The Journey of Love Habibah..
Heartbreaker
After his last meeting with Purnomo made Habibah back moody. Even when the way farewell took place at his school he was not present. What makes him even more moody is that he lost his diary book which he always carries with him wherever he goes. Somehow he had a bad feeling ever since his diary was lost. He could barely sleep at night. Until one day Purnomo came to visit his employer's house on the grounds of meeting Ririn, somehow his heart really felt unsettled. When Ririn had returned to her brother's house, Purnomo was still in the house with Alvian. When the clock showed at nine o'clock in the evening, somehow courage came from where Purnomo knocked on Habibah's room.
Tok.dok..
Hearing a knock on the door of his room, Habibah immediately opened the door of his room without suspecting. Because he did not think that Purnomo was still in the house.
" Mas Pur..!" the girl was shocked to learn that the one who knocked on her bedroom door was Purnomo.
" I want to talk to you right now, it's important." somehow he caught a tinge of anger in the man's voice. What's wrong with her? It seems like he was angry while following the steps of Purnomo who took him to the gazebo in the middle of the park.
" Sit.." his tone is emphasized as a sign of command. I don't know why the girl complied without asking.
" I want to ask you a question, and you have to answer honestly as honestly as possible" he said, standing right in front of the girl with a very serious face. The girl's hair was goosebumps made, because as long as they were friends never once Purnomo behaved as seriously as that. The atmosphere became very tense.
" Have you lost something lately?" continued again. Habibah seemed a little surprised by the question.
" Ehm.. Yes, there is. Why did you suddenly ask me about it?" ask Habibah to worry. He didn't ask about the missing diary, did he?
" What's missing?" ask Purnomo again.
" Ehm... Is there any. anyway why would Pur want to know?" habibah answered with increasing anxiety.
" Is this yours?" Purnomo issued a book with a purple cover that was very well known by Habibah. The girl's body suddenly trembled and was cold. He could not answer a word and he did not even dare to raise his face. How does the diary exist with him? Gawaattt...! It's in the heart.
" Why are you like me Nur? I've been waiting for answers from your heart for years. You've been in my heart since you were fifth grade in Elementary School until now you've graduated High School.. Every day I wait and hope you will tell me what your true heart is. I always wait and ask myself is your heart the same as mine? Do you feel what I feel? Until you want me to accept Ririn even until we get engaged. I thought all this time I was just clapping one hand at you. That's why I gave Ririn the chance to stay by my side. I keep trying to accept Ririn in my heart. But... " Purnomo stopped his sentence and his hand showed the diary book on his lap while smiling bitterly.
" Why am I so stupid. All this time I couldn't see anything from your eyes. I can't see anything from your attitude. Why when my wedding plans were set I just knew that you had the same feelings as me all along. And why did you never tell me Nur.." his voice was slow but it sounded so heartbreaking. Purnomo felt disappointed in himself for not being able to realize that the girl he had always loved had the same feelings as him. He felt angry at Habibah for never wanting to tell him his feelings. While now she was already engaged to Ririn and the wedding date was already set.
" I have to what now Nur? Try saying I should how now?" he asked again while looking closely at the face of the girl in front of him. Habibah just kept quiet with her tears that did not feel like they had wet her cheeks.
" Can you tell me now that you're willing to accept my feelings and willing to live with me? I only want you to say it once, so I promise to release Ririn and cancel the wedding plans. I only need you to say it once." he said again with hope. Habibah was surprised by Purnomo's request which sounded very unreasonable to him.
" I'm sorry, I can't.. Mas don't hurt Ririn because of me, she's better than me.. Besides, he was like a brother to me. Maybe now mas Pur still can not love Ririn, but I am sure someday mas can love him sincerely and wholeheartedly. So I couldn't have betrayed Ririn for myself. Ririn is very fond of mas, I am sure someday mas will be happy with him." Habibah's answer adds to the wound in Purnomo's heart. Is this just my years-long wait?
" Then, you better go home. If anyone sees us both there will be misunderstandings later. Didn't you also know that love doesn't have to be. I love even very dear Pur mas, but I never expected to be together with mas. I don't deserve to be on Pur's side. There are too many shortcomings that I have while I can not find the shortcomings of the mas. I'm not sure I can be happy in the future" he added.
" Well if that's what you want, I'll follow your wishes. But I want three conditions from you. First I want you to get as far away from my eyes as possible as from my life. Second you must forget me and the third before you leave you must be present at my wedding later." said Purnomo who sounded like lightning in Habibah's ear. It was like a huge mace suddenly hit his chest. His body was getting vibrating and felt weak. But he tried to smile in front of Purnomo who is now standing and ready to step his feet.
" Well mas, I promise I will follow the requirements of the mas earlier" he said softly but clearly heard by Purnomo. The man left her who was still shocked by what she had just faced. Her tears did not stop flowing even though she had tried her hardest to stop him. Is this what you call a broken heart? It hurts so much, is this how Mas Pur felt until he could cry in front of me? I'm sorry, I'm sorry. He was well aware that Purnomo was severely injured by it. He was hurt so much by his decision. But he couldn't have betrayed Ririn just for his own sake.
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bother yes if it's a matter of friendship and love😪😪
