Serra(Bloodless Wound)
SERRA
Loving is a wound but many do. Love is suffering, is there an endless inner suffering, is it true? real but silly question. Too much suffering but still trying to survive in the dilemma stage, is that what is called love? certainly not because it is part of the inner torture itself.
Walking through time sometimes I ask, why am I being left out? the love? stepkah? how much do I love her? how much do I love him ? but his love for me is only wishful thinking. Baby love everything I can feel but betrayal is more painful.
Repeatedly saying sorry and promising not to repeat but the promise was pseudo. Is your love growing? really I'm not sure about that.
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RONIES
" Yank later tonight I have activities distudio want to come along?"
" Where can it be, later tonight at the student apple hour(lost the night) If I come with you how is Yank here?" (Serra)
" Why do you always clash Yank?"( Ronny)
" Where do I know, don't be sad. Believe that my spirit is with you." (Serra)
" Dear you Yank" (Roni)
I smiled in response to Ron's words, sometimes my heart warms. The treatment is very gentle and I feel appreciated for it.
Never once a harsh word came out of his mouth, no blasphemy no reproach there is only laughter .
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" Yan hunted Lue looked at WhatsAap." (Madz)
" What the hell is Nad, I've been busy."
" Dih Serih opened the important spit times." (Madz)
" Yes, napa, be patient."
It must be about Rama again, honestly I'm tired of receiving reports and ouch'an about Rama's ignorance out there. Not because I don't believe the news or because I trust Rama too much but more to my heart. My heart was very uncomfortable after getting the report, sick without being able to be treated or ignored because even though we hide the pain was clearly felt.
" Yuft."
True my guess this time with who else Rama ngegombal. There are four pictures of the screenshots that I received containing typing chat Rama for Tri, uh I did not misread the real Tri. Huft a little pushy my heart read it even though the words are not very good for the heart but I know the habits of Tri " Tri i miss you, tri lope lope, tri kangen mojok yuk."
Aish as awkward as the word in the report sliced the heart, although joking but the word is not appropriate for everyone to express without looking at the situation. But that's Ramaku, who is always angry if someone says love to me and a little lingering familiar conversation surely Rama will reprimand and be angry with me. But he himself?
" Lue still holds Ser strong?" (Madz)
" Defend for what?" I pretended to be a bego and dulled my brain to no longer be able to think clearly and quickly.
" Mala duldul now You Ser, your love is too blind to know until your wounded heart never again you feel and care. Love yourself Ser, go away before it's too late." (Madz)
" Lue knows Tri is what Nad is? when do you believe Rama will actually be like him?."
" Di's not Tri's problem Ser but your legs are too basket-eye."(( Nadja)
" It doesn't have to be extended, again the fashion males think I'm Nad."
" Just keep Lue avoiding Ser's reality, remember your pain will be fatal for RK's progress." (Madz)
" Then help me to keep my mood from getting too distorted."
Good thing I love Lur Ser, Lue's the best friend I've ever had. Lue must be happy Ser, all this time Lue cares about the same happiness of friends around Lue but Lue is always indifferent to Lue himself. (Madz)
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RONIES
" Yank my name is changing again, god like a fugitive you're a hoby gonta changing names." My reprimand tonight is because Roni is doing it again.
Tonight Roni is having a small event, she is participating in a friend's birthday. Unfortunately Roni uses a very bad name in my opinion "Punguk" .
" Let's just let no one know me Yank, males I make a fuss about it later." Ronny
" I mean isn't there a better name than that?"
Roni changed the look of his face to be sad, aih very clever He dramatized the situation.
" What is Yank's name for?."
" SERRA FOREVER LOVE" she replied excitedly.
" Dead dong, jeez, you can fight Rama Yank if you use that name." My protest
" So don't wear it 'cause I'm thinking of you Yank, I don't want you in trouble later." (Rone)
" But even the name that I don't like right now, change dong Yank. That's cool."
" You make a name for me Yank, whatever it is you make me wear." (Rone)
" What's so good? slow down or slow down?."
" Deal I like Yank." (Rone)
" Eh play in the deal, I haven't run."
" That's all good, I like Yank." (Rone)
" It's up to you if so, later if you don't like to change. Just so I mentioned it just now."
" It's okay I like it." (Rone)
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Asking at night about the true meaning of love but still all without direction and definite directions, Sometimes I myself am confused how to deal with my race which is quite complicated. He's the main one but there's something that's arguably more important (you know what I mean Rama).
Confusion and anxiety make my heart and soul turbulent, wanting to fight time and defy destiny but there is something I must defend.
" Ser, are you okay?" ( Coach)
" Why ask so Rat, there are important things you want to undo?."
" Well, here's a report for you about Wulan's writing." ( Coach)
" Wulans? which one is this? don't tell Wulan my old friend Rat!!."
" Sadly, he's Ser." ( Coach)
" Athaghfirullah what else is this Rat? what's the matter, he's not doing anymore, is he?."
" A drama like the one next door starts to be played again like Ser." ( Coach)
" Bentar Rat, complete clarity I still can't draw conclusions or outline what you're reporting."
" I sent you some pictures observe something changes not from him and also look at the words in one of those pictures." (Patience )
There are four photos that go into my handphone, I look carefully at each photo sheet. All Wulan membership photos but the printed name change. Each member in RK is provided with personal data that can be changed according to the wishes of the students themselves. And that identity can be used in other forums and faculties within the scope of RK
In the first photo Wulan uses the symbol commonly used by Rama, as well as in the second photo but the third photo of Wulan adds the word Mrs in addition to the symbol .
Most make me swallow a rough saliva there is a fourth photo that contains clear writing Wulan who said He again waiting for the bebebebnya come that Mr. R. Is that ramakah ?
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☆ ***Don't say love is stupid but say love is a challenge.
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