The Journey of Love Habibah..

Zelly's Hope

Nur...

If only I could be the one to make you believe again.

If only I were one of the most important people in your heart.

If only.....

I can only imagine in front of you.

I can't be a real person in front of you.

To be honest I was sick, but I was helpless with the will of God that had made you so important to me in my heart and in my life.

I never even dreamed I would feel all these feelings. I never thought I would fall in love with a little girl like you. You're still that little girl, the little girl I miss every day. The little girl who can always make me feel younger than you, because I can look stupid just because of you.

Zelly smiled bitterly at Habibah who was standing on the balcony of her room. Zelly who was sitting on a park bench with Fadhlan who happened to be the park was just below the room occupied by Habibah.

" Now you have become a manager in your company, are you not disturbed by your status that is still single?" ask Fadhlan to Zelly. But unfortunately the one who was spoken to did not pay attention to the person who was asking him to talk. Feeling unanswered by his interlocutor, Fadhlan turned to Zelly who was staring at Habibah and drowned in his own daydream.

" Hey...! What do you think Hem..? Are you interested in a widow? " he looked when he realized that his wife's friend was watching Habibah.

" Uh..! " Zelly turned towards Fadhlan who was looking at him seriously.

" Are you more interested in widows?" ask Fadhlan in disbelief.

" What widow? Who?" Zelly who did not understand where Fadhlan's conversation was headed asked back.

" Yes the widow.. Isn't she a widow?"

" What if she's a widow?" Zelly doesn't understand.

" So you didn't listen to what I was talking about? Is crazy...! Means I was just talking to myself..!?" Fadhlan finally realized that Zelly had not listened to what he had said. But he also became aware that Zelly likes Habibah from the way he pays attention to Habibah at this time.

" You sure you like him? Wasn't she just a widow who even became like that because of her love for her husband? Then how about when he recovers but he stays with the same feelings and doesn't care about your feelings? Isn't your current feelings just wasted? So what are you doing right now just because of how you feel? Why didn't I guess from the beginning? You're my wife's best friend, I want to see you happy too, but how will you be happy if it's her you're after? You're after something that you can say is impossible." Fadhlan just found out if Zelly was on the wrong path, a path that would only lead him to suffering.

" I really like it, and even really like it. But I didn't like it for a minute. I liked her when she was a fierce but adorable little girl. She is a unique girl, a girl who has a unique character I have never met before. At first I just liked to bother him and argue a lot with him. But I never realized that it made me feel like my days were fun that I could be with him. I've been in love since I knew her. I liked it a long time ago. And right now I just want to help her, I don't expect anything from her other than her to come back the way she was. I can smile and even laugh happily. It's too far away that I expect him to be mine, because I also know that he never liked me at all. But there's no reason for me not to help him now, is there a bang?" Zelly finally reveals her feelings for Fadhlan.

" You're crazy, aren't you? You've really gone crazy Zelly..! You can hurt yourself in this way. If you already know she never liked you then why did you do all that?"

" I don't know bang, which I know I want to see him recover. Maybe it's because I feel satisfied just like this. I'm content to love her and I don't dare dream she'll love me. Especially by looking at her situation like this that I know she loves her husband very much. It will be very difficult for him to be able to open his heart to others, I know very well. But my happiness is simple bang, with her being able to smile and laugh happily it has made me happy too. And seeing him like this I also felt his pain. It may be true that I'm crazy, but I don't regret my madness."

Fadhlan was speechless, he could only be fixated on listening to everything Zelly said.

Advising a person who is in love is like advising a thick wall.

Somehow Fadhlan felt at that time he felt sorry, annoyed, concerned but also sympathetic to Zelly. Because he knows not many people can do what Zelly is doing right now. A mature man with a handsome face, well-established, never neko-neko, highly educated but subjugated only by a woman like Habibah.

She's just an ordinary country woman who only goes to vocational school. What makes a Zelly like this? Is he really that much to be loved like this?

Fadhlan who used to be ordinary to Habibah now began to wonder, what causes Zelly to be so crazy. The uniqueness of what Habibah has to make Zelly crazy like this.

