The Journey of Love Habibah..

lose hope

A week has passed since the funeral of the son of Habibah, Habibahpun has been allowed to go home. Although sadness was still evident in his eyes, Habibah tried to toughen up.

After a break of a few days and Habibah felt strong enough to walk some distance, finally Habibah desperate to go menziarahi grave of his son who was buried right next to the grave of her late husband. So Habibah can menziarahi them at once.

Habibah was seen squatting to clean the grave of her late husband from the grass and leaves that litter the surface of the tomb. After cleaning it, Habibah was seen reciting holy verses and praying them.

Mas, I'm sorry I couldn't keep your last trust. God loves you as God loves you.

God prefers that if our children are with you, God does not like our children to have difficulties while living with me.

Mom, I miss you.

I miss all the times we spent together since we were in school until you went to His birthday.

I miss all your smiles and laughter.

I miss when you're angry, I miss when you're adorable. And I miss everything you have.

Mas, I thought our son would be the cure for all my longing for you.

But God didn't like my hope. Perhaps my hope was wrong before God. That's why God took our son back.

Mas, I hope we can regroup later in the end. Let us part ways in the world, as long as we can be together in the hereafter.

Aami........

After being satisfied with all his complaints beside the navel of her husband and child, Habibahpun came home with a little relief. Although still leaving a little sadness, but now he was much better than when he walked towards the funeral earlier.

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While away in a town across the island there. A handsome man who was sitting on a wooden chair under a large tree in the park that is a lot of people visit, especially in the afternoon. Looking far away with a look that glares somewhere. He leaned his back on the back of the chair with his laziness. And he just sat alone. His handsome face seemed to be shrouded in the gloom of his heart.

In his solitude he can only remember his past which sometimes makes his lips singe a smile, even though his smile looks broken and bland.

He pulled out his pants pocket and pulled out his favorite flat object. Lock the folder stored in it. In his eyes carefully, even he forgot all the crowds in the park. He really felt alone in his current world.

*Nur, how are you there?

Are you happy now?

What about your son?

Must have been born by now, and is she as beautiful as you or is she as handsome as her father?

Nur, do I sin if I still miss you?

I just miss you in my silence.

Will God be angry with me?

Nur, is it good if I still keep all these memories of me? Is it me who still holds your face and name in my heart today?

If you knew, would you be mad at me?

Nur, being away from you is a very long torture for me. My determination is not as strong as my feelings for you. Forgetting you is impossible for me. And I've given up on that*.

Suddenly the phone he was holding shook several times. He glimpsed his phone screen and it was a name he never expected to have in his life..

Many times his phone shook, yet he still ignored it. Until a twang is heard as a notification there is a message coming in. Opened it.

Hi, where are you? It's late afternoon why don't you go home soon?Don't forget to bring me food when you come home.

Well, it was a message he received almost every day. With almost the same words every day. Actually he was very bored, but he could not do anything.

" Hey Zell? Is that you?" a voice asked about him. With a heavy heart he stared at the direction the voice came from.

" You Rud, when are you coming home?" tanyanya stood up to greet the arrival of her friend with a light hug

" I didn't see it wrong? How could my best friend be like this? Oh Allah...! You're a mess now, what are you doing here alone? Where's your wife? Aren't you married?" ask Rudy.

" Oh....! You're like a cop interrogating again, I'm just looking for the wind. And wife... Hm..." Zelly hung up his sentence when he said about his wife. His face was smiling bitterly. And Rudy his best friend could see it clearly.

" Yes that's it.... Don't talk about it if you don't want to talk about it. I'm just surprised to see how you are now. You should have been more groomed when you were married. Not like this.." Rudy patted Zelly on the shoulder.

Zelly doesn't just want to talk about his wife. If you can, she doesn't want to see him when she gets home. The wife who should serve him but often hurt his heart. Zelly is still doing everything on his own, unless his mother or in-laws come, then his wife will be nice to him.

" But remember, I want to marry you because my parents owe a lot to your parents. Otherwise, who would want to marry a weathered bachelor like you? While I was young and beautiful like this, so you don't expect anything from me. Don't ever interfere in my business and don't dream of touching me" said the woman who is now his wife when they just finished their wedding reception.

Actually his heart was very sick to hear the words of Riana his wife. But Zelly never served every word that was thrown at her, no matter how sick it was. He realized that it would not be easy to be accepted by a young woman like Riana.

Day by day he passed through with pain and loneliness that increasingly gripped his soul. It was as if deciding on all the wonderful hopes in her life. He lives his life for what it is. Without goals and dreams.

Zelly has a culinary business and an auto repair shop. And his income can be said to be more than good. It's all the results of his efforts for 10 more years he worked overseas. But his economic situation did not make him happy. Because in reality, he doesn't seem to care about himself.

" Rud, how's it going? Is she okay?" tanyanya slow.

"Oh my goodness, Zell...! You still like this? Zelly, I don't see any flaws in you. But how can you just stick to one woman? While you yourself are married now." replied Rudy who looked at him in disbelief. He really did not think if his best friend could get like that even though he currently has a wife.

" Wife..?" tanyanya bitter.

" She's just a foreign woman who really hates me. The woman who always humbled me, who never appreciated anything but my money. Is that what you call a wife?" zelly said, staring far ahead.

Rudy was very surprised to hear the words spoken by Zelly. He did not expect that his best friend was living an uneasy life in his household. He had thought that his current situation was only because of his feelings for Habibah. Turns out he got a wife who was far from good as a wife.

" I'm sorry Zell, I didn't know you were having such a bad time with your household. But why do you keep quiet with your wife's attitude?" asked Rudy curious about Zelly's silence.

" Will it change if I serve it? Will he be nice to me? Will I be able to change the reality if I am just a weathered bachelor? And whether it can change the reality if indeed she is a young and beautiful woman who should be married to a man who deserves her. It's not a man my age who marries her by being betrothed. And what's the point of me getting mad at him, because in reality I'm just a lousy guy." said Zelly with a facial expression that shows submission to his destiny or even can be said if it is his despair.

Rudy could no longer speak. Only the concern he has for his best friend is.

" Bang, let's go home..!" exclaimed a woman to Rudy who was still thinking about the fate of his best friend.

" I'm sorry Zell, I have to go home. You should also go home and take good care of yourself. And about Habibah. She just lost her son in an accident. That's all I know, because I only hear people talking about it. The rest I don't know. Take good care of yourself, imagine if he is in front of you right now. Will he be happy to see you in this way? Take care of yourself, think of it for her" Rudy said, patting Zelly on the shoulder before he left.

Nur, would you really be sad if you saw me like this?

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Sorry yes just can up again, thank you for always being faithful waiting up from the author who is again boisterous this🥰🥰