THE NO-MAN'S LOVE
12. FALSE HOPE
I don't mean to expose the disgrace of my household to others. However, with my own condition and loneliness in this place, I need a place to share other than the Almighty. Just a friend to hear my complaints. Just to release the increasingly urgent burden in the corner of the heart. Really, I respect my husband and don't want to make him bad in the eyes of others. Merely, I can't hide this matter from someone who is used to dealing with similar things. Hopefully, I didn't make the wrong decision!
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Initially, Egidia was still silent and endured to say nothing to Tiara. However, after the beautiful woman said that she had a background in science and profession related to these things, her heart began to waver.
“Before, I apologize if my question was too presumptuous and pretentious. I won't force you to share if you feel unsure, let alone uncomfortable.”
“However, there is one thing you need to know, if I am a psychology scholar and am finishing higher education to get a psychologist.”
Without intending to elevate himself, Tiara said very gently and calmly. He knew how to behave in the face of someone with more or less the same condition as Egidia.
Moreover, most of those who experience household problems will tend to be closed and choose to keep the problem alone, alone, because it assumes that all of it is something that is taboo and not worth knowing and discussing with others.
Tiara will not force it if it does not work and the neighbor still does not want to share it with him. Moreover, all he knew was that Genio and Egidia had just gotten married. Maybe they still need time to adjust to each other.
However, instinctively from what was seen and noticed from the behavior of Egidia who chose to be silent and seemed to withdraw and limit the topic of conversation, he could clearly capture that the woman was in a depressed state and not okay.
Coupled with his declining physical condition, it was very visible if he was so weak and had no power. Maybe deliberately silent for the sake of a hope or indeed all that is expected is a false hope.
While the neighbor began to resign and did not speak anymore but still showed a tranquilizing smile, Egidia was more hesitant and hesitant. He felt awkward, but also still wanted to keep everything alone.
After all, they had just gotten acquainted, it felt uncomfortable just to tell a story. Let alone new friends, with old friends he still thinks long to do it.
Despite being interested in the science mastered by Tiara, Egidia still refrained from getting carried away by emotions when deciding on her attitude. Let it be if the beautiful woman can indeed read the look of the face and interpret the attitude she shows, because it does have the ability in this matter.
Not wanting the neighbor to misunderstand because of her silence, Egidia finally ventured to convey her decision. He returned the touch of Tiara's hand so that they grasped each other with tenderness.
“Thank you for your care and concern, Tia. I really appreciate it.”
“However, for now I am fine and can cope with everything, whatever it is.”
Tiara nodded without removing the smile on her face. He respected Egidia's decision to keep her privacy. However, he still cannot ignore the physical condition of the hijab-wearing woman alone.
“It's okay. Comfort yourself because you know how to make yourself happy.”
Once again, Tiara still suggested that Egidia contact her husband, just to let him know about his current situation. However, the woman who still looked pale endured the pain still refused and said that she only needed more rest.
Finally, after about an hour of accompanying Egidia whose condition began to improve and could stand up also running in full force, Tiara said goodbye because there was an agenda to do outside the house. Not to forget he brought a bowl that was still dirty because it had not been washed by Egidia.
"Sorry, because I haven't cleaned the bowl!" The woman who had returned to wearing her hijab was feeling uneasy.
"Don't think. The important thing is that you like my cooking."
The tiara prevented the still weak host from descending from the veranda. He said he would lock the front fence so that Egidia would feel safe and comfortable without any hassles.
After seeing Tiara enter her house, Egidia closed and locked the front door, then returned to the room to rest. His body still feels uncomfortable, especially in the head and stomach.
God, don't give me this pain! Please respect me and do not let Mas Gen be suspicious and know my pain!
So unfortunately he was with the husband, so he did not want to make the man feel burdened just because he was sick.
Before heading to bed, the woman who had put a head covering cloth on a hanger installed on the outer side of the wardrobe was cleaning her work device because she was not writing.
He tidied up Genio's desk and made sure everything was back to how it was, then walked slowly to the bed.
I'd better get some sleep. Hopefully later in the afternoon when I wake up, my body is fit again and does not feel this pain anymore.
Egidia raised both legs and straightened them on the mattress, then set the position of the pillow so that it can support his head comfortably when he laid down.
Trying to close his eyes in the supine position, it turns out to make his head throb more intense. Finally he changed the position to be tilted and curled up like before.
Just closing his pair of eyes that were starting to feel heavy, the ringing of the phone made him sharpen his vision again. He grabbed the phone that had been placed next to the pillow.
A message just came in and made her smile crackle just like that. The name of the contact on the screen was so happy for his heart. He immediately opened and read the message.
The smile that was originally beautiful, disappeared and changed with depression, when he learned the meaning of the message sent by her husband. His tears dripped down to wet the screen that he still continued to look at with disappointment.
“Egi, the day I overtime at the office. I'll be home late, so make sure you have dinner and rest on time. No need to wait for me!”