Sumarni's mother brought Habibah to sit in the garden, before long Sumarni's mother made a video call with Habibah's children.

" Your....!" zain and Nur Laily exclaimed at the same time as he saw his mother. But Habibah remained silent.

" amma... It's Zain.. Uma... Zain kangen." said Zain crying as he saw that his mother was silent. Zain felt very longed for his mother's warm embrace, his mother's voice telling a fairy tale to her before going to bed and many more moments that he missed with his mother. But now her mother is silent.

" So, don't cry, Uma will get well and go home. We just pray that our Uma will recover quickly and go home again." comforted Nur Laily to Zain while rubbing her tears gently. While Nur Laily himself was holding back his tears so as not to fall.

" Grandma... Is it still a long time Uma can heal?" nur Laily asked Sumarni's mother.

" God willing soon, dear.. Do not stop praying for your Uma, ask Allah every time you finish praying, do not forget.. Where are you guys?"

" Who is, grandma wants to talk to you? Wait a minute, grandma.." Nur Laily immediately approached her eyes that were sitting on one of the guest money sofas.

" Eyang, grandma wants to talk to each other." said Nur Laily while handing over the cellphone he brought. Sofia's mother immediately received the phone given by her grandson.

" How are you, ma'am? What about Habibah? Is there any progress?" asked Sofia's mother as soon as she saw Sumarni's mother on her phone screen.

" Our news is good, and Alhamdulillah there has been progress. Yesterday we took him for a walk to the park by the bank, and there he saw an ambulance passing by. Suddenly he ran away and found out he was chasing the ambulance. We thought it was a beautiful and pleasant impression that could touch her consciousness, but we were wrong. It was just a sad thing that he could respond to. Hopefully in this close visit there is another progress and hopefully soon he can recover." Sumarni's mother told the incident they experienced at the park yesterday.

" Thank God that there has been progress, even though what he responded was a sad thing. But I'm glad to hear it. I miss him so much, I miss his voice, I miss his cooking, I miss seeing him who's ashamed that we're seduced, I miss everything Mom.." Sofia's mother said with tears in her eyes, he really misses his favorite daughter-in-law. She lost her son and now she is losing her daughter-in-law. He wanted his son-in-law to recover quickly and be reunited with the family who loved him.

Mamma...

I know you love me, I know you miss me.

But i'm...

I miss people I'll never see again for the rest of my life. My life was lonely without her, she said she would come back but she was gone for good. He lied, he didn't keep his promise to come home and live happily with me. Is he still mad at me for my mistakes?

Habibah suddenly stood up and left Sumarni's mother who was still talking to Sofia's mother. Zelly who saw Habibah go immediately ran and followed him, he was afraid Habibah walked towards the endangerment. Zelly just followed him behind with a distance that is not too far, maybe about 3 steps behind Habibah. Sumarni and Fadhlan's mother who saw it could only look at each other. Fadhlan already understood why Zelly behaved like that, but Sumarni's mother did not seem to understand what Zelly did because the man had very deep feelings for his son Habibah.

Habibah turned back into his room, Zelly just watched him in front of the door. Habibah immediately put himself in bed and covered himself as if he wanted to hide from something. Zelly approached Habibah who was hiding behind a blanket and bent his knees by his bedside.. His heart was right to feel devastated to see the fragility of the woman he loved so much.

" Nur.. I believe you can get through all this. I'm sure you'll come back as you were with people who loved you and loved you. You need to hurry back, let go of all your sadness there. Leave all your pain where you are now.

Nur, I know how you feel. But trust me, I will always be there for you. Although you may never see me, but I want to see you happy even without me in your life.

Nur, your happiness is waiting for you. Maybe I never meant anything to you, but did you know that you meant a lot to me? I really wanted to tell you all this while you were in front of me as your living self not just this soulless body of yours. But unfortunately I can never say it, but I actually said it when you were like this. It's ironic, right?" Zelly spilled all her hopes on Habibah with a sore heart.