The Lover In Dream

Not Knowing Each Other

Iksan and Hana stayed for a few days at Rio's house. The house again felt full and crowded, after previously Rio only lived foursome with his mother and two nephews. Her brother lives outside the city to work.

Rio home can not be said to be big enough because there are only two bedrooms, one living room, shared bathroom, and one kitchen. The man was not good at cleanliness, so he could not help his mother to clean the house. As a result, his house always looks messy. Though there are not many things that need to be tidied up if only to be done. As long as Hana was there, the house was neat and clean again, but it didn't take long to fall apart again. Just one day, after Hana and Iksan left.

Still ringing in Rio, as Iksan whispered a word that bothered him before the man left the house.

"My offer will last forever, until you want Ri. I will continue to neror lo until you join my team" said Iksan at the time.

Rio only considered it all a joke, even though Iksan had persuaded him many times. Rio was not unwilling to step out of his current comfort zone. But thinking of all the responsibilities he had to carry scared him himself, that what he bet would not be the same as what he got later. Although sure it could, Rio only hesitated if there was anything that would make the relationship that had been established all this time become damaged due to the employment relationship.

That day, it was cold Monday.

The weather was erratic, unlike usual the weather felt so cold that it made Rio shudder when he just came out of the house. He immediately ran to slam the door and grabbed his jacket hanging behind the door. Before long he took out the motorcycle from the living room, then tried to heat the motor before using it. When he arrived at his place of work, Rio ran in because it was almost too late to come. He changed his clothes with the uniform provided, and began to work. The day was tired, Monday was always a day that deserves to be dubbed the busiest day. When everyone's spirit is still at full point. Just like Rio felt today.

However as much as Rio's energy, he would still feel too tired. Working for twelve hours and almost five years made him lose a lot of time without feeling. It also keeps him stuck in a comfort zone that he is unaware of.

"Ri, what else?" Read Rio when the message goes into his phone.

The message from Naomi makes her tiredness disappear a little, especially when she sees Naomi sending some photos just to show where Naomi works.

"What are you looking for Nao?" Thought Rio.

The question suddenly crossed Rio's mind, while trying to understand Naomi he actually tried to ask himself again.

What kind of life have we always wanted?

Want to be like what?

What is life and who is it?"

Or how to live life?

The question kept shooting at Rio's mind, the question that had previously only been on Naomi now turned to attack him for no reason. At that time, Rio arrived to remember his time in school. When he can be himself, without being burdened with the responsibilities he is currently carrying. Responsibility as an adult.

"Why be someone else when you have the talent to be what you want to be"

Iksan's words some time ago made him realize, that all this time he was only confined in disperse. That all this time, his mind had only been limited to abilities he had never tested. All along, he had only suspected his incompetence and tried to run from the fact that he had another path. For years he struggled in fear of failure, rather than risking his ability to take one step forward, that so far, he had, he thinks it is not important to be himself as long as he can be responsible for the burden that should not be his dependents.

It does not matter what his desire to be like, even though he feels uncomfortable doing things that continue to pressure him. Ultimately, all of that keeps him locked up in a false sense of security. That won't help him figure out what kind of life he wants. Rio tried to clear his mind, occasionally he took a deep breath while rethinking what he was going to do. Doubtfully he grabbed his phone on the table and contacted Iksan.

"Mas, your offer is still valid right? I'm ready to join your team" Rio said as his call was connected.

Rio's impulsive actions didn't explain anything, the current Rio only felt that something was filling his chest and like it was about to explode. And after contacting Iksan, there was a feeling of relief. Like escaping from something that has been holding him in a false sense of security.

*****

On the screen Naomi's phone clearly plastered her own face, while Rio's face is in a small box at the bottom. Naomi deliberately enlarges her face while making a video call rather than having to look ugly on Rio's screen. He slightly raised his eyebrows as Rio suddenly said something that Rio had never said before. Naomi knows, no matter how tired or exhausted Rio works he is not the type of person who will quit his job without considering it first. Moreover, Naomi also knew that Rio's responsibility as the only male in a very large family and could not be ruled out.

"Seriously?" Naomi asked curiously.

There Rio nodded with complete confidence.

"Why?" Ask Naomi again.

"Pengen aja" he replied originally.

"Ajaaaaaaaaaaaa?" Grouser Naomi.

Rio chuckled, he then showed his laptop that was playing some unknown music.

"I want to be a game editor, where Iksan works. Yesterday he nawarin me" explained Rio.

Naomi was only silent when she heard Rio's explanation, she still needed time to digest everything she heard from Rio.

"Don't you agree?" Asked Rio back.

Naomi shrugged her shoulders, uncomfortable with the content of her conversation, she immediately ended the video call. Several times Naomi tried to re-focus on learning about what Naya taught today, but she failed. His mind was always fixed on Rio's decision. Intrigued by that, it didn't take long for Naomi to contact Iksan directly.

"Han, Rio will join Mas Iksan's cooperation ?" Naomi asked unceremoniously as her call connected.

"Yes, it was only today that he was ngabarin mas Iksan" replied Hana.

Naomi momentarily fell silent, hesitating.

"Let's go Nao, all this time you've done everything you want as you please without thinking about her feelings. This time, let him do what he wants" Hana said.

"i'm worried mba, worried that Rio might make a rash decision" Naomi expressed her worry.

"Ga something goes wrong when someone makes the decision to be him and to fulfill Nao's wish. Don't worry" Hana tries to calm Naomi's heart.

Naomi hung up the phone with a still uneasy feeling, staring at the cityscape that night. He held his hands on the table, and looked far away.

"What are you looking for?" Think Naomi.

Naomi doesn't know Rio right now. Rio who he had known all along had never been this brave to risk what he had. Naomi knows, Rio's burden and responsibility is so great that the man is shackled to an uncomfortable situation despite many years. Rio was not a person who could take action impulsively, especially if it was related to his long-term life. However, Naomi was unable to hide her feelings of pleasure. When you know Rio wants to get out of the tiring situation for Rio.

"Importantly, you are one step ahead of before" Naomi murmured.