The Chosen Heart

Episode 36's

Surya slightly regulated his breathing. He seems to be trying to relieve the tension. Start telling Bella everything.

"Since the beginning I've been feeling awkward about Hanan and Zahwa's marriage. I'm figuring out what really happened. Before her Zahwa did not know Hanan at all, and vice versa. Neither did our parents know each other." Bright Solar.

"So? Do you know the answer?" Ask Bella. It turns out that it was not only him who felt the awkwardness of Zahwa and Hanan's marriage.

"It has. I went to see Mr. Ruslan, he's our family lawyer. He recounted the events before and after they were married and the cause turned out to be on the blue box" Surya continued

''Blue box? What's the box that says your promises to Zahwa before you leave for Cairo?" Ask Bella to make sure.

"really? You know that too?" ask Surya.

"Zahwa's told me before. I thought it was just a coincidence. But it turns out it was yours" replied Bella.

"The blue box is the root of the problem. Before leaving for Cairo I kept the box in Hanan's room, it might be well maintained. But it turns out, it makes a misunderstanding like this."

"You mean?"

"Old man Zahwa asked to make himself a son-in-law in our house. At first I didn't understand anything, and even refused. But when he found the blue box, my father started receiving Zahwa. Fatally, I thought Hanan had been Zahwa's lover all this time."

"Well! A box alone can change the destiny of some people" Bella commented. He did not expect that their problem was only because of a box.

"I meant to tell Zahwa the truth, but Zahwa doesn't seem to care anymore. She had already begun to love and accept Hanan as her husband."

"In contrast I feel so too. But I wouldn't be willing, too, if Zahwa lived forever with people who didn't love her,"

" Did Zahwa often tell Hanan?''

"Often. Every time we met or just called. All he talked about was that Hanan,"

Surya was silent, considering the blatant togetherness of Hanan and Zahwa in front of him.

"But, he also still often says if he still likes you," added Bella

Surya felt hopeful again after hearing Bella say that.

"I still love him too. That's why I want to fight for him.

"But the way you're wrong, you're like asking her to cheat behind her husband." Bella said

"I didn't mean that. I want us to open up to each other and tell Hanan everything. After that we can be like before, no one will get hurt,"

"You sure? Do you think Zahwa will follow your way? Maybe she hasn't really loved Hanan, but all this time she's been trying to be a good wife to Hanan. Even he doesn't care about his feelings for you anymore,"

"Well what should I do?" Surya asked, he came back desperate.

"Don't impose your will. Let Zahwa choose what is best for him. He has every right to it, if you keep pushing him like that. I'm not sure if the truth is revealed Zahwa will want to be with you again. Maybe even, no longer want to be with you or Hanan." Answer Bella.

"Give him time to think a little about what he wants" added Bella.

"You're right. I was also wrong, if only then had I interacted with him more often when we were apart . Perhaps none of this will happen" Surya said with regret.

"Hopefully things improve quickly and you can open up to each other" Bella said

"Amen..."

"I'll try to talk to Zahwa about this. But I can't promise anything at the moment either" Bella said as she stood up

"Thank you, thank God you're here." Surya.

After they had talked and exchanged thoughts for quite a while. They parted ways, because the day-break was over. Surya has to hurry back to the office, and so does Bella he has to go home soon . For too long he had been out and left Jauhar at his parents' house.

***

Nightfall.

"It's night, Non.Not sleeping?'' ask Bik danih

"Still waiting for Hanan to come home bik" replied Zahwa.

He was sitting on the sofa in the middle room. In front of him the tv is on. But the chenel changed - over. Not damaged, maybe the heart that holds his remote is being damaged. Zahwa squeezed the remote like a toy, not knowing what he was trying to watch.

"Wait in the room. Later also home," Sahut Surya he also has not slept. Where he could sleep, his guilt towards Zahwa about the incident this afternoon still haunted him.

"I want to be here. You sleep!" Zahwa. He doesn't want to be disturbed by anyone.

Surya and Bikih exchanged looks. The two shrugged, a sign of not having to do anything and could only obey Zahwa's will.

It's almost late at night. Hanan did not come home. Indeed he said he would be overtime, but did not think if until a night like this.

Zahwa was sleepy. He also travels all day. Coming home was almost magrib. Usually, he would quickly want to sleep after traveling all day like that. But this time he still wants to fight his drowsiness and fatigue to wait for Hanan to come home .

Several times she looked at the clock and turned to the main door, hoping that her husband would already be there. But his hopes were repeatedly dashed. Hanan has not yet arrived.

Zahwa is unconscious. Snuggled up on the couch. Without a blanket or headboard to cover his body. The room lights are still on. The TV also shows the show. But the body can no longer hear or feel anything around it. He's been fast asleep.

