Serra(Bloodless Wound)
SERRA
...There are many words that can never be said...
...There are some meanings that cannot be interpreted...
...But there are many longings that cannot be explained...
...And it's...
...Painful...
...🌹🌹🌹🌹...
" Ser, have you heard the latest news?" Train approached me this afternoon
" About?" I looked up
" Ehmm" Ratih only fell silent in doubt as soon as he looked in his eyes
Kinggo
Guess what news he brought today. I no longer want to be the one pretending to be stupid and not knowing anything. I've been living an attitude for a long time that wasn't my real attitude
" If it's about Rama and Yanti I already know Rat" I said slowly
" Ha, seriously you know? how can?" Ratih looked at me whether it was astonishment or wonder, whether it was a mockery.
" You forgot my habit yes, I'm a professional observer haha" I laughed even though my heart ached
No one knows, right? if last night there had been a great quarrel between me and Rama.
The result is predictable, He blames me.Yes in all things I and my decisions are always wrong without any one being right.
Sometimes I ask what I mean, I want to rebel but I know I will not be able to do it because my love that does not diminish in the slightest must have a lot of wounds that scratched.
You are a fool
Those are the words that Al always say when I run into trouble.
I smiled bitterly
" I've only realized for a few days that they look close, but I don't want to interpret their closeness like what?"
" That's nothing to discuss, I swear I'm lazy Rat. Didn't you see Yanti's drama on some forums? it's laughable!"
I don't want to be angry but I don't know, I'm lying if hate doesn't come into my heart. No hypocrite I admit it I hate him
For me no friend can betray his own friend, play even do disgusting ways
Manipulate the situation and he succeeds because Rama believes him. It's true said Bang Al I was too "Stupid" all along
I forget there is a saying that often says
" Which cat can resist hunger when he sees a salty fish before his eyes"
I smile back!!
" Rat, is there no show this afternoon?" I switched the conversation
I swear to you !!let alone remembering the words of Rama last night that pierced deep in my heart.
The person I love defends others better, isn't it?
" Once in the afternoon, I don't think anything. Why is Ser?"
" Help me yes, in a few days I want to off first Rat. I want to freshen up, brainwash my already shortened to get back clean"
" Where are you going?"
" Where is important to be happy" I smiled bitterly again
" Ok, I'll work on it later. What's the event on the forum?"
" There is no special event anyway, it is still the same as the last weeks, there is only one member wants a birthday. I haven't confirmed it yet, so please Rat you handle everything."
" Okay, you know for yourself. Lately I've been lazy to join the forum."
I looked at Ratih Instens, I knew him well. There must be some reason that makes him lazy.
" I was sick and had to rest, reduce the radiation as well." Speak fast
I know it's just an excuse, about the pain I already know that. However it happened long before he became rarely present in the phylum.
" I didn't ask you to stanbay for twenty-four hours as well Rat"
I won't interfere in personal matters that he doesn't want to share, it's very noticeable he covers a lot of things
Train nodded
Still ringing in the mind of all these words and expressions. It hurts!! sure is.
More painful than betrayal, you know why?. In my principle, betrayal is the final process of a lack of satisfaction with something we have and want to get more from others without letting go of what already exists.
But unbelief becomes a problem in itself, just try to think if all the disbelief is aimed at you how does it feel? the people who do it are the ones who are always with us.
I've decided to go on vacation in the next few days, to be honest my brain and mind need a new atmosphere.
Let's just say the third break up is a lesson for us, if we can still be together then we will be together.
...🌹🌹🌹🌹...
" Nad, the other day Risky called me no?"
" Ckck you yes, greetings cake what is the news or what is the first trite base Ser, this is very direct nanyain Risky" Nadya Sulang replied to my chat
" Ckck bosen ah base stale mingu, mending directly kelar not long-winded"
" Heleh, I'm fricking grandma again"
I just smiled without responding
" If any of his nanya are answered, not really polite?"
" Iye, he called me with a new number. He said lue couldn't be"
" Yup my phone's dead"
" Napa's cellphone lue, got a virus"
" What virus? I've been on the cellphone for a few days. So don't be lazy by the chat I wkwk"
" Tumbenan Ser, in this history, I have only heard lue matiin cellphone for days. I'm fine, right?"
" My health, all is good. Don't worry" I fell silent before continuing my chat
" Risky said something not the same lue Nad? maybe there's a story that's why he called me" I continued
" Kangen ama lue, he said it's been a long time since it's been horrified lue ngomel so kangen"
" It's your sompret" I laughed at my friends' absurd behavior
" The number he changed is new, the old one cannot be said" Nad continued
" Why don't you give me the new number?"
" Au, let you be curious Ser"
" Aish don't, tell him. Otherwise contact don't expect me to call later😝"
" In sotoy, how would you call him, Lue's just a number he doesn't have"
" That's one hundred for Lue Nad"
Our laughter broke out.
It's the third day already after our quarrel, I haven't even opened access to the forum. Really don't go in for a while.
I only reply to WhatsApp messages, but of course certain messages I open.
I still don't think I can be blamed for everything that happened. It's great my friend's tongue turned the facts upside down and I was fooled all along.
After being satisfied with joking with Nad, I turned off my cellphone again. It still feels very lazy
...🌹🌹🌹...
...I told you, pain is not just about betrayal...
...However, pain can also be doubted...
...Please ask your own heart, how does it feel to be an untrusted person again?...
...Ever thought about being in that position in the end?...
Believe me there are many flavors in a wrapped word
......"***LOVE"......
TO BE CONTINUOUS***
