The Chosen Heart

Episode 49's

*I know, you're only present for a while. I know that one day you will leave me.

I know I'm just a shadow to you, nothing more.

go then! I'm gonna let that go.

go then! Go then! Go then!*

Hanan's heart raged. The day he feared had happened. Where he must accept the reality of the relationship between Brother and Wife openly.

"Mas Hanan! Listen to my explanation!" Zahwa has not given up. He continued to pursue the roar of Hanan's footsteps. She was afraid her husband would misunderstand.

"Go Zahwa! Haven't you done enough of that to me!" Hanan snapped, this time he let out his emotions. It doesn't matter if there are a lot of people looking at them. Many verbally began to want to interfere in their affairs.

"You're with me! But you love Mas Surya. You've been my wife, but all you've thought about is my brother. You just think I'm a fool! What do you think I am!"

"I don't love you! So leave! Go back to my sister. I'm releasing you!" The call just overflowed. Scratch a matchless wound.

Letting go is Hanan's way of moving on with his next life.

"Is that your decision? Don't you want to listen to me?" ask Zahwa. He's tired already. Everyone said their decision today. Again he must follow their decision without listening to his decision, even what he wants.

"Zahwa. Let Hanan alone first," Surya said. Zahwa stared intently at Surya .

"You're satisfied now! Oh... Why do I blame you?! From the beginning I was wrong!"

Zahwa. He's sick of all this trouble.

No one knows exactly who is really at fault at the moment. No one knows who is hurt the most right now.

"I'll talk to Hanan. You rest," Pinta Surya.

Hanan is gone. He did not look back at his wife's condition. Leaving him just like that with all the awkwardness in his heart.

"I'm tired" said that.

Surya also could not bear to see Zahwa like that. He was lulled by Elena's words by wanting to make her jealous and know her true feelings. It was unexpected that this time he saw that the feeling was no longer there, the feeling had disappeared. What she now saw was Zahwa's feelings for her Husband, for Hanan.

***

That night Zahwa packed his things and without anyone knowing it he left the house. Leave a letter to her husband.

**Assalamualaikum, etc,

I'm sorry. I'm mistaken. All this time I lied to you. You have a right to be angry. That was my decision. You don't have to be shy.

Thank ye. I became an idial husband to me. Even if you never loved me. Maybe you're right. That we should let each other go. If I stay with you, it'll hurt you even more, won't it? You're free now. Seems likeyou said.

Take care of your health, though,

I put your vitamins in the top drawer near your bed. Don't forget to drink it.

I put the shirt on the left side of the closet. Some of your books I put in your study. When the books are in the room you will forget to sleep and do anything.

Don't be too busy. You no longer have a duty to support me. Take care of your health. Eat a lot. You are free to receive bread from your apprentice as well.

I talk too much, yeah...

Surely you will be fed up with me at this moment .

Mas Hanan, thank you, yes ....

I'm sorry if I can't return all the stuff you gave me. I asked permission to keep it.

Because all this time you've been protecting me and looking after me. When then there was someone who said that you were the one who told people to hide the high heels. So that I don't wear it anymore and make my legs hurt.

Mas Hanan thanks...

Because all this time I only troubled you, not being the perfect wife for you and you still accepted me. You never forced me. Thank you for taking care of me.

If not loving me is your decision. I should what?

I can try to be the perfect wife, but I can't make you love me.

Again, take care of your health. If not, find a wife again. So that someone takes care of you. Zahra is a good woman. You can consider him. You like her anyway. Easy later that liking will be love**.

"Right! Where is Zahwa?" Ask Surya.

It's almost noon, but he didn't find Zahwa.

"Do you love Him?" Ask Hanan Sharp .

"I_

"If you love her why would you let her go. Huh! What kind of love is that? Letting her just leave?!"

"What did you say? You think I want that?! If only I could I wouldn't let him go a second away from me . But I have no power over it. He no longer loves me as he used to. But love you!!" Surya. He who became the victim was actually the one who felt the deepest pain.

"Are you overflowing your mistakes on me? Huh! From the very beginning, if you were frank about Zahwa being your lover to our parents none of this would have happened. I don't have to marry her and you can be happy now . There's no need to involve me. There's no need to make me a loser because it's thought to snatch my brother's own lover." Hanan is just as emotional.

"You already know that? Since when?" Surya asked, he was disappointed again. His sister had known everything for a long time.

"Do you think I'm stupid. I kept quiet waiting for you to tell me yourself. I'm the one you've been lying to all this time!" Jerky Hanan.

"Mas Surya, Mas Hanan, fighting won't solve everything. We need to find Non Zahwa now. I'm sorry, if auntie is presumptuous to interfere with this matter. But auntie can't stand it when it comes to Non Zahwa. Now he's on his own." Sahut Bik Asih divorced The sisters .

Hanan and Surya eased their respective emotions. True what Bik Asih said, they must find Zahwa at this time.

"Bik Asih knows, where did Zahwa go?" Ask Surya.

"Maybe he's coming home, ma'am." Answer Bik Asih. That's the only true possibility at the moment .

"We have to leave now" Surya said

Surya and Bik Asih leave immediately. Hanan still stood there.

"You don't want to go? " question Surya realized that Hanan did not go.

"You only. I have business." Answer Hanan. He did not want any rebuttal, visible from his eyes and behavior. Surya is not talking. Just shake your head and leave immediately.

Hanan took back the letter from Zahwa. He hid it earlier when Surya would come to see him. Continue reading the letter.

*And about me and Mas Surya. I won't regret it, because that's the truth. I love your sister . That's what happened at the time. But I married you. That's my destiny.

I never had a chance to choose one of them, because it just happened.

If only I could choose. Maybe I'll pick your sister. We loved each other before. We also planned the wedding beforehand. Moreover, I do not want to make you hurt

But fate says something else, doesn't it? I'm becoming your wife. All I put to you. I don't want any more lies and secrets between us.

Again I'm sorry. I will respect your decision. Since you are my Husband, it will not change anything that has happened.

Wassalamu'alaikum*