The Lover In Dream

The Sia Sia Effort

When Naya asks him to come home, Naomi is not angry. He did not think that Kubo would be really angry with him that day. What Naomi has in mind right now is only about how she can fix her mistakes. The woman walked on foot while enjoying the atmosphere of the city. Both hands were put in his pants pocket, his heels were so painful that he had to walk slowly. Some people just passed him because of the slow path, even they nudged Naomi's shoulder from behind. The atmosphere of the City made Naomi slightly calm, although there were still many things that plagued her mind. Naomi likes, likes to see people passing by. At least just what he saw made him feel not alone. Even though his feelings are lonely.

At the town's shelter, Naomi stops her steps. He sat in a long wooden chair facing the towering fountain.

"Maybe it would be wonderful if it was night" he thought.

Naomi knew that feeling of loneliness was holding her back. The feeling that always looms over him. And her eyelids could no longer hold back the tears that had been piling up.  Although it feels painful, but there is not the slightest feeling of wanting to go home and give up.  He wants to keep trying to get to the limit he has. Just thinking about his dreams that began to come true one by one makes him constantly want to try more.  The breeze gently caressed his face, like calming his chaotic mind. The atmosphere of the park was crowded, making him forget about what had just happened. Until night, he was just sitting there alone. Even once in a while he took a deep breath, thinking about many things.

*****

Step off!

Her apartment bell rang, Naomi immediately ran and opened the door of her apartment when she saw Naya standing behind the door.

"Naya San" Sapa Naomi.

"Have you had dinner?" Ask Naya.

The woman was carrying two plastic bags filled with food and drink, and she entered shortly after Naomi let her in.

"Ga what is Nay, I'm happy there is a theme. Usually alone here" explained Naomi while taking some containers in the kitchen.

"Where are you feeling? It's getting better" asked Naya.

Naomi just smiled slightly and raised her shoulders, "Slightly feeling bad, but more excited" replied Naomi steadily.

"Tonight, I have a duty to explain again everything you have to do. Special tasks from Kubo" he explained.

"Special Duty ?" Ask Naomi.

"Yes, he did not apologize directly but I know he actually wanted to" added Naya.

"I'm the one who's wrong Nay, it's not him who should be apologizing" Naomi murmured.

"You have to get used to Nao, he can get angry more than that if you keep admitting mistakes. He's not that good about the future of his company"

"You mean ?"

"Kubo san was indeed alive and born from a golden spoon, rich and luxurious, but in fact it all shackled him. Not everyone who is born like that can be free from the pressure of Nao, we whose lives are ordinary feel depressed with the burden of our lives, but those whose lives seem luxurious, they say, they have a burden of self-esteem and family dignity that must be maintained" explained Naya.

"Kubo san, since birth. He already bore the burden of being the ultimate heir of all his family-owned enterprises. It makes him continue to work hard to maintain all the wishes of his family. In fact, he could only sleep two or three hours a day. His time off is only used to pursue work that he cannot do on a normal day" added Naya.

"His life, his dreams, his desires, his hopes, his teenage years, his time"

Naomi nods her head, then begins to understand why Kubo looks more confused than he did when he accompanied her on vacation last time. Even Kubo does not understand how to travel with public facilities. The man was always served like a king, lived luxuriously, traveled abroad often, looked tough and experienced not because he wanted to live like that, but because he had to live like that.

Seemed served, but in reality he was forced. Living a luxurious life with limited freedom, traveling abroad without a vacation, looks great and experienced but actually he does not know what about the outside life. He lived by the wishes of others towards him, even he only had two or three hours to dream in his sleep. And simply do not have much time to realize their own dreams.

Everything of hers was arranged, and should not be tampered with. He has to work harder every day, to the limit of his own and must not give up.

"That's why you're here, to help him" Naya said softly.

"hhhhmm?"

"To help him see that there is another life besides what he has now"

Naya falls asleep on the couch after teaching Naomi some things to do tomorrow. The clock has shown that at five in the morning, even Naomi did not sleep at all. He had been drinking five cups of coffee until the morning and started preparing food for Naya. His feelings began to improve as the sun began to show his face.  With a little courage, he went to Kubo's apartment and rang the bell. A wide smile adorned his face as Kubo greeted him by opening a little apartment door.

"You're having breakfast with "Tanya Naomi.

Kubo nodded, then asked Naomi to return to her apartment because the man had to change his clothes and wash his face first.

"wahhhhhh" Naya said as she saw that many of the house's specialties were lined up on Naomi's kitchen table. With a face still in disarray, the woman took a little food and tasted it.

"Here are you cooking yourself?" Naya asks when she sees Naomi coming in from outside.

"Well, I'd rather cook than buy outside. Maybe my tongue isn't used to it" he explained.

"Alright, I'll be here more often" Goda Naya.

The woman then went into the bathroom to clean her body. Soon Kubo came and began to join them for breakfast. There was a warm feeling as Kubo ate with them, like there was no boundary between them at the moment.  Something Kubo has never felt since he started work, eating together at a dinner table with typical home-made meals. That's why she likes to be there, with Naomi making her cooking. That's why Kubo always hoped that Naomi would call him and offer him dinner whenever the man came home and passed the door of Naomi's apartment.

"Sorry about yesterday" Kubo said softly as they were washing dishes together.

Naomi smiled, "I'm sorry"

Naomi looked into the man's eyes, guiltily bowing her "I'll work harder, please help me"

Naomi wants to continue learning to understand the man, after hearing Naya's explanation. He began to understand that being Kubo's secretary wasn't just about how he could do his job in the office. He begins to understand Naya's words that her life is no longer his. He began to understand that he had to be a friend, and someone who was always there for Kubo. Helping him to ease a little of the huge burden Kubo had been bearing all this time.

That hand has worked a lot, although his efforts always seem futile just to maintain the self-esteem and success of both parents. In the end, everyone will always be the same. They will only focus on the point of outcome rather than the line of sacrifice made to get to that point. Now Naomi turned to pity the man.