My Secret Love's

Bloodstains

Now Husna and Azzam had just retired from Gilang's room to go home leaving Gilang which was jag aby Gentala there.

“Gen, I want to go home. I need to move on with my life and catch up with me. I need to graduate with her so I can have a photo with her. At least for the last time and as a memory I have with her. Mr. Azzam is right if I can't have her as my wife and take a photo with her in bridal attire. At least I will have a photo with her wearing toga.” Said Gilang excitedly but tucked in a sense of sadness there.

“You sure will go home. Not that you haven't really recovered. Aunty and Uncle also asked me to keep you here. I don't want to betray them.” Gentala said.

“Ouh, let's not be so Gen. I'm sure you can lobby my mom and my dad. I want to go home now. Just take me to the apartment. I've been cured. Completely healed.” Tell Gilang to his cousin.

Gentala could only take a deep breath looking at the stubbornness of her cousin, “Alright. I'll take care of his administration first.” Gentala said and went out of the room. But as soon as he opened the door of Gilang's treatment room there were also those who were about to open the door from the outside.

“Gen!”

“Dita!”

Gentala and Andita said together to make the two people both speechless.

“Ee’ehh do you want to come in? Want to visit Gilang?” gentala asked after a few seconds they fell silent to each other.

Andita nodded, “Is she inside?” ask Andita.

Gentala nodded, “Hum, just come in. He's inside. I'm going out first. I picked up my cousin yes.” Gentala said with a smile on her face.

Andita also nodded again affirming Gentala's words. Then the two of them immediately focus on their respective goals. Gentala immediately headed for the administration room to take care of his cousin's return. While Andita she immediately entered the room Gilang with a smile and say hello first.

Gilang who was lying down and reading a message sent by some of his friends in the chat application with the green logo was immediately turned towards the entrance of his ward. He smiled at the arrival of Andita who indeed during her time in care here always came with food or fruit in her hands.

“Dita, come sit down!” said Gilang kindly welcomed his classmate and also Husna's friend.

Andita nodded then immediately sat on the chair that was on the side of Gilang bed, “Hum, you like her has improved quite well. It is no longer pale.” Andita.

She smiled, “You are right. I was happy because-” Gilang's words stopped and he chose to smile.

“Ah forget that. What did you bring today?” tanya Gilang switched the conversation and looked at the lunchbox brought by Andita.

Andita smiled even though she was curious about what made Gilang smile so happy. But he could only hide his curiosity within his heart. Dare not to ask further. He prefers to show the food he brings.

“This porridge from our campus restaurant canteen. I bought her to be here earlier. Hope you like her.” Said Andita while opening the box.

Gilang also straighten his body and fix his sitting position to enjoy the porridge that has been tempting just by smelling his scent alone, “Mau I bribe or want to eat alone?” tawar Andita's.

“Hum, I eat alone.” replied Gilang.

Andita nodded then immediately provided a spoon and gave it to Gilang. Gilang also received it and immediately ate the porridge with his voraciously because it turned out to be delicious. Not only the aroma, but the porridge also tasted very delicious on his tongue.

“Thank you Dita has brought this pureed selezat porridge for me.” Said Gilang after finishing that box of porridge.

Andita who heard the thank you from Gilang also smiled, “Sama-sama. I'm glad you liked it and spent it. Tomorrow if I come here again I'll bring it to you.” Said Andita then help get drinking water for Gilang.

Gilang who heard the answer from Andita was immediately shook his head, “Hum, no need.” Silang.

Andita who heard that was immediately the look of her happy face was suddenly sad. Gilang realized that.

“Eee’ehh I don't mean I don't want Dita just that I'm going home today. I was cured and did not need any more treatment so I decided to go home. You don't expect me to be sick continuously either.” Said Gilang explaining.

Even if he really had the real heart he did not need to explain anything like he did all this time to Kirana and Ratna who always sought attention to him even in their different ways. But she knew besides Kirana who showed her liking it directly on her then actually Ratna was also just as fond of her. But somehow currently faced with Andita, the girl who sometimes always argue with her and sometimes make her upset. He felt strange if he had to hurt the girl's heart and feelings.

“Hm, get well soon. With you healed we can finish the thesis together and pass together.” Andita said.

“Can I do it?” tanya Gilang lirih's. Suddenly the optimistic attitude he had was gone.

Andita who sedan tidied up the Gilang eating marks turned her head and nodded reassuringly, “You can do it. You're that's great. I'm sure you can catch up with you.” Andita said soft and soothing to make her calm and her spirit to graduate with the girl she loved was back open again.

“Thank you Dita.” Silang said sincerely thanking you.

“For what?” ask Andita.

