My Secret Love's

Nala's Restlessness

Now Gilang is near Gentala. Gentala immediately greeted his cousin who almost fell while walking.

Gilang immediately put his hand down and held Gentala's shoulder tightly, “Bawa me Gen. Take me anywhere. I want to calm my heart. My heart hurts so much. Her taste was very painful when hearing themselves from her lips they were married. I've already lost. Really really lose. I thought I still had hope but it wasn't at all. What is left is only my mischief and stupidity. I didn't expect that all this would happen to me. I don't know why this is all happening. I can't think at all either.” Gilang said to his cousin that resisted his crying so as not to spill over here.

Gentala could feel the sadness and tears that his cousin tried to endure, “Crying was Gilang. Don't hold him. There's nothing wrong with us as men crying too. It was as a form of impingement from pain. Who knows, after crying all the pain you feel will be reduced. Take it easy I will hide your cry from people.” Gentala.

“If that is so take me to Gen's car. I want to shed my tears there. I want to cry now. Quickly take me there.” Silang.

Gentala nodded, “Alright. Come onl. I'll take you there soon.” Gentala said immediately memapahnya cousin to a car that is not far from where they are.

Now Gilang was in the car and Gentala also immediately entered the car. Like what he had said that he would cry then Gilang was crying in the car. Her tears were flowing down her cheeks. She cried without a sound. It hurt a lot but he realized that it was all because of his stupidity. So right now he's crying over his stupidity. There's nothing wrong with what happened. It's just that destiny is not on his side. He was on the unlucky side.

Gentala just let her cousin cry. Gentala even just shifted the tissue box in the car to near his cousin so that his cousin easier to reach him. He knew his cousin was in high-level heartbreak mode. He won't bother his cousin.

“Where are we going? Where do you want me to take you?” gentala asked after a while and according to her cousin it was calmer than before.

“To Any Gen. It's up to you to take me where.” Answer Gilang.

“What if I take you to the afterlife do you agree?” ask Gentala.

Gilang immediately shook his head weakly, “I still want to live Gen. Don't take me there. I still want to see his smile. I want to see him throw his wedding party. I want to see her in a wedding dress even though she's not with me. So don't take me to the afterlife. Take me to a place where I can calm my heart.” Silang.

Gentala just smiled at the words of his cousin. It turns out that despite being heartbroken but his cousin has not lost his mind to stay sane. He was still afraid of death. Thank goodness if it is so. At least it's just his heart that's hurt not his sanity. That's the most important thing. He can't lose his cousin. Cousins who always treat her like her assistant when the wealth they have is not much different. However he did not mind at all because to his Gilang was his brother. Honestly, he was sad when he saw his brother was sad but he wanted to how else. This is the best. He could only pray that his cousin's broken heart could be healed soon.

Gentala immediately turned on the car and soon left the campus area to a place where Gentala thought it could make his cousin a little calmer.

On the way to a place where Gentala knows what, Gilang still thinks about what the girl he loves said a few minutes ago.

The flash back

“I and Azzam are a married couple. We are married.” It was Husna's voice that deeply penetrated his heart and felt very sick to the heart.

“You are a nice guy Gilang. I appreciate the love and sincerity you have. Thank you for loving me that sincerely. I once again thank you very much. But I'm sorry. I'm really sorry that I can't return your feelings. I will pray to God that he will give you a partner who is also as sincere as you Gilang.” Husna smiled and looked at her husband who was also smiling.

“Say, thank you for loving my wife that deeply. But I as her husband will not be willing if I have to give up my wife to you. I will also pray to the almighty that he write a good man on your destiny.” Said Azzam patting Gilang's shoulder.

He just wanted to cry there hearing Husna and Azzam's words but all he tried to hold.

“I have one last request for you Na. I promise after this I won't bother you anymore. I promise.” Silang.

“Say. If you can make it happen then I will make it happen.” Husna.

“I want you to keep your promise to me.” Said Gilang staring at the girl with the iris of the amber eye was fixed.

Husna who heard Gilang's words became confused himself, “Promise? What promise? Did I ever promise you anything to the level chief?” husna asked while thinking where she promised Gilang that but he did not remember her.

Silang smiled miris. Dirty was his hope. He was not someone special in Husna's heart until the promise he said the girl no longer remembered. But he wouldn't hate Husna for that. He knew Husna was someone who was indifferent with his surroundings then forgetting was something that should have been a natural thing.

“You promised to play with us Na. That promise you made when we just finished KKN. You refused to join us at that time. So you can keep that promise for me. A dinner at my favorite place. That's also if Mr. Azzam allows.” Said Gilang gulping rough his saliva that actually felt choked in his throat.

