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CHAPTER 391. I LOVED HER

“Yeahhh I lost.” said Sarah with a sad face expression made up, sad,

“Sarah! Let's finish the ice cream quickly. Just a little more! Come fast!” Alex tries to support Sarah to get excited even though Sarah is only pretending to lose to please the child.

“Hey, I'm your mother. You don't support me Alex?” Bella pretends to be sad.

“You're Bella too! Let's quickly spend!” alex said cheering.

 

Bella also chose to give up for her sister.

“Sarah, you won second. Bella wins third.” exclaims Alex excited. He was very happy to be the first winner.

“Yes I lost to both of you.” said Bella again puffed her cheeks.

“Ye ye ye I won!” Alex was enthusiastic because the two women lost.

 

“We want to play especially Alex?” ask Sarah.

“I don't want to play anymore! It's about noon. I want to cook for you.” replied Alex.

Hearing that Bella and Sarah throw each other a look then both look at Alex.

“Mr Alex, do you want to cook?” ask Henry.

 

“Hmm! I'll be a great chef like daddy! Let's cook Henry, then cook him for lunch. I want to give a gift to Bella and Sarah and me!”

“So you want to cook for us Alex? For me and Sarah?” bella asked enthusiastically with a smile.

‘Mrs Bella, you know how troublesome it is to bring Mr. Alex to cooking. That smile of yours is an encouragement to me! Fuuh!’ whispered of Henry's heart.

 

“Iya Bella, I'll cook a lot for you and Sarah so you're all fat! Go Henry!” no wait long Alex looked up at Henry to take him to the kitchen.

“Alright.” said Henry walked with Alex to the kitchen.

“You're just Bella's son! But he's very clever. Hahahaha.” says Sarah laughs.

“Iya, she's as smart as Dante.” Bella also admires the cleverness of her son who is exactly like Dante.

 

“Houh! Dante again...Dante again! Are you stupid Bella?”

“Not so I mean Sarah!”

“Already, try now you answer my question. Do you love dante?”

“The same question I asked you Sarah. Do you love Barack?”

Sarah was silent for a moment then she looked at Bella firmly saying, “Yes I love her very much. Barack is everything in my heart. Does my answer satisfy you, Bella?”

 

“Actually I disagree Sarah!”

“But I love her so much, Bella. He was a man who always protected me even though he never told me his feelings but from his attitude and deeds he really took care of me. Her attitude was very warm to me as if it was her way of showing her love.”

 

The words came out smoothly from Sarah's lips with her gaze looking far up at the sky, there was a smile on Sarah's face with her fingers already holding the necklace hanging from her neck. Barack's gift necklace meant a lot to him.

 

“I don't know Bella but I will accept whatever will happen to me when I have expressed my heart to her when she returns later.” said Sarah who was determined.

 

Sarah's words weren't what Bella wanted to hear right now. He straightened his seat and cast his gaze far over. Her heart ached when she heard Sarah's sister's words, but Bella tried to hold her.

 

“I know you're desperate to keep and protect me Bella! But I'm sorry, I can't go against my own feelings either and turn them to someone else!”

“Cih! What do you know about love, Sarah? You know what sacrifices I have to make as long as I live my life?”

 

Sarah looked at Bella and shook her head, “I don't know but I realized that you've been through a life that's not easy, Bella!”

“Hmmm Bella nodded her head.

“You're right. They gave me drugs, they tortured me to serve people I didn't love. They sold me for money and they never thought about how I felt. Their actions sometimes can't make me think straight now! Sometimes I get stupid and there's something in me that always wants a man to touch me. I don't understand but my whole feeling and way of thinking are all different, Sarah!”

 

Bella paused for a long sigh, “I don't know how I can improve myself. I want too much of a man's touch! Moreover, sometimes I feel very need for drugs, it feels very painful like being stabbed. I do not know how I should think and sometimes it is difficult for me to divert my desires unless I get satisfaction in my body.”

 

“Even at the age of seventeen I was supposed to develop myself and become a successful person but I had to lose my honor and I also had to lose my son.” said Bella explained at length to Sarah.

 

“But you went back to that man who hurt you, Bella? Wh why? After what he did to you?” Sarah asked that to Bella who nodded her head.

“Because I love him!” bella answered while holding both hands.

“Where do you know you love him?” ask Sarah again.

 

“Because when he touched me, when he was with me, I felt love! I felt a different feeling that I felt when I was together with another man.” replied Bella honestly.

“But he's already hurt you, Bella. Don't you remember all that?” ask Sarah.

“Ya. That's because I don't know why she left after I gave birth to Alex! He made me part with my son, and I was so depressed that I thought my son was dead. But now I know the reason, Sarah.”

 

Then Bella stopped talking and looked at Sarah, “Now I don't bother about it anymore after I see all and I understand everything.”

“Bella!”

“Sorry Sarah, but your condition is different from mine. I'm asking you to rethink your feelings for her. You're sixteen, your life is long. I beg of you to give me a few years to think. Maybe as time goes by you grow older and your feelings are gone too.”

 

“But Bella...” Sarah's starting to fret, she doesn't know what to say to Bella.

“I know your dream Sarah. You have a dream of becoming a writer, right? You want to be a great journalist. Your path is still long, your age is young.” Bella tries to change her sister's mind into the days before she gets to know Barack.

 

“But Bella...” Sarah's heart still rejects everything her sister says. ‘I used to want all that but now my biggest wish is to be with Barack. I want to be by his side every night, I want to wake up early in his arms just as I sleep and wake up by his side when we are in the woods. I want to enjoy my days with him and eat with him. Was it wrong of me to think so?