Once there, he saw that Zahwa was sleeping. Slowly, Surya took the tv remote in Zahwa's hands. The remote almost fell because Zahwa was already completely unconscious. Surya turned off the TV that was still on and put the remote on top of the TV. He also replaced the lights of the room with night lights. So that Zahwa does not feel disturbed by the bright glare of the lamp.

Zahwa is fast asleep, unaware of Surya's presence before her. Surya looked lovingly at all he didn't want to take his eyes off it. He hadn't seen Zahwa in this long.

A few seconds later, Surya went to his room again. He took a blanket and also a pair of pillows for Zahwa.

Creek

The sound of the main door opening. Hanan with a lethargic face was there. Surya sees coming and instantly undoes his intention to envelop Zahwa. 

"Your mother hasn't slept?'' Ask Hanan. The dim light in the living room revealed her brother who was sculpting with a thick blanket in his hand.

"You're too concerned about your work. Look Zahwa. He's tired of waiting for you" said Surya. Since Hanan married Zahwa. I don't know why Surya is always looking for his mistakes.

"Why is he sleeping here?'' Hanan asked after realizing that there was Zahwa who had fallen asleep on the sofa.

"He's waiting for you to come home" Surya replied

Hanan. She did not expect that Zahwa would be waiting for her.  He knew he was going to be overtime anyway. 

"I'll take him to the room. Mas Surya slept, said Hanan he began to carry Zahwa into his arms.

Surya was still silent, seeing Hanan begin to lift her up and bring her into their room.

"If it were me. Maybe my fatigue will disappear instantly," Inner Surya .

Arriving at Hanan's room lay Zahwa on the bed. Put him to sleep as comfortably as possible and then cover him. Hanan stared fixedly at Zahwa's face, he looked slumbering in his sleep.

*If you'd just called me. I'm not going home this late, Zahwa. I guess today you and Mas Surya will be frank. That's why I'm lazy to go home*

I'm sorry*

Hanan gently rubbed Zahwa's yams and would smell full of warmth.

"You're home yet? Mercifully... I'm going to sleep now" Zahwa said. He opened his eyes and saw Hanan right in front of his face. By fighting the drowsiness he also said that earlier. And go back to sleep, turn her body. Nighing Hanan who was still crouching saw him.

Hanan let out a sigh he got up and immediately rushed into the bathroom. Moments later, he came out in his nightgown. His face looks fresh again. Without waiting, he lay down next to Zahwa.

Hanan was still unable to sleep, he was disturbed by Zahwa who was so close to him. Usually, too, but this time Zahwa did not scold him while he was sleeping.

Hanan's mind floated. Remembering what happened in his office.

At lunchtime he and Aldian wanted to go out to lunch. They headed to the parking lot to pick up the car when Hanan saw Surya was also taking his car. He looks rushed. Makes Hanan suspicious and wants to follow

"Eh, we're not eating. Why is the road different?" ask Aldian. He was different next to Hanan who was following Surya's car.

"We're just looking for another place to eat" Hanan said, looking for an excuse.

"But this is too far away. In fact, it will not be able to enjoy it later," Aldian denied. He was always over food.

"will not. We'll be there soon" Hanan said. He looks concentrated to see the car Surya as if he does not want to be left behind in his footsteps.

The car stopped at a park. Hanan stopped his car as well. He wondered why his brother was visiting the park.

"Wait in the car. I'll be gone for a while" Hanan said, he got out of the car. Regardless of the protection from Aldian, he was gone. Looking for a brother who had lost his sight.

Next to the park from the opposite direction she again found her brother. He was with two women. First he did not know her and second was Zahwa, his wife. They look familiar and happy.

Hanan turned around and headed for his car. Aldian was waiting for him. Without speaking, he drove his car back. Leaving behind a million questions and heartbreaks.

Back, Hanan was lulled into the atmosphere of the night. It is getting cold and wanting warmth. He saw Zahwa clingy, out of nowhere he grabbed Zahwa's body in his arms.

*I'm relieved, what I'm afraid doesn't happen now.  I don't know what you're discussing with my brother, just so it wasn't your plan to tell me the truth. I won't be a problem.*

I'm starting to be selfish. May you forgive me. I don't think I love you yet.you're too stupid for me.But I don't want anyone else to assume or know your stupidity other than myself.

And I don't love you. That's what I always tell myself. So that I may remain king in your eyes. Cause I know, when someone starts loving. He will be a devotee of his love.

I don't want that, I don't love you because I don't want to lose you. That's my way. If you are wrong, I hope you can forgive me.

I don't love you

I don't love you

I don't love you

Because I don't want to lose you**.

Hanan's heart churned, making him clutch Zahwa's body even more tightly in his arms. Without her noticing Zahwa feeling that, she awakens from her sleep. But don't want to show it.

Zahwa had no idea what her husband was feeling right now.  But apparently, he was fighting something that was on him, and he didn't want to bother him.

"Good night, good dreams. I'm sorry..." Hanan. He began to sleep, shaking his mind.  And just wanted to let go by sleeping with his wife.