The Lover In Dream

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The atmosphere of the office in the morning was already unpleasant for Naomi, this morning Kubo came with a face without a smile. The man only gave him a pile of files that he had to translate and did not let him into Kubo's office. Kubo's entire meeting schedule was canceled on arrival. And the man made his own schedule just to spend half his day in the office. Naomi was not called, nor asked for anything. And all employees who want to see Kubo that day must be forced to face Naomi because Kubo does not want to be disturbed.

"Maybe she lays eggs inside, and doesn't want everyone to know about it" Naomi thought.

"Or maybe she's sick" Naomi thought again.

"Or maybe this company is going bankrupt, and he committed suicide inside" Naomi joked.

Naomi continues to continue her bad thoughts about Kubo's behavior today. He shakes his head when he thinks something is bad, or laughs when he thinks of something funny. After finishing with his ludicrous thoughts he got up from the chair and went to the office kitchen to make a glass of tomato juice.  When Naomi came, the secretaries were gathering to enjoy their juice. While gossiping about their boss. Only in that room the bosses will not enter, because usually they are the ones who will make all the drinks the boss wants And there they are free to gossip at will, or just share information about the meeting schedule.

"Today Kubo's mood is not good" Naomi said after getting a glass of juice.

"I know" someone's timpal.

"And I don't know why. He refused to meet a lot of people today" he complained.

All eyes were on him, astonished gazes attacking him instantly. Makes him unable to wiggle.

"You don't really know?" Ask someone.

Naomi shook her head.

"This week Kubo will be engaged to Takai, the news has spread in the media. And his picture appears a lot on tv" added someone.

"The woman who came to the office the other day when Kubo wasn't around, that woman" another Timpal.

"Takai san's? Naomi asked after remembering the name of the woman who came to her office the other day to look for Kubo.

The whole room nodded its head, confirming Naomi's question. After Naomi left the kitchen, the gossip continued until Naomi could imagine what they might talk about,.

They don't look like lovers at all.

There is nothing special between them.

How could Naomi not know?

I think their engagement is just a business interest.

I'm not sure if Kubo really likes that woman.

But they look good anyway.

Naomi walked quickly from the kitchen to her room with a feeling of annoyance, her high shoes made the entire office glance at her because of the noise. He hopes Kubo can see the frustration through the glass wall that can be seen clearly from Kubo's room. But even after he sat in his chair and continued to work, the man did not ask him at all.

"Why didn't he tell me" Naomi grumbled.

His feelings continued to be upset, until he could no longer hold them back. Half an hour before returning home, Naomi decides to meet Kubo. But his steps came to a halt as his hand touched the doorknob. He realized that there was nothing he should be sorry for. It is not his right to interfere in Kubo's personal life. Even he had absolutely no interest in Kubo's engagement. He just remembered, the woman who came the other day was the same woman he saw in the apartment hugging Kubo tightly. Which made him have to step back slowly because he felt bad at that time. Despite her doubts, Naomi still had to enter the man's room.

"I must be crazy" Naomi muttered.

He opened the door slowly, his eyes immediately fixed on Kubo who was sitting behind him staring at the city through a large glass. At first glance Naomi could see the reflection of Kubo's face which was also staring at him as he entered.

"I heard about your engagement this week" Naomi said.

"I just wanted to ask, why didn't you even tell me. Why should I hear it from another secretary" Naomi added questioning Kubo's attitude towards her.

"I feel..."

His words stopped as Kubo got up from his seat, the man turned around and grabbed his bag on the table. Then he approached Naomi and stopped right beside Naomi standing.

"That's none of your business, so stop meddling" Kubo said.

Kubo's speech was slow, but quite clear in Naomi's ear. Even the man said it without looking at Naomi. Naomi had to turn her body around in order to see Kubo. Their eyes glared at each other as Naomi turned her body towards Kubo. The man just stared at Naomi, with his hand tightly clenched to the handle of the bag.

"If I ever told you that I like you, forget it. Stay away from my personal life. Work professionally and forget everything that has ever happened between us. Including the past" Kubo added.

The man rushed away after saying a word that pierced Naomi's heart. Leaving Naomi shocked by the words she had just heard. Leaving it with a thousand questions.

"Whatever" Naomi murmured.

*****

Still ringing in Kubo's ear as he met Takai that night, Takai's eyes were very serious when the woman said that she would still insist on pleading for their engagement to continue. In his words, there was absolutely no doubt. And Kubo knows that Takai didn't lie that time.

