The Love of the Maharani

Elegy of the Heart

"Back, buddy!

Remember your dreams, our dreams

Hold my finger tightly, don't let it loose

Don't want me to split up, ah..

Heavy, these footsteps of mine

Bringing your shadow that I can't escape

Hate, resent, taste you

But you will still be my friend

Reff: You ignore me!

Forget our dreams first

How hard you act, get me hurt

Oh, why. You have to be like this..

Comeback Buddy!

Remember your dreams, our dreams

Hold my finger tightly, don't let it loose

Don't want me to split up, ah..

From yourself.."

(The lyrics are the result of Mel's own composition yes all.the tone borrowed from the ending song Anime Naruto soundtrack entitled "No Regret Life" or "Nakushita Kotoba" 🥰😁🥰 for those who like to sing, can while singing also the lyrics. Mel wrote a chapter about Anna-Karina often sing this song..🥲)

Anna ended the song with a heavy feeling in her heart. This is a song by an indie band that Anna and Karina accidentally listened to while they were eating Molan ice cream at a cafe a few weeks ago.

"Iih. goosebumps him. This is Naruto's anime song, right? But the Indo version is. I really like it. I'll download ah at home. Although the song mellow siih.." said Karina at the time.

At the end of the song, a tear drops on Anna's cheek. For some reason, before he went on stage, he suddenly remembered this song. That song, a little in number also represented his feelings towards Karina at this moment.

About his feelings like Uzumaki Naruto in the anime, who had to experience separation due to unclear reasons from his best friend named Uchiha Sasuke.

Sasuke suddenly leaves Naruto and his residence to a distant place to search for his long-lost brother and lives as a criminal fugitive. Without taking the time to tell or say goodbye to Naruto.

And, when Naruto looked for him, Sasuke instead acted as if Naruto was not his friend (again). It was as if they had never been friends before. His attitude made Naruto feel sad and not treated fairly by Sasuke, his best friend.

At the end of the story, Naruto and Sasuke did make up again. Although they also had to go through a fierce fight between each other first.

Anna also hopes that her friendship with Karina can recover. But he hopes they do not need to go through the fighting phase as experienced by Naruto and Sasuke. Until even each of the two figures had to suffer severe injuries. Lost one arm each.

Anna didn't want to get hurt any deeper. He also hopes Karina will tell Anna the real cause of their problems. So that his best friend does not just scratch the wound on his own heart and Anna's heart.

'Are friends not our soul mates? Which, to him we need not hesitate to say words or show the real self?

Are friends not our soul mates? Which, to him complained of being able to accommodate it without he also felt tired of the senses when hearing our story?

Are friends not our soul mates? Who should be able to rebuke each other if the other does something wrong. Friends also fill memories with laughter, jokes, crying, together.

Then why?

Why is silence a choice when two hearts are at odds? Shouldn't the conversation be between two heads? Between two hearts?' anna's inner raging tangle.

Anna still closed her eyes, permeating the last sentence in the song she had just finished singing. Anna's reluctance to separate from Karina. He conveyed through the silent verse in the lyrics of the song.

Until the sound of music completely stopped, Anna finally opened her eyes. His heart still felt tight, as he also felt while singing the song earlier.

Anna was no longer able to carve out a smile at this moment, as she had already wanted to fall down and hide herself for a while.

As soon as he stepped off the stage, Anna immediately said goodbye to her friends if she felt unwell.

Even though it was not her body that felt pain. Except her heart. Anna's heart was again slumped in a pit of grief at her loss.

Anna ignored the praise given by her committee friends for her performance just now. Anna wants to be alone. He wanted to bandage his heart wound alone first.

Anna took a moment to calm down. So he took his body and soul to the mushola. The only place he could rely on was in calming down at this moment.

Anna took ablution water. He wanted to pray, but the time of the Zuhr was still about an hour away. Praying dhuha is no longer the time.

Anna finally decided to move on. Trying to console himself in the chants of the sacred verses he read in a slow light.

In her heart Anna sulked. Servant. To stir his heart before the Owner of All Hearts. He poured out his soul in the temples of love which He had embroidered in the form of the holy verses of the Quran.

"Don't be weak. And do not (also) be sad. For you are the highest (height), if you are the believers." (Sura Ali Imran (3) verse 139)

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In the end, Anna calmed down in the mushola while waiting for the time of the Zuhr to arrive. He had told his panitian friends for permission to refresh his body first, before later returning to the retirement place again.

After the prayer, Anna was calm again. As promised, he returned to the place where the pension event was located and joined in the busy with his panitiya friends to maintain the continuity of the event.

Anna was no longer feeling very sad. He was again able to reply to jokes and compliments made by his committee friends, related to his appearance this morning.

Anna does not want to drag on in her grief regarding her friendship with Karina. Let him now give all to the All-Binding Heart.

If their destiny is still intertwined, then surely it and Karina will make up again. I don't know when, Anna doesn't know. Clearly, Anna decided to keep smiling as she met Karina again in class.

Let's see what Karina's attitude is to him. Anna no longer wanted to shake it. Anna was demanding enough of herself to keep doing good and being kind to Karina, that was enough for her.

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