Patience of My Husband

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"Honey, where are you from" asked Arka when she saw me closing the door.

"Here, there was a room boy delivering clothes" I showed him the clothes package I put next to the door.

"Put it there. Let me lift later" said Arka.

"Yes" I left the clothes that were still wrapped in plastic neatly and then I sat on the sofa.

"Darling .. I ask you. Don't leave the room without me huh" Arka said as she put up her tie.

"Why?"

"I don't want you to see your ex again. I'm sure he's still here"

"Please, I'm not going out of the room. Because I also do not want to meet him" My words are simple but able to make a smile of calm on the lips Arka.

"Yes, that's it. I'm going to work first. At lunchtime, I'll come home to bring you food, we'll eat together here huh"

"Yes"

I kissed the back of Arka's hand as she said goodbye and the reply was a kiss on her forehead as usual.

After Arka left for work, a sense of loneliness began to make me restless and misbehavior. Confused what I would do. Eat, but still lazy. But Arka had prepared breakfast and milk. I grabbed the TV remote lying on the table in front of me.

No good show in my opinion. Really boring. Sleeping but impossible because it is not sleepy. Want out but suck with Arka's message. I don't want to see Farhan anymore either. But I still wonder why Farhan still wears our engagement ring. Even though I had thrown it away.

Why did I think of Farhan, the man who really hurt me.

I tried to contact Arka, who knows she's not doing much work. So I can talk to him even if it's just for a little while. But until the tone of the call runs out, not also lifted by Arka. I repeat again until three calls, but the result is the same.

It felt like being angry, crying, even I also wanted to throw all the items in front of me. 'really annoying...' Gertutuku alone. I squeezed my hair with annoyance. It's too much to just pick up the phone Arka doesn't want.

I threw my body on the bed throwing pillows and bolsters beside me, even innocent blankets were targeted. I pulled the end and threw it on the floor. My body rolled to the left, I bent my knees so that my body curled up like a cold person. But that's not the reason. Not until there. I kept crying and my mouth didn't stop messing around with words of annoyance. I do it between conscious and unconscious. Until finally I fell asleep by myself maybe exhausted from being crazy.

I don't know how long I slept. Until I felt like someone was hugging me and kissing the top of my head. The comfort I felt from his embrace. But not long after that I realized my frustration.

I opened my eyes slowly and after my eyes were perfectly opened I saw the handsome face of Arka who was so calm before my eyes, even so close.

"Why you, baby?" Ask Arka Iirih who realized I had woken up from my sleep.

I pushed his chest away from me but my strength wasn't strong enough to do it. Precisely Arka increasingly tightened her embrace.

"Dear you why? Are you mad because I didn't answer your phone call?" Ask Arka again. With my mouth still silent my hands continued to push him.

"Darling, answer me. Is that why you're angry. I'm sorry, but I was in a meeting so I couldn't answer your phone. I'm sorry" Arka peed my forehead many times.

"You're so mean to me" My sobs broke again as I said it.

"Darling, I ask you to understand this work. Don't just with trivial problems make you like this. I know you're having a hard time alone. And I'm sorry I can't always take care of you and also not be there when you need to. You should know out there I don't stop thinking about you. At work my mind always leads to you. I can't focus on my work. I'm afraid anything will happen to you as long as I don't exist. You should also know, why am I still bringing my work home? It's because I'm calmer if I do my job here, next to you." Arka explained everything to me. I don't feel my tears dripping at the end of my eyes.

"I'm sorry, I was wrong. I can't understand your situation. I can only trouble you." I said softly and my hands tightly hugged his stout body.

Arka nodded and wiped the tears that were dripping from the corner of my eyes. "Don't do this again. And don't cry anymore, I don't want to see you sad" Arka said.

I buried my face in his chest still wrapped in a work shirt. While Arka's lips continue to stick to my forehead. We hugged each other. No more sounds came out of our mouths of silence.

kruunkk..

The sound made our eyes look at each other and then chuckle. "Aren't you hungry?" Arka. The sound came from my stomach. It's possible that the worms in my stomach are holding a hunger protest. Because I haven't had breakfast this morning.

"Yes I'm hungry, I haven't eaten at all." I said while grimacing.

"He ate first. Poor papa's son has not eaten. Hungry, baby?" Arka rubbed the surface of my stomach.