“For all of them. You always come to see me here and always bring me fruit and food. You know I'm heartbroken but you came here and made me a little bit happy not to be lonely anymore. Even though Gentala has always been with me and looked after me all this time, I was lonely. I want to live with mami and papi but they are busy with their business until they forget to have me.” Gilang said it was unconsciously pouring out his outpouring of heart that he had been hiding from people and always tried to look okay in front of all his. To make the crowd admire her even though without them knowing that she is lonely because both her parents are busy and do not have time for her at all. Even when he was sick they could not go home and just asked Gentala to look after him. For just that she still had a cousin otherwise she would be completely lonely.

Andita who heard the expression of Gilang's heart was silent and also saddened to feel the sadness of Gilang. It turns out that a perfect person like Gilang who has many admirers on his campus both from his classmate and his underclassman turned out to save his own pain. Now he just realized that not everyone who looks happy with luxury is happy. If he is asked to choose between the choice of being a rich child but does not get the attention of parents or his current life that although he does not have any luxury but he can be happy living together with her mother always loved her and she never felt a lack of parental affection even though she only had one parent. He would still choose his life. Money can be found, but happiness cannot be bought. Now he just understood that the expression money can not buy happiness is true and he just felt it at this time.

“Sorry to have confided in you Dita. Forget what I said. Let's just say you didn't listen to anything.” Silang.

Andita shook her head, “Nothing really. I'm happy to be a good listener for you.” Andita softly said.

Gilang who heard that also smiled, “Thank you Dita. I will remember all your kindness. I won't forget her. I will definitely exchange your kindness later if I can curse.” Silang sincerely.

Andita who heard that just smiled, “I don't need anything Gilang. I just don't like to see you sad and sad so.” Inner Andita.

“Dita, I want to tell you something. I like Husna ahh not only love but it's love. I've loved it since the introduction of new students. He who is cold to people and silent when not spoken to makes me interested in him. All these years I've harbored my feelings waiting for time to reveal them when we graduate. But who knows that fate does not support me and says otherwise. He is just fooling with someone else. I'm trying to make that happen or maybe it's just the form I'm taking to make peace with the situation. It's not true that it's impossible. No one could truly sincerely let go of something he loved, there is only a form of peace that is made so that all of it looks okay even though the wound is still there and made to heal alone.” said Gilang told Andita all his feelings without anyone covered. Somehow he could pour all his feelings to Husna to Andita who incidentally his friend Husna. But one thing is certain she believes that Andita will not betray her and she feels relieved after telling her all her feelings.

Andita who heard the narration of Gilang's feelings to Husna was smiling even though her heart ached. Hypocrite if he does not admit that he is not jealous, not envious and does not feel pain listening to the feelings of love Gilang to Husna. He had suspected this before him that Gilang must have had a great love for Husna but he did not expect that when Gilang said it directly on him it turned out all his feels it hurts so bad. But he won't blame anyone. This is his feeling. Her love for Gilang was a sincerity and it would not make her evil just to have Gilang. Husna was happy with her husband. So why should he feel competing with Husna who incidentally is a good friend even very good because it has helped him. He will not be evil just because his love is rejected and gets no reply. Everyone has the right to love and it is an absolute thing that cannot be challenged by others. It does not matter if memamg Gilang likes other people most importantly there is also no prohibit him to have feelings for Gilang.

“Sorry to have said that to you Dita. But I feel relieved after saying that to you.” Said Gilang after some time silence enveloped them.

Andita shook her head and smiled, “Nothing really. I'm happy to be your friend and listen to you like I said before.” Andita.

Gilang also nodded with a smile, “Dita, later help me to prepare my proposal and script so that I can catch up with you and we graduate together.” Gilang.

Andita nodded, “Sure!” answer Andita without any rejection.

After that Andita also helped Gilang tidy up what Gilang brought here when he was treated. Gilang who saw that also smiled, “You're a good girl Dita. You are also pretty and sweet. Why did I just realize that.” Inner Gilang looked at Andita.

“But my heart is broken and wounded to the point of traumatizing me a little to love someone and opening my heart to her.” Continue the Inner Gilang again.

“Hum, it's done. Ohiya why hasn't Gen returned yet? What is the old take care of administration yes.” Andita asked Gilang and he put a bag of clothes on the sofa that was there.

“Maybe.” Answer Gilang.

While outside the door Gentala smiled looking at Gilang and Andita's interaction. He was there about 10 minutes ago. Not directly in and instead chose to observe his cousin was with Andita.

“Hopefully Dita can be a cure for all the wounds in your heart that Lang.” Inner Gentala then she opened the door.

“Sorry long!” gentala.

“Nothing. How?” ask Gilang.

“It's done. You can go home but soon there will be a final check.” Gentala smiled. Gilang Andita smiled at this.