THE NO-MAN'S LOVE
25. NUMBNESS
I have no other choice. It is better to be alone with one goal, than together but not in line. I love myself more, although my love for him is still there. I will not succumb to my illness, even though I have to surrender to the fate of my household. Let time give you an answer, what will happen when he can no longer relate to what he has seen with his own eyes.
***
“Tia, can I make an appointment with you to consult?”
Finally, in order to maintain the sanity of her frail and fragile soul, Egidia decided to ask for the help of someone she trusted the most right now. Although he will not be able to solve the problem at hand, but at least he will feel much more relieved and calm after sharing the burden on the right and impartial people.
“Of course! Anytime, Egi. Coincidentally today I had no agenda and was at home all day.”
Tiara asked the neighbor to come to her house. Knowing the tempest in her new friend's benevolent household, she will not remain silent even if she can only help as a listener to Egidia.
At least, the woman alone had dared to act and find a solution. No longer harboring everything alone and lead to frustration that will make it more difficult mentally to survive and struggle.
“I just got home from the hospital and want to rest first.”
“Do you mind if I'll come after Zuhur later?”
“No problem, Egi! Come after you feel fit again.”
From her sister's story last week, Tiara learned of an early diagnosis of a disease Egidia might have suffered. At that time, Mutia was indeed asked to come to Doctor Kaivan's room to calm Egidia who was crying alone. However, for the exact result today, they still did not know because the neighbor had also just returned home.
After agreeing and greeting each other, the phone call was terminated first by Egidia. Tiara, alone at home, sends a message to Mutia who is still on duty at the same hospital where Genio's wife checked herself out.
The soul of his great curiosity does sometimes exceed the limits it should have. Either will pay off or not, because Mutia is very professional and loyal to her vows of profession.
Despite knowing that a doctor must uphold the code of conduct to keep the data and medical history of his patients confidential, he wanted to ask his sister for help to find out what disease Egidia suffered.
I hope Mutia can help me! All this for Egidia's sake because I feel very sorry for that pious woman.
***
“I'm sick, Tia! Severe pain and may be difficult to cure!”
In Tiara's arms, Egidia cried for the first time and told about the condition of her body that was not okay. In fact, you could say dying.
The story that should be conveyed first to the husband, in fact can not be done because the man he loved ignored himself and preferred to have fun with other women.
Suddenly Egidia just remembered, that the woman who loved her husband was engaged to another man. Then, why did he spend time with Genio, as if the two were indeed deliberately cheating on the back of their respective partners?
“Mas Gen ... Mas Gen also ..”
With a stammering voice amid her sobs, Egidia recounted what she saw on the way home from the hospital.
“Dia ... and the woman .. they ... be very friendly and ...”
“They ... go into an .. apartment.”
Although very surprised by the story of the hijab-wearing woman who was soaked by the tears, Tiara restrained herself and controlled her emotions in order to remain professional. Currently, Egidia is a client who needs help or assistance from her.
The psychologist candidate let Egidia finish her crying, before continuing to tell her story. He also let hugs and strokes from him continue to be felt by the client as a tranquilizer and pain reliever that is pounding his soul and body.
Fifteen minutes later, Egidia began to gain control of herself and ended her cries. Pulling his body from the arms of a good neighbor makes him feel like he has friends, even if he is away from his parents and family.
“Sorry, I'm overdoing it.”
“It's okay, Egi. Everyone does it when they are sad and hurt!”
Tiara shook her head while moving the tissue box from the table to the lap of the wet-faced woman with those red eyes. Give time to clean the remaining tears, before continuing his story about the behavior of the husband behind him.
“I don't know how far their relationship has gone. In fact, Monita also has a fiance and they will soon get married after her future husband completes his education outside the city.”
“I'm afraid all this is just my bad thoughts and it turns out my guess has been wrong all along. I am afraid that I am the one who has been too afraid to always think negatively about Mas Gen.”
Inwardly, Tiara was utterly amazed by the innocence and sincerity of Egidia, who still wished for the wrong thing about her husband's untrue behavior that was clearly seen for her in real.
Maybe because the woman still hopes to improve relationships and maintain her actual household has been forced from the beginning, just to follow the wishes of the parents.
After consulting about the tempest of her marriage, Egidia again told her about the doctor's verdict that had been delivered to her. He who at first wants to be honest and ask for support from the husband, finally decided not to tell Genio after seeing the togetherness of the man with the woman who had been recognized as a very loved figure.
“I will fight alone to fight this disease! I want to heal and show everyone that a weak woman like me can still survive an uncomfortable relationship and never be considered at all!”
“I did it not because I was stupid or feeling isolated, but the other way around. I want to prove that I can still live and be fine despite having to live a relationship that is numb and not okay.”
