THE NO-MAN'S LOVE

27. FIRST QUARREL

I should feel hurt and ask for an explanation, but why is it he who is angry and does not accept? He covered up his mistake by blurting out high-pitched words, as if I were the one who was not right and became the source of this complexity. It was enough for me to shut up and give up for her sake. From now on, I will stop fighting. If we are still a match, then there will be ease ahead there. But if not, I won't make it harder for our relationship to break up.

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“He's my coworker, Egi!”

“There is nothing wrong if I pick him up and we leave together.”

Without being asked, Genio has defended himself and positioned himself not as a wrongdoer, but as a victim of suspicion.

“I'm not saying you're guilty, Mas!”

For the first time, Egidia ventured to open a more serious communication room with her husband. It is more appropriate to say it as a debate.

He remained lying quietly while enduring the pain that began to strike the head, but as much as possible was not shown in front of the man who was still standing with a nervous attitude.

His head turned towards the husband, until two pairs of their eyes clashed and looked at each other closely.

Genio was speechless to hear the reply from the woman who usually never denied it. He felt like he had been speechless, as if he wanted to defend himself in the wrong way and was in a hurry because of panic.

“I just want to explain to you the truth! I don't want you to accuse me of a no-no!”

“Tell me, Mas! Which of my words makes you feel like I've accused you?” Egidia was still following her husband's words, while her brain was still cold and sane.

“I'm even just answering your question!”

Intentionally the woman did not want to widen the discussion towards the next conversation she heard from the beginning until Genio ended the communication connection with Monita.

In fact, if you want he could repeat all the words of the husband who still ringing very clearly in his ears. However, he was unwilling to humiliate in an unethical manner. It is better to be quiet and everything opens on its own.

Egidia closed her eyes, trying to fight the pain that increasingly pierced the back of the head. Coupled with nausea that began to attack, making his face may look pale.

“Your eyes and your tears are accusing me, Egi!”

Genio is still looking for excuses and justifications for what was previously said and backfired for him. Because of panic, he defended himself too quickly when his wife did not ask questions.

“Does that bother you, Mas?” With her eyes closed, Egidia still replied to her husband.

“I'm sorry if you feel accused, just because I kept quiet and cried without saying anything.”

“We'd better not talk about it anymore. Was it not Mas Gen who asked us not to talk about other women or men in our household?”

Egidia pulled her blanket higher. Re-opening the eyes after the head feels lighter and the pain subsides. She saw her husband still standing with both hands perched at the waist. His gaze was still as sharp as before and was fixed straight at him.

Genio again felt slapped with his own words reminded by the wife. He who from the beginning set, he also began to break.

“Good night, Mas. Happy resting!”

The woman who ended their conversation with a smile that was still shown even with a broken heart and full of wounds.

“We haven't finished talking, Egi!” Genio's voice rose, even though the wife kept her speech soft even though her heart was broken.

“I don't want any misunderstanding between us!”

“I didn't misunderstand you, Mom! Nor am I angry, not offended and not blaming yourself.” Egidia was forced to reply and recite her husband's words.

“I do not need to misunderstand because from the beginning we already know and agree if this marriage is only limited to paper.”

“No need to feel anything involved in this relationship. Didn't you?”

Genio was again made silent by the words of his wife who remained targeted to hit the heart. Makes the man feel wrong about himself because he remembers his mistakes.

“I won't restrain you, Mas. So do you, no need to restrain me.”

“You can do anything you want to do. So do I, let me do whatever I want to do.”

“Or Mas Gen want another deal?” challenge Egidia.

Genio was silent, unable to answer immediately. Again he felt struck by the sentence after sentence his wife said. All of that was his speech and request at the beginning of their marriage first.

However, as a man he had to keep his authority and raise his pride above his wife. All Egidia's words implied a subtle allusion to her, as well as showing that the woman had known everything, and foolishly, all of it was due to her own carelessness.

“Enough, Egi! Don't provoke my anger!”

Genio can not stand it anymore until his ego makes him have to remain firm, even though he is clearly wrong and has exposed his own disgrace.

“I am in a relationship with Monita! We love each other!”