THE NO-MAN'S LOVE
28. SECRET LOVE
Finally, what I feared happened as well. For the first time my husband and I had an argument, more precisely a fight even though I did not respond to it. I can no longer describe how I feel right now. He just left me, leaving me without caring about my solitude and the illness that I was deliberately hiding from him.
***
“I already know, Mas. You don't have to repeat it again.”
Egidia remained soft-spoken with an ever-preserved calmness to hide her weak side which was actually very fragile and had already wanted to give up, However, for the sake of self-respect, she said, he tried to keep looking strong in front of the man who had already broken his heart.
“I have complied with your willingness to be quiet and never talk about our feelings. However, you are the first to open this conversation and you are always talking about other women in our household.”
“Sorry, I mean housekeeping pretend we.” The woman deliberately rectified it, making Genio even more cornered.
However, instead of staying silent and stopping, the man even added to the murmur by accusing his wife of doing something to avenge her heartache.
“Egi! Why are you so good at tongue-licking now? You're starting to dare to argue with your husband?”
“Suami on paper, Mas!” Again Egidia kept reminding of the boundaries of the relationship between them, which Genio had originally asked to agree on together.
“As of you!”
Eventually the man gave up on not being able to prolong the debate which was always broken with Egidia's light but truth-containing statement.
Genio came out and closed the door hard, though not to the point of slamming it, after rubbing his angry face violently and grabbing the phone and car keys.
Egidia switched from a lying position to sitting leaning. He let out a long sigh until finally his cries spilled unstoppably again. His tears flowed more and more when he heard the sound of the garage door and the front door opened, then the car engine ignited with a rush that seemed to rush, after closing the two doors again.
The woman could already guess where her husband was going easily without a second thought. Genio had another residence hidden from him. He will leave and maybe spend the night there.
You have no intention of solving the problem, Mom! In fact, I hope we can talk well and make a better deal for the future.
Egidia did not entirely blame the husband, as they did make a mutual agreement, although still she just followed what Genio wanted. If the man is currently acting over the line, he can do nothing because the matter of feeling is the private domain of her husband.
Only, women who have been convicted by doctors with severe disease regretted the attitude of Genio who could not maintain calm in the house they shared.
Why talk to your girlfriend in this house, Mom? Doesn't that mean you've broken a deal you made yourself?
Undone her tears still splattered her face as well as the clothes of the front, Egidia was startled by a message coming into her phone. At first he was reluctant to take that bright sailing flat object off the table.
However, as the ringing continued to ring for several times, the poor woman finally grabbed it with her arms outstretched straight to end the sound.
A tiara? He must have seen Mas Gen's departure!
Egidia opened and read two new messages sent by the neighbor. Although actually feeling embarrassed because of their household problems must be known to others, even with the limited capacity of the profession to find a solution, it is undeniable that the help of a prospective psychologist is very helpful.
“Egi, are you okay?”
“Sorry if I bother you these nights.”
Now, after feeling his secret love story unfold when he himself accidentally did it, the man changed and showed his face as well as his original habits. To be honest, Egidia felt shocked and incredulous, if she was the same person her parents had once introduced as a manly, patient, obedient and religious figure.
After her heart calmed down and head was not dizzy, the frail lady replied to a message from Tiara. Still trying to cover the situation, because he was not ready to return to the story and consult for now. It is better to remain silent until his emotions are completely gone.
“I'm fine, Tia. Thank you for your concern!”
“Sorry if there is something from me or Mas Gen that makes you and Mbak Mutia disturbed. Good night!”
After making sure the message was sent and read by her good neighbor, Egidia quickly turned off the phone's power and put it back on the table.
I do love you, Mom! I was the one who lied from the start and troubled myself. But what difference does it make if you know how I feel? You won't care much less about accepting it. You cannot turn away from the woman who has ruled all your heart and soul, and occupies the most beautiful space of love in the depths of your heart.
***
By dawn, Egidia had already woken up from feeling severe nausea in her stomach. Coupled with a headache that strikes again fiercely. Without caring about the balance of her body that was not yet fully intact, the woman ran to the bathroom and spilled all the contents of the stomach.
After feeling relieved and better, he rinsed at once and washed to get ready to fulfill his obligations. Coming out of the bathroom, she was surprised by the arrival of Genio who was still wearing the same clothes as when he left.
Whether the man listens to the sound of his wife's vomit or comes after it, all he does in the room is pick up a big suitcase on top of the closet. Egidia was further astonished to learn that her husband's return was only to pack up some of his clothes and personal necessities.
After finishing with a large box of clothes and shoes, Genio switched to his desk. He took some of the job documents left there, then stuffed them into a tote bag that already contained his work device.
Egidia was flinching in place. Not knowing what to say and how to behave. Just quietly pay attention to her husband's behavior, with a heart that again sliced sore.
Genio took the suitcase down from the bed and took out his handle. Then he attached the strap of his briefcase on his left shoulder and pulled the large suitcase with his right hand.
Looking at the wife who was staring at the bathroom door, the man paused with the same gaze as last night. Sharp, arrogant and full of anger.
“I'll be out of this house. I don't want to hurt you if you accidentally see or hear me hooked up with Monita.”
“You are free to do anything here and outside the home. Let's just say I gave all my permission to you.”
“Monthly money will I give as usual and sent directly to your account every time I receive salary.”
Without giving Egidia a chance to ask or just digest each sentence slowly, Genio continued saying his words until finally saying goodbye.
“For a while, we better stay apart than have another fight like last night.”
“I need some time to be alone. Maybe you want that too.”
“I'm gone. Take care!”
Egidia resigned in a silence that was deliberately maintained. Because if he makes a sound, it is certain that this time he will also shed tears.
You really don't care about me, Mom! Never and never want to care a little!
