My Surgically Whipped

Just for me

Jihan threw her body on the living room sofa after coming home from Uminya Zahra's house, the annoyance in her heart was still burning, everything was spinning in her mind, for the words and deeds of Zahra.

Likewise with Adam, he was sitting not far from Jihan but a different sofa, Adam leaned his head behind the sofa while rubbing his hair, all the events today will definitely have a bad impact on Adam, Adam, moreover, Zahra had opened everything in front of reporters.

Adam was afraid even though Iya was just silent, but the fear was so felt, plus his whole body was sick from the blow from Faisal, let alone remember the words of Zahra who would send divorce papers for him.

Indeed, Adam was powerless to divorce from Zahra, even though there was Jihan on his side but Zahra was still number one in his heart, Zahra was the one who accompanied him from zero, how could Adam have separated from Zahra.

Seeing her exhausted husband like that made Jihan pity, with initiative Jihan stepped into the kitchen to take ice water to operate on Adam's wounds.

Jihan placed the basin filled with ice water on the table and sat down next to Adam. "Here mas. let me compress your wound first, after that just applied with ointment so as not to infection" said Jihan while pulling Adam's hand.

"Mak Zahra is absolutely outrageous, I didn't expect that he could do all this" said Jihan, breaking Adam's daydream.

Adam endured the pain when Jihan's soft hands pressed the towel she used to compress her face, making Adam occasionally complain with a wrinkled forehead.

"Look at the wife you've always been proud of, nothing more than the wife who incited the disgrace of her own husband."

Jihan's mouth could never be silent to say all the bad Zahra, resentment filled Jihan's heart, as if she saw that Zahra had made a big mistake, because for him a wife does not deserve to behave like that.

"It's our fault, if I hadn't accompanied you on medication, I would have seen Aisha one last time, none of this would have happened and Zahra would never have talked about separation." Adam said as he grimaced with pain.

Hearing Adam's words, Jihan threw the towel in her hand on the floor, but her husband's first wife was guilty, but why she was blamed by her husband, is it not appropriate to ask Adam to accompany him to seek treatment.

"You are my husband.. You should have accompanied me, especially if you accompanied me not for fun but for treatment, is it wrong? you've always attached great importance to Zahra.. Zahra.. and always Zahra, without ever seeing how I feel?"

Jihan was so fed up with her husband, after all that happened, her husband blamed her for a mistake he did not make, he only wanted a little attention from Adam, but now Adam blames her instead.

"I've said before, we're just treating here so I can monitor the development of Aisyah, but you are so stubborn and determined to seek treatment in Malaysia" said Adam no less sewot

"I also deserve your attention.mas, just a little, without always being a shadow of Zahra and Aisyah, now you see mas. earlier Zahra humiliated you, and also soon he will sue for divorce, he said, from there you can judge who is faithful to accompany you."

"That's not gonna happen, I'm never gonna divorce Zahra."

Adam was silent, he did not want to answer again that the words of Jihan that resulted in a quarrel between him and Jihan, had enough quarrel with Zahra earlier, he did not want to aggravate the situation so that it gets worse.

"If I don't retreat, just divorce me and go back with Zahra, let alone have my uterus in trouble so the possibility of having children is very difficult."

"Jihan..can't not discuss this now, now I'm saddened by Aisyah's passing, don't add to my problems into many." said Adam, staring at Jihan.

"As much as you are, I don't know what you want, I'm also tired of having to keep going, I see you as if you don't love me."

"If I don't love you, then I won't marry you, even if I marry you without Zahra's permission."

"It's up to you to tell me what, but obviously I don't see that love for me, you're healing your own wounds, I'm tired of taking a break." jihan said as he left Adam and went into his room.

Arriving in the room, Jihan immediately laid her body on the mattress, she danced long breaths and exhaled slowly, yes took a pillow over her head and covered her face with the pillow.

Jihan palpated her flat stomach, wanting Jihan to feel in her stomach the life of a baby, but after the treatment done by Jihan yesterday made Jihan's dream disappear instantly.

The possibility of Jihan getting pregnant is very small, yes afraid of not being able to give offspring to Adam as a replacement for Aisyah who has died, Jihan actually also feels guilty for the death of Aisyah without the presence of Adam beside her.

Jihan considers Aisyah also as her daughter, although Aisyah does not know that Jihan is her stepmother, she loves Aisyah and also wants to hear Aisyah call her mother, even when he saw Aisha Jihan's face felt guilty, especially after knowing that Aisyah was gone.

But Jihan did not accept the words of Zahra that humbled Adam in front of everyone, but Jihan could not lie about her happy feelings, when she heard the word Zahra that would claim Adam's divorce.

Jihan moved the pillow over her face as she continued to rub the belly of the queen, she looked up at the ceiling of her white room. "Oh Allah.I want a small and funny creature to grow in the womb." - Jehan in his heart.

Then Jihan tilted her body to the right, she looked at her wedding photo on display on the wall with a large size, she smiled at the picture of herself and Adam that looks so harmonious.

"Would I sin if I wanted Adam's dads to be completely mine, that's human, right?" Jihan said, staring at the photo.

"I want all of Adam's attention to be on me, just for me, hopefully Zahra's words are right, that she will be suing for Adam's divorce, I really can't wait for that." jihan said to himself in silence.