Husna who heard it immediately remembered with his promise, “Ahh I remember.” Husna then immediately looked at her husband to ask permission to be allowed to keep his promise. Azzam nodded slowly.

Gilang smiled and then he nodded, “All right. Thank you for your generosity sir.” Silang.

Azzam and Husna just looked at each other and after that they immediately came home because honestly they were now the center of attention. Many students have begun to approach the faculty when it was not there because they were busy with their affairs.

Gilang could only see the passing of Azzam and Husna's car with a bitter look before he turned around and approached Gentala there in his hiding place.

Flash back off

***

While now on the side of Azzam and Husna, the two are silent with each other dissolved in their minds. Really, today's events are beyond their predictions. Starting from Azzam's phone which was signed by Kirana and Gilang with all his heart's expressions.

“Mas!” call Husna after a long silence. She looked at her husband.

“What's the matter, baby? Justsaytheword. Do you need anything?” tanya Azzam remained focused with the street in front of her.

Husna shook her head, “I hope you're not mad at me for what happened today. I really don't know that my level leader has feelings for me.” Husna felt guilty.

Azzam smiled and pulled the car away for a while. He did not want to drive while he was talking especially if their conversation was serious enough like this. Azzam immediately brought his wife into his arms. He immediately soothed his wife's guilt. Azzam certainly did not blame his wife for this because indeed his wife was not guilty at all. Everyone has the right to love anyone. After all, our hearts cannot choose where to dock.

“Till down baby. I'm not mad at you. Although mas a little jealous earlier because it can be in front of his own mas there is someone who dares to express his feelings to you.” Said Azzam then took off his embrace and stared fixed on the beautiful face of his wife.

Husna also looked at her husband with an affectionate gaze, “Ma-” Husna said stopped.

Cup

One soft and brief kiss landed on her lips that, “Don't say sorry dear. You're not wrong. Everyone has the right to love others. Mas was proud of you for rejecting him firmly and still chose mas as your husband. Mas thought you'd change your mind because considering you once bought her a birthday gift.” Azzam.

“Mas don't say that. The gift means nothing to me. It was just a gift that had no meaning for me. I who was just confused about going to the birthday did not bring anything finally bought what I think is useful and can she wear.” Husna explained what was true because she did not want any misunderstanding between herself and her husband. He doesn't want anything wrong anymore.

Azzam smiled, “Mas doesn't blame you for that either. It's just that I want to ask.” Azzam looked at his wife.

Husna also looked at her husband was clingy, “Hum, just say what do you want mas ask?” husna.

“When did you promise her?” ask Azzam.

“Appointments? Ouh that. We just got back from KKN. They invited me to gather together at a restaurant or hotel as a form of celebration they had completed KKN and as an early sign that they would start research and fend for themselves. But I couldn't come back then because of what? How I forgot. Ahh that I have to prepare my novel if not wrong. I also remember less. But one thing is for sure I'm tired and I think attending a celebration will only add to my tired list. Not the calmness that can be tired. So I prefer to go home but it turns out that once I get home there already there is Gus Rahman and his family demanding an explanation of the application they submitted. I who wanted to sleep in my soft bed immediately had to be put off and had to explain the strange proposal.” said Husna at length without realizing the change in the look of the face of the husband who turned sullen when Husna called Gus Rahman.

He remembered the incident in the tea garden and then the incident watching in the cinema at that time.

“Darling, jealous mas you called gus Rahman.” Azzam said honestly.

Husna who heard that also smiled, “For what a jealous mas. Now I'm yours. You are the winner. You were the first man to hug me of course other than the hug from abi. You were the first one to share a bed with me. You were the first to share a room with me and you were the first to take my first kiss. So why are you jealous of someone I reject.” Husna smiled and looked at her husband.

Azzam smiled and confirmed his wife's words. He was indeed the winner over the girl before him. So for what jealousy with his wife's past that was even rejected by his wife. He is the eleventh man to finally become the current winner and now has the status of husband of a girl who has many nicknames but a famous nickname that is the mysterious.

“Mas wondered why you didn't receive a proposal from Gus Rahman when he thought he was good at everything. Son of a kyai with a large boarding house. Then must be very understanding of religion.” Azzam.

“Are you feeling inferior at the moment? Don't feel like it. I do not feel it fits with the pesantren life which is certainly very thick with religious nuances. I'm not used to it. I am not a free girl but I also do not want to lock myself behind a golden cage that is called pesantren.” Husna.