The Love of the Maharani

Memories and Doubts

In the afternoon, Daffa took Anna for a walk. They hired two horses to ride each. Both enjoy the breeze of the beach on the coast of the island of Gili Trawangan.

Although there are many other tourists who also enjoy a relaxing time in the afternoon, Anna felt it did not reduce the moment of togetherness with Daffa.

The brown horse they ride is a variant of the horse that originated in Sumbawa. As Anna and Daffa sauntered on horseback, the two tour guides each held the horse harness they were riding.

"You seem used to facing horses. Have you been riding a lot?" Daffa suddenly threw a question.

"uh? Nook. I remember I never rode. But, isn't the horse a pretty animal?" Anna says.

"Beautiful?"

"Yes. Look them. Even though they carried heavy loads, their steps remained firm, graceful and orderly. I'm very happy riding. It feels like sitting on a magnificent throne that we can take with us everywhere.."

Deg. At once Daffa was stunned when he heard Anna's sentence just now. His memory suddenly took him back to the past years. He was still in Nevarest.

The Flash back On

Daffa just celebrated his seventeenth birthday last week. He loved the horse gift given to him by his father. Daffa's white horse looked handsome with its white mane that was quite long.

Father bought his white horse from a horse trader from the land of Enmar. Enmar country is famous as the country producing the best horse variants.

Today he is visiting the palace to meet his fiancee, Princess Tasya. He intended to show the new horse to the Princess.

As soon as Princess Tasya saw Daffa's horse, the princess immediately liked Daffa's white horse. He even deliberately made small braids from the horse's long mane. Making Daffa feel astonished and all wrong made.

"That's a stallion, Princess. So where can her hair be braided?" Daffa made his protest in a soft tone.

"Oh yeah? Its okay. Isn't it like this (braided), his eyes will no longer be bothered by his long hair?" Kill the Princess.

"seen? Doesn't this look pretty, Linski nobleman? Your horse is the most beautiful of all the horses Ai has ever seen!" The Princess is back.

(Note: Ai \= me)

"Beautiful? Isn't that too feminine to be called a horse?" Daffa again showed a little protest. A little reluctant to let her pride horse be considered feminine.

At first glance, Princess Tasya gave Daffa a warm smile. He seemed to deliberately want to provoke the emotions of his fiancee by giving a beautiful title to his horse.

His gaze returned to the white horse before him.

"For Ai, they always looked beautiful. Look at them!" exclaimed Princess Tasya while pointing at the white horse before her.

"If they carry even heavy loads, their steps are always firm, graceful and orderly. It was as if whatever was their burden, could never diminish their elegance and firmness,"

"Ai was very happy every time the riding lessons in the palace took place. It was like sitting on a magnificent throne. Amazingly, the throne we can take everywhere.."

Flash back off.

"Princess Tasya?!" Unknowingly, Daffa called out the name of his old fiancee. Anna, who had heard Daffa's murmur, was stunned and thought Daffa had seen her old fiance.

Anna immediately turned to look at Daffa. But, he was surprised because Daffa was still looking at him.

"Daff?" Anna tried to call her husband. However, Daffa did not reply to his call.

Daffa continued to look at Anna from the horse she was riding. Thankfully there were guides still holding the reins of each of their horses. So Anna wasn't too worried that Daffa would fall off her horse.

"Daff!" Anna again called out to Daffa, this time in a louder voice.

Daffa's view still seemed empty to Anna. I don't know what her husband was thinking so he didn't even notice from his daydream, even though Anna had called him many times.

Anna finally put her hand to the side. He hinted at his horseman to approach Daffa's horse. And, as soon as she was at a close enough distance, Anna also pulled Daffa's elbow slowly.

Daffa raised his gaze back to Anna's face.

'Why does Anna's sentence remind me of Princess Tasya? It felt like the sentence they were saying was almost similar, Daffa was deeply entrenched in the heart.

"Daff? Are you okay? Should we go home now (would we go home now)?" Anna gives advice after Daffa's observation that still seems dreamy.

"No. i'm okay. I just. (no. I'm ok anyway. I just.)"

Daffa stopped his words.

'What did I just think? I can't possibly tell Anna that I suddenly thought of Princess Tasya. That might make him feel uncomfortable. After all Tasya was my fiancee in Nevarest, Daffa's monologue in the heart.

"No. Nevermind. (no. It's okay).. I think I'm just thirsty. Let's go get a drink first. You're thirsty too, right?" Daffa tried to turn Anna's attention to something else.

"Ooh.okay. Yep. Let's go get a drink" Anna said slowly.

Even so in her heart, Anna actually felt uneasy.

'Obviously Daffa called Tasya by name. I know I didn't hear wrong. What's.. Does Daff still have feelings for his fiancee?' inner Anna was struck by worry.

And, the rest of the day, both continue to enjoy the panoramic sunset and blue sea on the gallant horse Sumbawa. While in each of their hearts, tucked away memories were also heart-wrenching doubts.

Memories of the past that come back to disturb Daffa. Memories of love in his youth.

There were also doubts in Anna's mind about Daffa's feelings towards her. At once thought, how the fate of her feelings for her husband. If Daffa ever met his fiancee again.

Should Anna let go of her feelings for Daffa? But.can you? Can he do it? This love just grew. So maybe he can take it off slowly. But Anna doesn't know if she'll still be the same Anna she is again.

Imagining himself having to get rid of his feelings for Daffa alone had caused pain and tightness in his chest. Is this a sign that he has loved Daffa too deeply?

[There's an unusual taste, which I'm starting to think, though,

yet somehow

This may be a sign that I am in love,

my first love..

(Song "First Love" by Micah Tambayong)]

And as the afternoon breeze, continue to gently swing south. Those two hearts that stood in trepidation and doubt, slowly set their steps back towards the contest. Under the glare of the golden mega sun.

To go back home.

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[I'm sorry if Mel has been slow lately. Mr. Su started work again. So the schedule back a little solid, because no one helped ngajak play anak2 lg. hee..

if you feel the update is a bit old, please stop by also to another Mel work. There is short story2 with various genres that can be enjoyed.romance, horror, teen, and fantasy.

May there always be good that can be taken from the writing2 Mel, yes.. Aami..

Regards, roht,

from Thor Meli.🥰🙏😁]

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