THE NO-MAN'S LOVE
23. MUST BE HONEST
Death! That was the first thing that crossed my mind when the doctor delivered the verdict on my illness. For a moment I felt lost hope and eagerness to do anything. I just wanted to cry and go home and tell my husband. Although I was not sure, he would behave as I expected and could be my strength and place to lean on to reduce any burden on my heart.
***
“There are cancer cells that develop in part of the Mother's brain and the condition has reached an advanced stage.”
Doctor Kai, who was used to such conditions, still felt hard to convey with a sad heart, let alone Egidia who listened and got the verdict.
For a moment he was stunned with no expression at all. His face was still perpendicular to the doctor who could not help but notice and worry about him, but the woman's gaze was empty and glared out of nowhere.
How sorry for him! There should be a husband or family who accompany you, so it can be a strength and a place to lean in difficult and toughest times like this.
A few seconds later, Egidia blinked and her tears spilled. Flowing wet a beautiful face that is increasingly pale and increasingly thin. No matter how hard she wants to look strong and not cry, she is unable to pretend.
No matter the full gaze of Doctor Kai and the nurse, she continued to cry to relieve the tightness that squeezed her chest until she had trouble breathing. The nurse took the mineral water in a packaged glass that had been given a straw, then gave it to Egidia.
With a nodding head gesture as a sign of gratitude, the unfortunate woman accepted and gulped down without a trace. Back the same nurse helped throw the empty packaging into the garbage basket, then brought the city of tissue on the table closer.
Doctor Kai straightened the position of the body by leaning on his swivel chair. Both hands folded in front of the chest with a look of pity that can not be separated from the patient. Throughout his practice which has been licensed for more than three years, this time he found patients with severe cases came alone without even being accompanied by family.
How busy was her husband to not be able to make time for his own wife?
Ever since Mutia told her that they were a newlywed couple living away from their parents and family, Doctor Kai had placed his empathy on the woman who was much younger than him.
After a few minutes had passed, the sedu-sedan of Egidia's cries began to subside. The graceful woman cleaned her face then, adjusted her breath as best as possible to refocus her mind on the illness.
“Does that mean there is no hope for me to heal, Doc?”
Egidia was unwilling to wish and hope without certainty. It is better to know everything at the beginning and prepare yourself to face all possibilities ahead.
“That hope is always there!” convinced the doctor to question the thoughts and feelings of the patient.
“We as a medical team will never stop trying to help as we can, so that patients can get the best treatment and care that can still be done and pursued!”
Then, slowly the handsome doctor with glasses began to explain about the intricacies of the disease suffered by Egidia and convey the series of treatments that will be done as their efforts in striving for healing, and the, whatever the final result of the Divine.
Egidia simply fell silent and listened carefully. Do not want to miss one sentence at a time spoken by the doctor. He was determined to heal or at least be able to survive longer.
He did not want to give up losing and just resigned. As long as the medical team is able to work, then during that time he will fight to reach the finish line.
“I'll do it all, Doc!”
No matter how small of a hope that could still be grasped, Egidia would not waste the opportunity at hand. Despite being overshadowed by failure and death, the hijab-wearing woman remained determined to continue her efforts.
Doctor Kai salutes the confidence that the patient still has. Although it looked bad, Egidia again rose and confirmed the intention to continue to seek treatment.
“We need approval from the family to continue the treatment of Mom!”
“Ma-I mean Doctor, my husband?”
Inevitably the doctor nodded and confirmed. In fact, the medical team can still move and perform tasks as long as the patient agrees and has signed administrative files that must be met.
However, he still prioritizes the cooperation of his patients with the family, especially in this case is Egidia's husband. The doctor who is still relatively young in profession, always prioritizes the psychological condition of his patients who need a lot of support at the highest level is from his own family.
The morning meeting was finally closed with a prescription to address Egidia's daily complaints, while waiting for the patient to discuss with his family before signing the consent file to take further medical action.
Doctor Kaivan let go of his first patient that day with a series of heartfelt prayers.
May God give you the strength and confidence to stand the test of this pain!
***
Egidia again shed a cry at the hospital musala. He needed time to calm down, while no one accompanied and covered his heart.
Am I going to die soon? Is my life this short in the line of destiny that He has set?
The woman continued to cry bitterly in the sacred and quiet room. She wanted to let go of all the burdens in her heart, before going home and having to tell her husband everything.
I have to be honest with Mas Gen! Whatever the reaction, it's business later. I don't want to be mistaken if I hide this result from him. He should know!
After completing the grief for her illness verdict, Egidia tidied up the appearance including repeating thin makeup on her face to disguise her own face. Then he came out to take the drug that had previously been delivered in the pharmaceutical section.
After paying and receiving more bags of medicine than before, the woman, who began to feel pain in her head, went downstairs to wait for her taxi order.
No need to wait long, a sedan car with a police number corresponding to the one listed in the app on Egidia's phone had already picked up in the lobby. He immediately went up and sat down at the back.
In the middle of the journey that passes several points of crowds on the highway that is crowded office, egidia's attention was turned outward as the car paused at an intersection where the traffic lights were burning red.
Intending to comfort himself by paying attention to the other atmosphere, his heart was even more painful and weaker when he saw a shocking and painful scene.