Kubo is bound, tied to his promise when he was a child. When the woman cried in her arms. As he stroked Takai's back gently. Kubo has already promised to share some of the burden that Takai has borne since he knew what had happened to the woman. And there was no other way for him to free Takai from his two parents other than to establish a relationship with him. And even his parents were not opposed at all. All that before he met Naomi. Before he knew that he would fall in love with Naomi the first time he saw her.

When they broke off the engagement date without involving Kubo, of course Kubo felt angry. Of course he feels unappreciated. Several times Kubo tried to argue but in vain. He clashed more than three times with his parents before returning to the apartment. The man deliberately did not tell anyone, even he was very hopeful that Naomi would not know. But the news about him spread so quickly. Worry continues to attack him.

His mind was filled with fear about Naomi's reaction to knowing that Kubo would be engaged, about Naomi's feelings afterwards because Kubo had just expressed his feelings for her a few days ago. Just thinking about it already made Kubo feel uncomfortable and ruined his feelings all day. Even tonight he did not return to the apartment to prepare his engagement to Takai the day after tomorrow.

Her chest tightens when she gets into the car, after saying something bad to Naomi before returning home. Asking him to forget his expression of feelings a few days ago, he asks him to forget everything that happened between them including their past that I will never forget until he dies, and asked Naomi to stay away from him. Actually Kubo really did not want to say it all, but when remembering his promise to Takai. He can no longer avoid.

"Maybe it'll be over" Kubo thought.

The road to Osaka still could not make it calm, the car that he continued to pass. With the crowd of the city accompanied by people passing by and lights that adorn the streets. He looked at it all, and did not want the day to pass quickly.

*****

The incoming sunlight pierced Naomi's eyes sharply to the point that she had to wake up from her sleep at the end of the week. He threw his phone away when he saw the date and today. Since returning home from work on Friday the woman was unable to sleep, even to the point of having to consume some sleeping pills in excess. He still continues to feel upset when he remembers Kubo's words that are so painful.

Today, he plans to go on holiday alone. Occupy the city of Osaka that he had never touched. Enjoying long hours of travel by train a little make him forget about Kubo. But when he got off the train, his eyes were fixed on the big television broadcasting the faces of Kubo and Takai there. The two men got out of the same car and into the building. Their engagement is very luxurious, even to the media and in the spotlight. There were a lot of reporters waiting for them in front of the building. Waiting to be invited in and hold a press conference.

"Osaka?" Naomi grumbled when she found out that their engagement was done in the city of Osaka.

The woman immediately turned around and booked a train ticket to return to Tokyo.

"That's what he is" grumbled Naomi again and again.

He already has a fiancee, but still says he likes others.

Whahuh? Forgetting his expression of feelings? He thinks it's that easy.

He wants me to forget everything related to his personal life? And that past?

Even I don't want to remember him at all, he dragged me here and reminded me of that.

Stay away from her personal life? Impossible.

Then stop having breakfast in my apartment and at night. I will no longer cook for him.

Hah, he thought it was that easy. After all this?

His entire mind went out and stopped at one question, after all this. After Kubo entered his life. Messing up her feelings, made her confused and forgot her longing for Rio for a moment. After the man pulled his hand, rubbed his head, even hugging it at will.

"He thought he could do it all as he pleased?" Naomi was upset.

Naomi finally returned to the apartment empty-handed after grumbling along the way. He fell asleep in his disofa with his shoes still attached. And anger that never subsides.

"Whatever" he cried.

*****

Ambiguous.

This little feeling is so confusing.

Like keep making my heart ask me about what I really expect.

What he has done to me.

Or maybe, all this time I've misunderstood his attitude.

He would give his heart to me.

Act as if I also know his heart and he replies.

As if we knew the same.

This relationship is so confusing.

He worried me, until I had to run to him.

Control everything about me until I can't move.

Even if I ran as far as I could, I would still return to her feeling guilty.

With a feeling of hope that he won't run away like me.

He put away all my readiness with just a sap.

Slowly and get me used to it.

And leave nothing because of its absence.

Make a place in my mind and in my heart.

Leaving her fear of leaving.

He pretended to be a friend, but he didn't.

Sometimes, he acts like my lover but gives me no certainty.

Her gentle manner was like ice cream.

I have melted my heart and accepted it.

This whole thing is so confusing.

What he has done to me.

Or maybe I really misunderstood.

When he looked at me for so long.

As if I knew me.

Even my heartbeat can no longer be normal.

My body trembled as he continued to look at me deeply.

In an erratic nervousness.

I hope that our meeting is not the right thing.

Until I see you with my eyes.

And said that this was all normal.

But sometimes you look so attractive.

Until I can like you so much.

This feeling, it's really troublesome.