The Lover In Dream

In The Darkness of the Feelings It Seems Clear

Step off!

Naomi's phone has been ringing since morning, it's a day off. His activities have changed drastically since Kubo began to stay away from him. The man no longer came just for breakfast or to enjoy dinner with Naomi. The time they spend together is also now just about work. Sometimes Naomi wants to ask, but her feelings are afraid if she messes with Kubo's efforts to forget him. He wanted Kubo to forget his feelings for him, so he would easily forget everything that Kubo had said to him.

Staring at him the sky of the room sky, had long since his fear of the narrow room disappeared. He sleeps in the room more often, rather than in a couch. And his work hours began to be regular because he was getting used to it. The room was fragrant, with an air regulator that he bought some time ago. The sunlight began to enter through the gap of the curtain, although it was almost noon but the room was still dark because it was tightly closed. He pulled the blanket back to his chest, feeling cold.

"Hhh what the hell"

His head dodged a few times while closing his eyes, as he could clearly see the face of Rio who was so close back then.

"Just waking up" Naomi said spoiled as she raised a video call from Rio.

At the end of there, Rio's body is also still wrapped in a blanket. With a face without glasses.

"Devil" Ledek Naomi.

"Sugly cowl"

"Haha"

"Where are you going today ?" Ask Rio.

"Road, where ya. Maybe to Kyoto" he answered.

"Don't forget breakfast, eat a lot"

"Try you here yes, I will take the road continue" said Naomi spoiled.

"Yes later, if I have enough money"

"When?"

"When"

Naomi smiled, before long a call came to her phone. Interferes with his video call connection.

"Udah first yes, there's a call coming in. Scared from the office" Pamit Naomi.

Naomi hung up the video, and picked up the phone from an unknown number. He was silent when he heard someone's voice at the end of the phone. Someone he knew. Shortly after hanging up the phone, Naomi rushes out of her bed and prepares to go out.

******

On the balcony of Kyoto tower, Takai enjoys his warm tea. Looking at Kyoto from a height of over a hundred meters. For about half an hour he was waiting for someone. His sharp eyes scanned every corner of Kyoto, looking at the passers-by looking smaller than ants. Street lights keep changing color as time goes on. With a shady afternoon atmosphere.

From the back, Naomi stood with a skirt that was three-quarters of a foot long and her sloppy t-shirt. Do not forget the tote bag canvas white pride. His penmanship so explains his own personality "Im Ambicious", his long hair was left untangled.

He walked towards Takai and stopped right beside him. Follow Kyoto from a height. Sometimes he was amazed at the view of Kyoto that afternoon. The sun is beginning to fall, it is getting dark. But Takai and Naomi are still looking at Kyoto while not greeting each other. Only silence accompanied them for several hours sitting there.

"At least he doesn't like me" Takai said, breaking the silence.

"Our engagement is only limited to public formality, the cooperation of two companies in order to be mutually beneficial" he added.

"And he doesn't care at all about my feelings" he continued.

"But even so, I hope you won't turn her away from me" Takai pinta said.

Naomi turned her head towards Takai, she saw the woman, with eyes that welled up with slightly trembling hands. Even in the dark room, Naomi could see the sad look on her face. The feeling that seemed so clear, Naomi finally understood why the woman asked her to meet and talk directly with him.

"I hear you guys have been friends since you were kids" Naomi said.

Takai nodded, "For me, he is more than a friend. Maybe I misunderstood her attitude towards me, but more than that she was a small hope for me. A small light, in a dark room. Warm and soothing" He said.

"While I like it, I can't say it" Takai continued.

"I'm always worried that our relationship will change if I really say that I like him" Takai added.

"I can only say that I can't give up, but he doesn't seem to care that much"

Naomi did not know what to do, until finally she finished the tea served to her and say goodbye. Before he came home, he looked only once.

"If you like him, just say it. Whether your friendship will be the same or not, believe that everything will no longer be the same. Because of love, can not be reconciled with friendship" he said at the time.

*****

Walking through the crowded night in Kyoto, Naomi decided to briefly enjoy the hustle and bustle of the city she had just seen from the top of Kyoto tower before returning to Tokyo by bus. The woman stopped in front of a bus stop that was taking her home. Then he grunted with relief while laughing. Laughing at his own stupidity.

Still warm in his mind the look of Takai's face at that time, he himself did not understand how he felt. Sometimes there is a little feeling tucked inside him like the feeling of liking Kubo, or the feeling of tightness when you know that Takai really likes Kubo. He himself did not understand, for a moment his mind became raging.

Thinking about Takai's facial features, the woman looks so desperate when she tells him about her relationship with Kubo. For Naomi, even though they were in a dark room, Takai's feelings for Kubo were so obvious. A feeling of wanting to have, but also a feeling of great fear. Takai can't stop wishing that there might be little hope of starting a relationship more than friends, but he also fears that his friendship will end if Kubo can't accept his feelings. A feeling that has been knitted for so long, and increasingly complicated by the presence of Naomi in it.

"All right" muttered Naomi.

His decision tonight was unanimous, he sat in the bus seat, closed his eyes and tried to sleep. A seven-hour journey awaits him to arrive tomorrow morning in Tokyo. His mind floated over thinking of a way to avoid Kubo and hold back his small feelings so as not to grow bigger. He did not want Kubo to misunderstand him more, and cause the relationship to be more complicated.

*****

"Not slept?" Sapa Rio when he saw Naya still standing on the rooftop.

Rio put his coffee glass on the table and lit his cigarette and then sat there.

"There is still a project to be completed, I just get a fresh breeze" replied Naya.

Naya's feeling had calmed down a little after a few days, she was already able to return to being professional and act ordinary towards Rio. Trying to keep releasing her feelings to Rio would only make her feel more and more pain, she said, until finally he will just give up on his feelings and let him die alone in Naya's deepest heart because of Rio's cold attitude towards her. Every time he met with Rio, and every time his feelings of joy returned to Rio. He would quickly kill her by recalling what he had seen at the hotel some time ago.

"Naomi, how are you?" Ask Naya.

"Hmmm, he's getting busy right now. You should know better than me. You used to be in that position" Rio replied.

"The second year is hard" said Naya.

"You look so fond of it" Naya said softly.

Rio nodded, he smiled looking far ahead like Naomi was there. Her eyes sparkled, her cheeks began to turn red from thinking about Naomi.

"Naomi is funny, she is a color that cannot be described" Rio said.

"Color?" Tanya Naya was curious.

"Yes, he looks so different. Bringing a new color I'd never seen before, hope, happiness, joy, disappointment, ambition, a smile, and what he did for me. He changed everything, changed the color of my life" Rio explained.

Naya could only look at the man's face, she could see Rio's face under the moon shining brightly. That night, for some reason despite feeling in the room that opened Naya's chest so tight. He saw a different Rio than usual. He saw Rio's face that exuded his happiness. Even just remembering that woman could make Rio feel that happy.

"You sound so fond of it" Naya said.

"The feeling of liking Naomi I can no longer describe Nay, is no longer a feeling of love, or just liking. But it has turned into a feeling that is part of your life. You can't live without that feeling"

Rio eyes were still looking far ahead, even unconsciously Naya shed tears hearing Rio say that before him. He quickly wiped his tears. His head was lifted up, with all his strength he still tried to arrange for his voice to sound ordinary.

"I have to go in, there's still something I need to do" Pamit Naya.

Naya went into her room, slammed the door and sat violently in the bed. He wanted to forget the look on Rio's face that he had just seen. The look on Rio's face that clearly described his feelings for Naomi. Such a deep love.