The Lover In Dream
Desire
Heck ! Heck ! Heck !
Only the sound of Takai's finger being tapped on the table filled the spacious room with black shades, a month ago he replaced all his office furniture in black making the room feel classic and luxurious with other white appliances. Unmitigated, the woman also changed the office design. He got that inspiration before leaving for China, and it was all done after he returned.
A twenty-three-year-old woman stood before him, holding a tablet. Waiting for Takai who was still seriously reading the report that his secretary brought. Occasionally he turned back the page that had been read to ascertain some things.
"Are you sure this is a proposal put forward by them?" Ask Takai.
The woman nodded, greeted with an indifferent Takai attitude.
Before long, the resolute sound of footsteps made Takai look at his secretary. Kubo stood right behind the small body of his secretary, making the woman have to step aside. After getting Takai's signature, the woman walked out slowly while bowing her head. Kubo sat down, a disofa that was right in front of Takai's desk. He took out two boxes that Takai brought yesterday to give to Kubo's parents. Making Takai have to move from his seat and move to sit in front of Kubo.
"I heard you just got back from China" Kubo said.
"A few days ago" replied Takai.
"I heard you're going to Paris again"
"Front month" muttered Takai.
"I'm returning this extravagant gift" Kubo kept the box with the luxury watch on the table.
"Why? I'm giving this to your parents, not to you"
"They don't need this" Kubo replied indifferently.
"Why?" Shouted Takai.
This time the emotions had filled Takai's mind to make him scream, accompanied by tears that he could no longer hold back. He has been holding back this anger ever since he met Naomi. His feelings are still depressed, aggravated by the Kubo sussi who hurt his heart.
"It's not your wish, it's your parents' wish isn't it?" Ask Kubo.
Takai was unmoved, he could only silently look Kubo in the eyes.
"Will it be until when?" Ask Kubo again.
"Will you continue to follow the wishes of your parents?" Added Kubo.
"If I wasn't born rich? and don't own the company, are you going to stay here? Or are you still begging to stay engaged to my parents?" Read Kubo.
"I can give you all the money I have, but stop this. Stop all this nonsense" This time Kubo slightly raised his voice.
Takai gulps his saliva when he sees Kubo in front of him, his feelings melt when he knows that Kubo can find out what happened behind the intent of the gift he gave to Kubo's parents.
"I'll keep doing that, I'll stay here. And begging your parents to stay engaged. Even though my parents are against it" Lirih Takai.
Kubo grinned a little at Takai's words, then stood up and left Takai's room, leaving behind the last words "Until when will you lie to yourself".
"He thinks I'm lying" Takai thought.
His love for Kubo started from a small thing, a concern that Kubo gave to make the dry trees in his heart grow back and even flower. At that time, when Kubo could still carry him after school, or invite him to run away from the tutoring schedule that never finished until late at night. Kubo always protected her from the anger of her parents. Starting from the seeds that grow since childhood, to become a sturdy tree. Kubo is like a stretch of green grass surrounding a tree that is starting to die. Make it beautiful again. And feel alive. It was only a little too late to realize that he liked Kubo.
But it all began to fade, after that day. The day Kubo discovered that his parents were just taking advantage of Kubo's situation. Kubo felt that Takai was just a tool, like a distraction for people who see a tree surrounded by green grass until people come to the tree and shelter there, bringing life without regard to dead and trampled grass. From that day on, Kubo felt that everything Takai did was just a lie. He no longer felt able to see his former Takai self. Takai whom he had known since childhood. Her sweet little sister.
"I'm not lying" Takai thought again.
Silence, there is a great desire Takai to continue with Kubo. He wants to be a grass that can crawl and go wherever he wants. He did not want to grow up alone and lonely. Accompanied by the wind that hit and swayed following the wind direction. Waiting to die and be cut down. Takai wants to go wherever Kubo goes, but Kubo never seems to see him.
Takai wants to express all his feelings to Kubo, but he does not have the slightest bit of savagery. For him, let Kubo only know what has been seen so far. Because he knows, Kubo does not have the same feelings as he had in the past. Although the desire was great, Takai could still endure it. What else can a woman whose love claps one hand, just hope.
*****
Kubo drove his car at high speed, he continued to drive through the void of the road that night. Several times he honked to ask the car in front of him to step aside so as not to block his car from passing. His hands held the wheel tightly. His feet quickly stepped on the gas pedal and the brakes went together. He is good when it comes to driving a car.
His feelings were not good when he saw Takai crying in front of him. He wanted to hug Takai at that time, but he did not want to make the atmosphere more chaotic and make Takai more misunderstood him. He understood how Takai felt when he remembered his parents. Kubo knew Takai's parents were a wound to the woman. No one can heal that wound. That day, when Takai came to Kubo's apartment and hugged him tightly while crying, Kubo contacted Takai's secretary and found out why.
Kubo just wants Takai to be honest with himself, even though he has admitted his mistake for having fucked Takai. But Kubo knew, that after that Takai also had some lovers who he hid. He hid it because both of his parents were against their relationship. Until finally he had to be left married because of the uncertainty of the relationship that Takai brought.
He did not close his eyes to Takai's feelings all this time, but for him Takai was his little sister. What he needs to keep and keep looking after. If there was a slight feeling of seed liking for Takai, it was nothing more than the sweet memories they had shared since childhood. It is different from how she feels about Naomi. His feelings for Naomi are not about short, dark memories, but a man's feelings for women usually.
Duarrrrrrr !
"Ahhhh" Shouted Kubo.
His car was forced to stop when it hit something in front of him, his head hit hard hit the steering wheel of the car. Shortly after that, several people started to surround his car. And faintly heard the sound of an ambulance car.
Naomi ran as fast as she could in the hospital hallway shortly after hearing the call from the hospital. He could not enter the ER slowly. All the curtains were opened one by one to find Kubo's existence. His breath gasped for running, but he was eventually expelled from the ER for making a fuss for the patients.
"What's right here ?" Kubo asked who stood in front of him with a plastic bag. Her right forehead was wrapped in bandages, and her limping legs made Naomi dart closer to her.
"Ga what is it? Not bad, right? How can? What kind of person did you hit? I got a call from the hospital. What are you really doing?" Read Naomi with a hand that shook with worry.
Kubo just smiled faintly, he pulled Naomi's hand and pulled her in an embrace.
"I'm good" Kubo said.
She hugged Naomi tightly, trying to calm her down.
That night it snowed for the first time, landing on Naomi's head gently. Followed by a few snow-white grains made the two of them raise their heads. In order to enjoy the snowflakes and gently caress their faces.
"I want to keep this up, with you. Makes wonderful memories" thought Kubo.
