The Lover In Dream

Planless

Tonight the moon looks half-closed, but it still looks bright. And there were no stars in sight. Only the sound of motorbikes and cars chasing each other along with the whirring of the wind swept across Naomi's face. Along the way Naomi just kept quiet, not saying a word. The last word he said was just "Yes I want" with the boisterous sound of people in the cinema. While Naomi, after that just contemplate her speech while holding a rosegold colored ring in her sweet finger.

"Why all the way down there" asked Rio as they arrived in front of Naomi's house.

Naomi only smiled, while holding Rio who was about to enter her house.

"We'll talk to you in front for a while" Take Naomi.

Rio followed her, then they stopped at an empty field near Naomi's house.

"I said yes, I want to marry you. But that doesn't mean it's two or three months away" Naomi said.

"You mean ?" Ask Rio.

"I'm not ready if we get married in two or three months" Naomi said.

The look on Rio's face started to turn serious, he grabbed Naomi's two hands and grasped them.

"When are you ready ? We've had a relationship for years, my family's been asked a lot. And I can't let you go Nao"

Naomi sighed increasingly heavily, her mind not stopping to think. Looking for a way to convey her choice to Rio.

"I got a job offer. To Japan" Briefly Naomi.

Rio paused for a moment, this time he let go of his grasp and shifted his gaze. He turned his back on Naomi while sighing a few times.

"Nao?" Lirih Rio's.

"I can't ask you to choose between me or your career Nao, but before we agreed...."

"Yes, I know, I know. But Ri, this is my chance after waiting for many years, you know I've been waiting for this moment how long, you know my struggle Ri" Cut Naomi.

"And you have to sacrifice our relationship?" Rio's a little upset.

"Ri, I don't sacrifice anything..." Naomi's eyes are now starting to glow.

"But you are procrastinating to marry me as soon as possible" Rio said, this time his tone was getting higher.

"Why didn't you tell me before? Why should it be now ? When I was sure I wanted to marry you as soon as possible" Rio added.

"Ri, I just found out last night. You're the first person to know about this. I was waiting for the right time to explain to you, but you came to bed today. And in front of all those people I can't refuse you Ri" Naomi explained.

"You've agreed to Nao" muttered Rio.

Naomi just bowed limp, she was no longer able to give any explanation to Rio. To him, however hard he explains. Rio will stay on his stance. And as much as he explained, it would only continue to hurt Rio. He simply chose silence, and did nothing.

"Nao, I can't let you go. I'm sorry" Rio said breaking the silence between them.

"Ri, I just wanted to say. You know how hard I fought all this time, to get to this point. Ri, I swear I won't hurt you. I told you too, I want to marry you. But please, wait for me for a little bit Ri, two years. I promise, after that I'm not going anywhere"

"I need a lot of money to pay off all my dad's debts, and this is the only way. Marrying you now will only add to your burden, father does not owe little Ri. You know, even though it's been years but the debt hasn't paid off yet, right?" Naomi.

"Sorry if I have to ask you to choose between me or your career Nao, I can't wait for you that long. I hope you can give me a decision soon"

Rio left with glassy eyes, with no other words. As for Naomi, she squatted down limp and clenched her hands together in the face. He tried to hold back his tears, but then he sobbed and cried as he would. That night Naomi did not sleep, until morning and she did not get a single message from Rio.

*****

After arriving home, Rio ran away and entered the room while slamming the door. Make the whole house look at each other and ask questions. He sat in front of the glass looking at the picture and Naomi who was stuck there, upset Rio pulled the photo and threw it in all directions.

"Nao, before graduating from school you left me because you said you wanted to focus on the final exam of school" Rio recalled.

"After we graduate, you also leave because you have to move out of town for work"

"So, two years ago you were also more focused on your career and left me"

"Before, I was always sure that we would continue to be together with Nao. Even though you left me a few times"

"But this time I'm not sure Nao" Lirih Rio.

"I can't lose you anymore, I'm too afraid to see you have to be with other people or have relationships with others. And all I can do is tie you to Nao's marriage" Rio's mind rages on.

Several times he tapped his finger at the table, while looking at himself in front of the glass. With glassy eyes, and a mind full of Naomi.

