
POVS. Danu Narendra's
"Ayuna, have I got permission?"
I whispered, bringing this face closer to her. Focusing my eyes on one spot. The point that has been my target spot ever since. The point that kept provoking my courage.
I can't wait for his permission. Until tomorrow, I'm sure Yuna won't say a word about the permission I asked for.
Until I ventured, touching my forehead with his forehead. Slowly, I inhaled a deep fragrance from his body. So intoxicating. Even this scent makes me opiate.
Not only that, it seems like our hearts are also in a fight. Until we can feel each other.
Really, I don't want to end it.
Can I do more??
Again, I tried to ask permission, "Yuna, can I......."
I haven't had time to finish this speech, I saw his eyes immediately closed. Does this mean he's allowed me to do more of the things I've wanted to do?
One, one,
Two, two,
Three, three,
Three seconds, I can't wait.
Can't wait, until I'm brave enough to put our lips together.
The cup!
I kissed him gently, while inhaling the fragrance of his body with a deep that is so alluring and very intoxicating.
The deeper I feel the softness of her outer lips, the greater my race to dive more. Making my eyes too closed, even though I only do a thin touch.
I feel, it's not enough to just get here.
Oh, Ayuna.
You really make me opiate.
I just wanted to start. Starting to dive deeper into the pleasure that I just felt, this must be delayed.
Ayuna suddenly pushed my chest with both hands, until my body shifted slightly backwards.
"And you......"
His breath was stinged, until his shoulders and chest were seen moving slightly up and down.
"Andu, no...." Ayuna shook her head a few times.
I could only look at him disappointed, turning my gaze the other way. Dare not look at those sparkling eyes. Because of those eyes, I can be immediately tempted back.
My faith is weak, especially if it is close to him.
Sh-g- shit!
Shouldn't I have done this? And now, I finally don't want to end it.
My legs are weak, I can no longer move forward. My soul was struggling to get close to him again.
Continue or finish?? I still doubt.
My breath and his breath were hunting, but it seemed like my and her desires were different.
I want to do more, while Ayuna just wants enough to get here.
Should I force? Being selfish just for my satisfaction? It doesn't seem to be my nature.
"And, what we're doing is wrong!!" Ayuna began to speak, with teary eyes.
Why should he say this. I can't even think what to say.
I looked back at her, taking away a moment of my disappointment, "Yuna, I......"
I took a deep breath, trying to rethink what I had to say, without offending her who seemed sensitive at the moment.
"Me, I'm sorry!"
Yeah, I think it's better to say sorry. Throwing away my selfishness, my disappointment, my desire, for her sake. I did everything to make him calmer first.
But Ayuna turned her face, walking towards the dining table until her position was behind me.
"Sorry, I can't control myself. I'm sorry, I've done something that you think is wrong...."
In fact, I like what I do. If you knew, Yuna. I don't want to end it.
I stepped forward, until I stood close to him who was now behind me.
"And you, why am I the only one who thinks this is wrong?" Ayuna asked, with her voice now sounding a little raucous.
Questions that drain my brain and energy. I couldn't think more clearly either.
"Yuna, what I did was....."
"Not just that, but in Bogor, in the hospital, even in the office!!"
The deg!
It turned out that Ayuna remembered everything. Remembering all the touches I ever made to her. A touch that I initially unintended, but now it traps me into it without being able to get back out.
I want it again and again.
"Andu, please enough! Because all this was wrong from the start!"
His words seemed to prevent me. Makes my guts squint a little. I was sure we had the same taste, the same purpose and the same heart.
"I never felt this was wrong. Even from the beginning, Yuna!"
Yuna turned around, looking at me in silence, "but this is wrong!"
"Why do you think that?? I feel like we have the same feeling, Yuna!"
His eyes blinked several times, even he was seen taking long breaths repeatedly.
"And sometimes what you think is not true."
"Not everything you feel right now is real."
"Just like how I feel....."
"Do you think I'm numb, Yuna??"
"So, you think I'm a human being who can't handle other people's feelings??"
Ayuna bowed, biting her lips. Angers me.
Looking at her guts, I knew that Ayuna this time was just dodging. Maybe something else was in his consideration.
I know, if she's not a random woman. It's impossible to say this without a reason.
