The Chosen Heart

Episode 90's

''I'm not eating, Yang?" Ask Hanan.

A few days after Bella's arrival home. Zahwa looks moody. He's not like he used to be. And it makes Hanan worried and inspired to just entertain him by inviting dinner outside.

But even so he was gloomy and did not want to talk about his problem.

''I eat, really." Answer Zahwa.

Seeing the attention of her husband she started eating food in front of him. Though the food was his favorite, but why did he not feel the delicacy at all.

''Still thinking about the problem, Sister Bella?'' Hanan asked on the sidelines of their meal.

''Ah ''Ah...No.'' Answer Zahwa.

''How many days are you moody? If not for that matter, then what?'' Hanan asked, unsure of Zahwa's answer.

Zahwa was silent not speaking. He still hesitated to express his heart. There is an unnatural fear when you want to express it.

Look at Zahwa who didn't respond. Hanan was still patient not to bother him. Nor forced him to tell stories.

Finish the dinner. Hanan still wants to continue taking Zahwa for a walk. Or just shopping. But Zahwa refused. He wants to go home soon. And Hanan complies.

Arriving at Zahwa's house directly to the room. Not yet in the room, his steps stopped in front of a room. The main room of the house.

Hanan who was walking behind him slightly slowed down his pace. Stop, wondering why Zahwa was standing glued in front of his late parents' room.

With a body that suddenly shook, Zahwa grabbed the doorknob of the room. She opened a little and then ran into the room.

Hanan is increasingly concerned with Zahwa's changes. He sees Zahwa being frightened when he wants to go into his parents' room. He used to go to the room often and even the room was already the basecamp of his paintings. But why has it changed now? What the hell is going on?

Hanan immediately went to the room before that he closed his parents' room because Zahwa had just run away for a moment after opening the door

''Yang?'' Call Hanan.

The room is still in dark condition. Zahwa had clearly entered the room. But why are the lights still on. Hanan was getting worried.

Hanan immediately turned on the lights. Sontak was surprised to see Zahwa who was so scared. He clutched both his legs in the bend. Empty views.

"What's up? why are you like gini?''

Zahwa was so shaking. She's terrified. His eyes were red and unceasingly shed tears.

Hanan directly carried his body onto the bed. He laid her down and covered her body. He checked Zahwa's body thinking that he was sick but his body temperature was normal.

Hanan took off her hijab, as her body broke out in cold sweat. Rubbing the sweat with tissue on the nightstand.

Zahwa hasn't spoken yet. Hanan was getting worried. What's actually going on? why is he suddenly like that.

''I'll call Very. You wait here. Don't go anywhere said Hanan.

But Zahwa prevented it. He hugged Hanan's body suddenly. It was so tight that Hanan could sense that it was some kind of grip.

''What's up, honey? Tell me, if there's a problem tell me. We can face it together." Ask Hanan. He abandoned his intention to leave. And return Zahwa's embrace.

''I am afraid'' said Zahwa.

''Afraid of who? tell me if someone hurt you.'' Hanan. He already imagined that Zahwa was in terror.

''Aren't. I'm afraid, afraid of losing you." Zahwa Word . Instantly make Hanan smile .

''Hay, I'm here. I'll be with you . Where might I leave you.'' Hanan. He let go of his embrace. And look at Zahwa who is still as he pleases.

''Let's just say Mom and Dad are still there. Do they like me? Will they be happy with me? love me too?'' Ask Zahwa suddenly.

Hanan. There has never been such a conversation in all this time. And why did Zahwa suddenly ask that?

''Of course. Aren't they the ones who chose you to be my companion.'' Hanan replied by gently stroking her cheeks. There are still tears flowing.

''Lied. Where maybe there are parents who will accept a daughter-in-law who has played to her two children.'' Zahwa.

Hanan quiet. He never imagined that his parents would still be around. And suppose they know how complicated their love story is.

But it doesn't matter anymore, most importantly why Zahwa was suddenly so depressed about the impossible. His parents are no longer there, his parents-in-law no longer exist.

''Nobody likes you. You are their chosen woman, my heart has chosen you. And more importantly, fate unites us. It is Allah himself who brought us together.'' Hanan.

He remembers the first time he met Zahwa. How he married that woman without hesitation. Feel the tightness instantly when she finds out that she is her brother's lover. It crumpled when he almost lost her.

Angry when, only her brother at that time was on the mind at that time. Hate, when in the end he is like a stone that will be thrown when the owner no longer needs.

But I am happy because he is in my life. She didn't know how I hid my fears when I imagined that she would leave me, and worse when she would become her sister-in-law.

I am also grateful that slowly. He accepted me, I accepted him. Together we begin our new life. Start sheet by sheet and combat the many temptations of the time.

''I'm afraid that Mama-in-law doesn't like me. Afraid there he regretted giving his blessing. If only I could talk to him . If only I could ask if I could be with you forever. And get his blessing.''

''Where Mama might be like that. Even I believe Mama and Papa are happy because it is not wrong to choose you to accompany me. Because when I'm with you I'm happy, I don't feel like I'm losing them. Because you are their last trust. Don't even think that Mom and Dad don't like you. There's nothing like that.'' Hanan

''Is this because of the story from your cousin?'' Ask Hanan.

'' /He is not wrong, don't mistake him for my current condition. I don't want to burden him anymore. He's been in too much trouble. And now he's on his own.'' Answer Zahwa.

It's true that what happened to Zahwa was because of Bella's story. A lot of Bella has gone through in her life. Dry is already Bella's tears when she faces in-laws who apparently don't like her. And now, marriage is on the edge of destruction.

And somehow after hearing Bella's story at that time, Zahwa's mind struggled erratically. Imagine, if he went through the same thing as Bella. Could he possibly face it?

If only he did not get the blessing from his father-in-law. How could she ask her son to stay alive with her?

It's about Heaven and Love, and it's more complicated than a battle over the human heart.

''Tomorrow morning we go on a pilgrimage to the Tomb of our parents. We tell all our lives and ask for the blessing of prayer back.'' Hanan said with a reassuring smile.

Zahwa. Perhaps that way, his heart and mind can clear again.

Hanan grabbed Zahwa's head and then kissed her forehead.

''You are forever for me" he said softly