"I'm sorry if I'm selfish this time, Nao, because I want you. Because I'm not ready to lose you and let you lose someone else"

Rio grabbed his phone, he looked for Naomi's name on his message list. Several times he typed in a message, but eventually he deleted it again out of fear that Naomi was angry with him.

She believes Naomi did the same thing as she did this time. And he believed that his good night would come to Naomi gently as the closing of her day in the heart.

*****

"Han, oyyyy how are you?" Naomi shouted as she got off the bus.

At exactly eight in the morning, Naomi had arrived in Bandung. He has been busy since dawn chasing the bus to go to Bandung. In front of him stood Hana, his best friend during college first.

"Well Nao, surprised I got a message from you already in Bandung" said Hana sumringah.

"Yes, I'd like to see you again, ask for enlightenment"

"Haha, could you. Come on, let's go home. The house people are waiting. Kangen Naomi said"

Naomi follows behind Hana, following Hana who invites her down and down the angkot to get home. Several times he grumbled because Hana was walking too fast. Before long, they arrived in front of the house with an old accent. Clad in green paint that looks not long refurbished.

Hana's house does look old, because it has never been changed in the least since long ago. Although several times repaired, but Hana refused to change it on the grounds of childhood memories that he did not want to erase. Especially after his mother died a few years ago.

"Eh Naomi, how's Nao?" Iksan asked, Hana's husband.

"Well, can't you see I'm getting fatter?" Naomi answered jokingly.

"Yes, look at it. Naomi mah that well, denger denger busy but never forgets eating" Ledek Iksan.

"You know, my dietary faith is limited to rice and iced tea"

"May, tomorrow we try the rice field crossing there. It just opened a week ago, but it's been a really good game. Ehh, but nginep right ?" Ask iksan.

"Nginep dong, he's here. Yes, I want to block him from the list of people who can come to Bandung if not here" Sela Hana while carrying a plate of fried rice and warm sweet tea greeted Iksan who chuckled amusedly.

Naomi starts eating after Iksan bounces off to work for Hana. Before long Naomi finished her meal and enjoyed the warm sweet tea that Hana provided.

"Bandung gini ya Han, never change, Cold continues if morning" said Naomi.

"You don't live here, so it's cold. Bandung already different Nao, it's hot now" Reply Hana.

"When you're here, eating will feel like Han. But it wasn't hungry at all. So sleepy too, even though from yesterday I have not slept" explained Naomi.

"Your insomnia is still bad Na?" Ask Hana.

"Udah is a little bit good for Han, just yes it should be forced. Encouraged to take sleeping pills sometimes"

"Don't depend on Nao's medication, you've been taking too much sleeping pills since college" Hana advised.

Silence appeared between them.

"Rio invited me to marry Han" Lirih Naomi arrived.

Hana's eyes widened when she heard Naomi's words, a glimpse of a line of smiles appeared at the end of Hana's lips.

"Good dong, you guys have been dating since Nao High School. It's time you got married"

"The problem is I got a job offer to Japan Han, and yesterday the novel I submitted also passed the publisher"

"Wahhh, this is reportedly all good ya Nao" said Hana while nodding his head.

"There should be something I choose Han, Rio or my career, It's not easy"

Naomi then remained silent, heard the sound of water gurgling from the pool in front of Hana's house. He saw fish that continued to swim here and there.

"You know how I fought to get here Han. And you also know my relationship with Rio. If asked to choose, I don't know. There is no shadow at all" Naomi continued.

"Nao, if it's hard. Don't be chosen, just walk" Hana said.

"Jalanin aja, follow your heart, I know you are a person who always have a plan, but this time Cobain deh, just walk what you want. Later your destiny will point to you" added Hana.

"If I fail ? if I lose one of the two, how's Han? I'm not ready" Lirih Naomi.

"Ready or unprepared, that's Nao Risk. You will lose, but most importantly you will not fail. You know what you want. And when you do that, it's you Nao. Not a plan that you have neatly arranged. When it's all without a plan, it's you. Naomi's. And that's your destiny"

"Nao, you need to be yourself to ask fate to lead you. There will be no regrets when you start living your life by being yourself. Because you know, that's what you want" added Hana.

Once again Naomi was silent, looking at her sweet ring. The ring looks better when seen in the morning. He breathed heavily, even occasionally holding back his tears from falling.

"I want to say it feels like Han, lost, Kayak has never existed in this world, so it is not faced with the same difficult choice" he murmured.