"Yuna," I grabbed her hand gently.
"Don't cover up what I already know, it's free."
I looked at his face that was still down, "I realized what I was doing, I mean....."
"First in Bogor, keep the hospital and office, it's just wrong!" I said nervously, recalling some of the touches I had done before.
"But, for my feelings this is never wrong, Ayuna!" My neighbor again. Convinced. Wishing he wouldn't falter again, let alone avoid me.
"If you have the same feelings as me, don't shut it down......"
"And you, I'm a widow!"
The deg!
My heart stopped, hearing his words. Apparently, I just realized that Ayuna's status is not the same as mine who actually never married.
But I'm a little relieved. Because he's been honest and he's been confessing to me all along.
"I know" I replied firmly.
Still looking at him deeply, looking at every corner of his face, without switching one bit.
The test!
Her tears also fell. Flows her smooth face. Even though he had tried to wipe it, the clear water flowed back.
I clasped his hand even more tightly, pulling him into my arms, until the sound of crying now began to be heard.
"Don't be held back" I said softly, stroking her hair slowly.
"If you want to cry, cry," I continued again.
"If you hold on, your heart will not be relieved!"
After my words, Ayuna's roar sounded even louder. Until the wet taste penetrated the clothes on my chest that became the support of his head. Wet with tears flowing non-stop.
A few minutes, we are still in the same position. It turned out that this kind of position made me even more eager to protect her. Even a sense of disappointment because of the rejection earlier can be a little lost. But still I can't forget.
After not hearing the sedu sedu again, I started talking.
"Well crying?" I whispered a little in his ear.
Ayuna raised her head that had been sinking in my chest, looking up, until our gazes met again.
Seeing it like this, I really couldn't. Not that it looks ugly because of crying, puffy eyes and reddened face that even more teasing me.
"And you better go home" Ayuna released her body from my arms.
But I am not satisfied with holding it. Why did he want to get away from me so quickly?
Ayuna rubbed her face, even several times heard to hold tightness in her chest due to crying.
"If I don't want to go home, what?"
It's not that easy to throw me out, it's only nine o'clock at night. My house and my house are not far away. Just a few steps away.
Ayuna rolled her eyes, "it's a shame, it's not good that men have been around for a long time in the widow's house!"
"Why are you being pessimistic??" I looked at him in wonder. His words just now seemed not to come out of the mouth of an Ayuna.
I pulled his hand, until his body staggered back into my arms.
"Don't bring status! Because my feelings for you remain the same!" I said, intending to wake her up.
Ayuna seemed to rebel, wanting to break away from me. But this time, I had to force it. If I let it go, maybe I can't get it anymore.
"Don't move!" My orders.
"I want us to continue like gini" I whispered in his ear, caressing and inhaling in the fragrant scent of his hair.
"Yuna, you really made me......"
I loosened my arms, holding both sides of his shoulders. I looked at him deeply, and took a deep breath repeatedly.
"I'm sorry, Yuna....."
The cup!
I got back to that spot that drew my courage. Smoothed it slowly, full of gentleness, with a shattering and evocative feeling.
Kuselami her ranum lips are so tempting, to the bottom. I brought him with me to continue to wade through the beautiful deep sea. My touch was welcomed by him. Until our lips are together.
"Don....."
He returned my touch, filled with the fiery turmoil. Until this hand can not stand still, clutching the back of the shoulder, another one began to guerrilla looking for a spot that I can navigate.
After feeling how nice his lips were, it turned out that I wanted another part of him.
We feel we are out of breath. Until we let each other go. This opportunity I used to ask her permission to return with one hand that was already holding her stomach.
With a burning breath, a racing heart, eyes that want satisfaction, "Yuna, can I??"
Yuna looked at me deeply, where was her heartbeat the same as mine, "a-pa??" Ask with hunting breath.
I move my finger, shift it from the abdomen to the top where it is, "this, what can it be?" ask me with a slow touch and still vague.
Because if he won't, then I won't touch him.
Ayuna closed her eyes, nodding her head slowly. It made me smile with satisfaction. I don't want to waste this opportunity. I'll do it as best I can.
I started moving my fingers, even from the outside but I was sure this touch could penetrate his black shirt.
Really, this is the first time I've touched that part, to the point of making me anxious.
"Yuna....."