Serra(Bloodless Wound)
SERRA
...There is always a rainbow after the rain...
...Sometimes it is not visible in the vision...
...There is always something behind the crying...
...Although often the wound that accompanies...
...🌹🌹🌹...
The fourth day of my strike still continues, but today it has been very bored . Maybe because I'm used to joking and chatting with my friends makes this bored coming to welcome.
" Rat, how's the forum going when I'm off?"
" Ordinary Ser, not much change. But yes that's a little quiet because no one draws the chatter"
" Where are the others going? not all on stay, is it?"
" Lala off, Dinda on but intermittently because there is a rush. If the Yanti can find a show she hahaha"
" In asem you are haha, but seriously not yet run it a saltfish drama?"
" No, it continues. He's active in the forum that you're holding Ser"
" yeakah? this is why he likes it so much" Cuekku
" Well how?"
" it's your title Rat, so the destroyer. He doesn't want to be called an actor, does he, but between two people, what's his name? intruder or destroyer? isn't it the same?"
" Haha gosh tumben like this you Ser, usually just the same seeds of caterpillars featherðŸ¤"
" Ish🤧, diem diem Rat. But if the friend himself who ngaduh this can again be called a friend"
" Yes too, don't know what your heart feels like Ser. Can't imagine me."
" Have I wanted to have fun now Rat, males has taken care of caterpillars with hahaah😂 revolution"
" Hahah, right let's have fun now"
Ratih followed somplak like him, but did not blur his behavior made me laugh. I don't know what to do after this. To be honest my heart is still linked to Rama, it's really hard to let go of everything.
" Eh Ser, how are you still going on strike today?"
"Somewhat Rat, I want to be active again as usual. Maybe the hours I cut back on, I won't be as active as yesterday's"
" you mean? you'll often off so?"
" Yes Rat, before I go" I said steadily.
To be honest I have decided to get out of the board, my brain is really no longer able to hold everything.
" gone? don't tell me you want to resign Ser?"
" That's my plan, Rat, I want to step back and maybe go away"
" You are crazy Ser, not just because Rama and Yanti you threw away everything you got with your hard work all along"
" Everything is pointless Rat, not an achievement to be proud of. I was just a pawn that would no longer be used when my brain was no longer triggering the idea. And now I've made my brain stop thinking about heavy things"
Huuft, Ratih sighed heavily, he knows how I am. The stubbornness I have will not work with just persuasion.
After some time chatting with Ratih, I finally tried to open and enter the forum. Although still lazy to join, I only listen to what the members are talking about.
Four days not in the forum it turns out the number of chats I can no longer follow.
" Jeez what the hell are they obrolin up to this much" muttered me while deleting the number of chat in the forum alternately
When I arrived at the forum held by Rama I stopped the delete event, suddenly I was curious about the story of Ratih earlier about the drama of salted fish.
I opened the forum and entered, saw a lot of chat and of course I can no longer follow it. At first I only found them playing a guessing game. Pretty interesting.
Turning to the forum I hold, many members are joking there. I smiled at them, but I was still reluctant to join.
" Ser, Lue on the forum not today?" Chat by Nadya
" To Rama's forum, see him again vent"
I re-entered the forum that Rama was holding, it was true that he was there joking.
" Hey, you are you"
" You said you miss"
" Believe me to this day you are still the owner of this heart"
" it's just you"
Chat Rama that he threw in the forum was greeted by cheers from the members.
" Ser, who's that for? for you or who?" Nadya called me back with all her silence.
" Tau, ask" I replied
" Is you not fun Ser" I just smiled reading his reply, which I believe he would never know.
***Of course I know who the chat is for and what it means, because a while ago we were texting each other. I honestly say I miss him. Our fight shouldn't have happened. And everything he curses is in the message he sent me.
Happy me? of course I admit it, but there's a lot of pain in my happiness right now. I don't want to get hurt anymore. It may be true that I love him, it is also true that if I love him but it hurts from not being trusted it makes me cramped***.
I went back to listening to all his curses, smiling faintly as my heart warmed up again.
" So we're better now?"
" So this is how it came? I want to keep you in there longer lo"
" It's not possible, I miss you"
Messages burst into my private chat, who else would have done it if not Rama
" Continue, how do you want? further quarrel?" My reply
" All your longing words always leave me helpless, holding back the curiosity to meet. Believe me I miss you too I will go home, release all the hidden longings"(Audio kangen song from the god Rama sings)
" I don't know where you are, I feel empty without you, if there you miss me. Like me who always misses you, always misses you." (Second audio of Ari Lasso's hollow song)
And there were three more audios he sent, all of them songs upset. Should I be happy now, my Rama is back. But is it that fast that my pain is treated?
" Don't you understand now? all the songs are upset and only you can make me so"
I chose not to return the message, I was confused and doubtful of everything I had decided before. Rama could really turn my heart back so quickly.
" Ser, Lue's fine, right?" Another silly question Nadya threw at me
" Of course I'm good, what's wrong?"
" You're still listening to the diphorum, right? Rama was singing but the song was sad all he was upset about?"
" Where do I know Nad, why don't you just ask him to be clear" I murmured, my feelings were chaotic now between letting go and getting back in touch.
" You built him, who knows why he's so"
I again chose not to respond to Nadya's remarks. I was immersed in my own thoughts. All the questions came back without any excuse in my mind, making me doubt my own decision again
Do I still miss him?
Do I still love him?
"Can I stay away from him now?
And the answer is contrary to the diligence I have made before. Lucky I haven't expressed my intentions for the fakum of all forums.
It was the third time we broke up, but it turned out that the feeling was still too strong to hold my heart
TO BE CONTINUE
☆ Has passed some time, so many have forgotten the past events
