Serra(Bloodless Wound)

Serra

The management of the Bang Al forum changed hands, I was surprised by the decision. So here I am now, both in the corner enjoying music while telling stories.

" Bang, why are you backing down too? is there a problem until you make that big decision?"

" No, Bang tired Ser. I want to rest my mind first"

" Really Bang, there's nothing, right?"

Bang Al just nodded with a smile.

" You alone, what's your excuse?"

" Time, my time is narrowing. I was no longer able to manage my time, there was too much I had to take care of"

" How are you working? smoothly?"

Uh, what is this? don't tell me your brother knows the business I'm starting right now.

" Ehmm, what effort is Bang?"

" Bang knows all Ser, no need to lie anymore. How good is it, right?" Deuteronomy

Hadeh actually he knows it.

" It's still not Bang, the name is also pioneering right."

" It has to be extra patience, but Bang is sure you can."

" Hehe, thank you very much for your support"

" Don't forget brother ya" Pintanya nyeleneh

" Where did Bang go"

"You close the old sheet, you want to organize your life first before returning later" In the sip of cigarettes until the smoke billows.

" Meaning? you're kidding me, aren't you?"

" Serious bang, ten days to go."

" In anything brother, kidding is not funny"

" Seriously, that's why you quit all the activities you're participating in."

" Emang Bang where are you going? if for example this is yes, Brother there is no plan or purpose for what Bang. Sure it's just a waste of time."

" But Brother also needs time to be alone Ser, if brother continues to be here, there is a brother always remembered the problem again. Brother needs a new atmosphere to refresh this brother's frozen brain."

" me? how's bang?" Show me to myself

I honestly don't like the situation like this.

" You have to be independent Serra, brother can't always be there for you right?"

Huuft

" Last week bang Jay, two days ago Bang Fa. Now Bang Al also wants to leave me so🤧?"

" Eleh is sulking like a little boy, not funny."

" Lah, who can sulk just a boy like that bang? Serra can also be times."

" No pantes you're sulking, not funny."

Bang Al smiled, the more I was sprained, instead of undoing his intentions that there was even menggeledekin me.

" There's still Greyy, Jo. They still stay, and there's your guy. What else are you worried about?"

" It's still incomplete"

" Sister soon, I promise to come back and accompany you."

" The most lies, as it has been. Bang Artha left right, said he wanted to go back nengokin Serra. It actually says."

Bang Al breathed out softly, I knew he was thinking about a lot of things. But I also don't want to be left behind, they're my favorite brothers. Only those who can advise me on things, can protect me if there is a problem.

With them I can take all my burdens off, with them I can cry and laugh.

I can't imagine what I would be without them, where I would complain.

Screwed !!

Chaotic, very messed up my mind, I'm even confused as to how tomorrow. It's funny, I feel like I'm missing something, if what I used to have with me is no longer visible.

" Ser, sorry brother. This time it really takes time to be alone. You have to dive into your heart and yourself first."

" How will your brother accompany you? if you yourself are not calm. I hope Serra is more patient and stronger."

I looked down, there was not much I could say. Disappointed? I am sure, but I cannot be selfish either. It's true that bang Al said, I need to be more independent and strong.

" Cry, you know you want to cry. Don't hold it."

Break it!!

My cry broke in front of bang Al, the thing I had been avoiding. Looks weak in front of anyone, I don't want to.

" One more message, brother, do not show your true self to others. Until you're sure it's the best."

I looked up not to understand, my authenticity. Nature or what?

" Make yourself a stranger but close, don't let others read your heart."

I nodded in understanding, just think of it as a fortress for myself.

Like people wearing masks, we do drama.

" Be honest and what you are, never change. Just do not let people know your heart, remain a strong Serra, strong and tough. Serra who is known to be firm and also fierce."

" Bang, if Serra kangen still can Serra call brother?"

" May but later when you have already told me the same news, because after this brother will replace all numbers and all accounts sosmed brother. Everything's gonna close."

" Haa, everything bang? brother intends to disappear from everyone?"

Bang Al nodded

" So my brother said, if you want to close all your past. I want to open another sheet."

I exhaled heavily, honestly I disagree with the move Bang Al took. But I also can't do anything else to prevent it, especially about the Heart

At 11 pm I finally finished my association, maybe a little later than my promise to Rama.

I sent him a message earlier, just to let him know that there are additional events that are not on the agenda.

Rama himself now tends to be more open to me, everything we tell each other. I am so grateful for all the changes.

For Selvia, I only got word that she had left the forum.

No one knows the hardness of my heart because of my brothers, Ramaku is no exception. I didn't tell Rama about them, I didn't want to. But rather I avoided him from anything that could spark a debate between us.

What about Rony? ever since Lala asked me to stay away from her, I've kept my distance. We don't call each other anymore, but I know he's okay.

Right now my focus is only two, Ramaku and RK.

Funny right? all my achievements come off slowly for what I consider important in my heart. I really did what Bang Al ordered me to do. Being me but the face of others.

My nature, my pride is still my true self, but people will no longer know what I really am. I began to close myself to all personal affairs, limiting myself to getting along and blending in. All they know is that Serra is fierce and powerful, but I've had a stupid time with all that.

TO BE CONTINUE

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The face can smile sweetly but whose heart knows if it is crying.

My joy, my laughter and my wounds only I know.

My dear brothers, thank you for still faithfully giving me advice to this day.

No matter where you are, you are still in this heart.

I Missed You🤕