M?" ask Vreya again.
Finally, a few seconds later the girl replied. "No.." he said, smiling at the three of us. And somehow I suddenly felt relieved when I heard the answer. Strange no, but I knew there was still something the girl was hiding deep in her heart that no one knew except God.
*****
The wind was still blowing fiercely and made some of my feathers stand up because of the cold. But, the TOD game still continues after they eat their dinner. This time, the botonl that had been swiveled was the tip leading to Ara.
"Who is that guy?" ask Ara's friends who got a turn to question her.
"Friends.." answered Ara.
"Is it really just friends? Wasn't he the one who drove you to Icha's wedding first?" tanya April is full of probes.
Pias filled Ara's face at that moment. But, he was still able to master himself and answer his friend's questions flatly. "Yes, he brought me and he was just a friend" replied Ara.
Now another friend of Ara's asked a question. In this game it is different than usual. Where in this game that chooses "Truth" will be given a question by each participant of the game and the condition is only one question that they can ask.
"friends only. Wouldn't it be weird if he would take you all the way from your college to your place of residence just to attend Icha's wedding, if you were just friends? This time it was Mia's turn to ask.
"Yes, he is like that. He's driving me everywhere. And I always called him a motorcycle taxi driver. We're used to being together so it's not a big or weird thing if I go out with him not even if we're just friends?" said Ara who was answered with a nod by her friends.
"He's not bad. Face's nice. Why don't you want to be her boyfriend?" ask Icha.
"I don't want to date. He already has a girlfriend" Ara said.
"Oh, that. You...Do you like it?" vito asked with a hesitant look.
Ara speechless. He knew from his friends that the man sitting in front of him was harboring a taste for him. Therefore, it is not impossible if questions like this will slide from his lips even though they are said in hesitation.
Ara did not answer just shaking her head. But, Vito demanded a verbal answer from the woman before him who now lowered her face while hiding her facial expression. "I need a verbal answer Ra," said Vito even though he knew that the ring from Ara's head was the answer to the word "no" but he still wanted him to reply with a verbal answer. "What is he like to you, Ra..?" asked Vito then who of course made the face of Ara who had originally looked down now looked at the man in front of her.
"Only one question can you ask Vit." said Ara.
"I didn't get the answer I wanted for my first question, so I changed the question" Vito explained.
Ara looked at the man before her now and then answered the second question asked by the man. "She's someone who makes me feel good every time I'm with her" Ara said. Ara felt her face start to be buffeted by the hot wind now especially in the area around her eyes. However, he tried his best to hold the clear liquid out of his eyes.
Vito was silent at Ara's reply, knowing that the girl before him was telling the truth that his heart was really feeling. Not lies. He could no longer afford to stare at the girl, it felt as if his face had been struck down by the reply that appeared on those sweet lips.
"If she's like that to you, then why was it that when you met her you were ordinary. Shouldn't you be spending some time with him because he's your best friend?" faiz asked the last question in the game.
Ara was silent digesting the question. Perhaps most people will do what his friend says when he meets his best friend given how much they used to spend the day together. And melt down all the longings that exist after three years of uniting. But in fact for Ara meeting a moment ago it did not melt her longing on the man. Not one bit, not at all. For him spending time with him when he met will also cause other longings later. Therefore Ara chose not to spend much time with the man. Just three minutes, only within that time limit would Ara make her memories that on this day she met the man after three years.
"No.that's not necessary. I don't want to repeat the same mistake." replied Ara.
Deg, mistake. The person behind Ara's back began to unsettle in her sitting. He could hear the reason the girl did not want to linger with him during the meeting this afternoon. From the words of the girl he can conclude that the girl does not want to make the same mistake if she chooses to spend time with him.
"Is being with me a mistake for you, Ra?" inner Erlangga. "Why was that a mistake?" inner again. Erlangga wanted to turn her body immediately and face the girl while demanding the reason why the girl said such a thing. But in fact, his intention was broken. Because he did not want to disturb the girl in the middle of her vacation by asking about things related to the past.
"You changed Ra, why did you turn this cold?" Erlangga.
A few minutes later, Erlangga no longer heard the conversation at the table next to his seat. Ara had left a few minutes ago just as Erlangga was struggling with his bati to the point of not realizing the girl's departure.