Arka put away my breakfast that was still at the table. Then prepare lunch. "You eat first, baby, I'll call Monica first. Just a moment" I nodded with a smile.

As long as Arka spoke on the phone I devoured my food quickly. My hunger is unbearable.

"Aren't you eating?" Ask her.

"You know, watching you eat like this makes me so happy" Arka said.

"It's because of hunger."

"Hungry because of the war practice" Ledek Arka. I could only snort angrily as Arka insinuated my madness.

"How can you not eat?" I asked again because I had not received an answer.

"Later on, I'm not hungry. I want to rest first" replied Arka.

"Aren't you back at the office?"

"No"

"Have the job finished?" Ask me again

"Not yet, but this afternoon there was no meeting so I could relax a little. Just checking the report. I asked Monika to be sent via email. Let it work here."

"Eat first if so" I suggested.

"You eat, I want to take a shower because I want to rest for a while" Arka stood up and walked to the bathroom. While I was busy eating my food. I spent a serving of my luncbox. And end it by drinking a glass of water.

I left my food on the table without finishing it. I stood up to pick up a change of clothes for Arka. Just as I was picking up a shirt from the closet, Arka had just come out of the bathroom with just a white towel wrapped around her lower body.

"Darling, it's a change of clothes." I thrust out the boxer pants complete with panties and t-shirts in hers. Arka accepted it without saying a word. I felt strange with his attitude changing like never before.

I left him in the locker room with a lot of questions. I stood beside the glass window staring at the view outside which clearly visible various types of vehicles crowded the streets of Surabaya.

I heard Arka's footsteps coming out of the locker room. I turned to her, without seeing her Arka immediately spread her body and pulled the blanket over half her body.

I got into bed and lay down beside him. "Dear, what's wrong with you? your face looks so lethargic?" I asked slowly, looking into her closed eyes.

"Hmm, it's okay. I just want a break." Replied Arka without looking even reluctantly to open her eyes. Seeing his attitude like that I don't want to talk anymore. I just moved closer to Arka's body and hugged her. There was no reply to Arka's embrace. Maybe Arka is really tired and does not want to be disturbed.

I lowered my hand that was above his chest. Intend to get out of this bed. But just as my foot was coming down the bed Arka's hand grabbed my hand and made me turn towards her.

"Where are you going?" Ask Arka with slightly flushed eyes.

"I want to sit there" pointed me to the sofa by the glass wall.

"Here is it baby, accompany me to sleep" he said a little spoiled.

"But you ignored me" I answered.

"I'm sorry baby, I'm really tired." Arka Clear.

"Alright" I lifted my leg again and lay down beside Arka. This time one of Arka's hands became the focus of my head. And the other hand hugged my body. I don't want to stay silent. I put my hand on Arka's waist. We slept on our sides facing each other.

Arka looked at my face with her sad eyes. Like a lot of thoughts and a heavy burden.

"Darling, don't you want to tell me about your problem. I know I can't help you, but I want you to share that heavy burden with me so you don't feel burdened" I said softly.

"I don't have a problem, baby. Don't think about me. Think about your health and that of your child. I don't want our son to do anything. Now I want to go to sleep first let me rest" Arka said and closed her eyes after gently peeping my forehead.

I really want to know what happened to Arka in the office. If Arka won't tell me. I'll find out from the people around him. But the problem is I don't know Arka's coworkers. Should I ask papa, it's impossible. Papa can't possibly know the problem Arka is facing here. Then who??...

My brain kept thinking and I finally found the answer. Monika, yes Monika. I should ask him. After all, she is also a woman so that she can understand my current condition.

I looked at the calm face of Arka who looked asleep. Because her arms hugged me lightly on my arms. His breathing also sounded regular. I slowly rolled my body down the bed. I grabbed the phone I put on the bedside table. I found Monika's name on my contact list. But that name doesn't exist.

I took Arka's phone lying next to her laptop. I immediately sought Monika's contact because Arka's phone was unlocked. Immediately I copy Monika's contact to my mobile phone. And I started having private chats with him. At first I wanted to talk directly over the phone, but I was afraid Arka would hear it. For a few seconds to a few minutes there was no reply from Monika. But I remained faithful waiting for his return. Maybe Monika is very busy doing chores in the office. I sent back Monika's message, I asked Monika to come see me directly in the hotel room. That's also if he really isn't busy because I don't want to interfere with his work.