My Patient Husband

Chapter 64. When my brain admits that my heart loves it....

Felisha POV, please,

My heart is not as calm as others see it. Remember what Mato said at that time. I don't know where he knows that I work at AA Hospital. I was very surprised when I had lunch in the cafeteria.

Suddenly someone came and sat down next to me. I looked up and saw who he was. Lita was also surprised to see Mato's brother there.

"Eh, brother Mato? what's here..??" Instantly I leaned into the question of the man who once filled my heart. Lita was silent but like she was waiting for the answer to my question to Mato.

"Why? Can't do? " It's not that he answered, he asked back.

"Laahhh.cuman wonder that Mato can be here. Want someone?" Ask me again as I feed a spoonful of chicken into my mouth.

"No.." Answer's short. Looking at his face, he seems to be upset. Who pissed him off? Thought.

"Ooh.." I just oh ria feel like brother Mato is lazy to talk.

I saw Lita looking at me and then faintly shaking almost invisibly. I nodded at the sign of understanding the code from him that forbade me from asking too much of the man. I chose to spend the rest of the chicken soto in my bowl.

The three of us ate quietly, there was only the sound of spoons and plates being put to each other. Today mas Yudi did not come with us because he was in the room of a Yoga doctor. Either is talking about what, maybe about patient data Kidney and Hypertension.

After my food ran out, Lita and I decided to go back to Mato's room. But he didn't hold me back and told Lita to go first. My forehead was wrinkled to see the expression on his face that could be said to be cold. What's wrong with her? wasn't he accepting that our current relationship was just a friend no more than that. Or is there something else?.

Lita nodded slowly at me as if saying it was okay, I also just obey. I followed in Mato's footsteps who took me somewhere but I didn't know where.

BUGS

I grimaced as I smashed into that tall back, rubbed my forehead and looked up.

"Aduuuhhh...what the hell is sis..kok stop not saying?" My words to Brother Mato who suddenly stopped which made me hit his back.

"Why are you walking behind me like a little boy following his father's steps". The omel. Then pull my hand to stand next to him and walk parallel to where I don't know where. I can only gawk when I hear his nagging. Why is he angry. Bizarrely.

Turns out he took me to the top balcony of the hospital. It was quiet because no one was there. But wait, why does he seem so familiar with that place. Doesn't he not work there, he works in Rayapharmindo. It's none of my business either.

Arriving at the balcony, the wind was blowing very hard. I clasped my hands on my chest staring at the back of Mato who was walking towards the long bench that was there. What was the matter until he brought me here with such a cold face.

After dropping his butt on the bench, he turned his head towards me and nodded his head asking me to come closer. I approached him but did not sit next to him.

" What's wrong, sister.why bring me here?" Ask me without saying anything.

I saw Brother Mato turning his face in any direction. Then back to staring at me.

"Can't we talk after you sit here?"

"Huufffttt..." This guy is rambling. I had to sit on the same bench as him because there was no other bench, only one bench.

After I sat down, he stared quietly ahead like he was looking far away. I looked at him waiting for him to speak.

"Sha..I can't just be your friend.hatiku really can't accept after hearing the news that you're going to marry someone else". Said Mato after a long silence. He looked at me with a sad face.

" What do you mean?"

"I can't let go of you Felisha.I can't accept if you belong to someone else.It's been a few months after that time that I said I would be your friend, but the truth is I can't..my heart really hurts when I know you're getting married to another man".

I looked back at Brother Mato and shook my head slowly. "No brother. You can't be like this. In two weeks I'm getting married. We are destined not to be fools. I'm sure you must have found a much better woman than me".

Mato's sister seemed to shake her head, unwilling to take her gaze away from me.

" You know Sha. For years I lived in guilt for betraying you back then. After I had the courage to meet you and admit all my mistakes, I.I was already unable to reach you anymore.you have been far away from me.I tried to get you back but you are getting away.." I saw the tears that had fallen drop by drop to his cheek but were washed away violently.

Silence does not return his words. My heart was filled to see it but I quickly turned my face the other way. Afraid that my heart would waver to see this kind of situation.

"Lisha.follow with me go far. Marry me. I promise to make amends for my past mistakes and I promise to make you happy. As much as I can, I'll try to be the best man you've ever met."

Unexpectedly, Brother Mato came down from his seat and knelt before me making me very surprised by what he did.

"Astaghfirullahal'adzim.kak..wake up.do not kayak gini.gimana if anyone sees.." I panicked to look left and right to see the situation around. I immediately grabbed onto Mato's shoulder telling him to stand up but he flinched.

"I won't stand until you answer me". He said, still in a kneeling position.

" Sister.I live two more weeks you want to get married.No way I can cancel everything I have worked so hard to take care of. It's not that easy you want me to get married and go far with you. We have a lot to think about". Frustrated talk.

"I can take care of everything. You don't have to think about that. I'll take care of it if you let me marry you". Say again.

"We are not a match. I'm his match with Ando's sister. Don't want you to accept that".

" But you don't love her, you love me and I love you Lisha". Shouted Mato who increasingly frustrated me.

"I beg you, brother.I have not loved you since you left me for no reason..since then I've erased my love for you and I've been waiting for years for answers and excuses for your treatment of me". My firmness.

" Don't try to lie to me Lisha. I can't believe you don't love me."

"Once again I say..I DON'T LOVE YOU ANYMORE". My firmness. I stood up and was about to leave, but before I stepped in, it stuck me back.

" But you don't love that man Lisha either".

I'm silent. Closing my eyes for a moment, trying to feel my heart at this moment. Do I love Ando or not as Mato said. I opened my eyes slowly and answered.

"You really want to know???" I see Brother Mato waiting for the continuation of my words.

"I LOVE HER..LOVED HER VERY MUCH. You hear that?". I intentionally pressed every word I said.

After that I hurriedly stepped away leaving Mato's brother who was fixated there still with a kneeling position.

" I won't stop here, Lisha. I'll get you back". Shouted brother Mato.

I continued walking regardless of what he said, but when I turned towards the balcony door how surprised I was when I saw Brother Ando there standing looking at me with a big smile featuring a row of neat teeth.

Unknowingly I ran down her tall body hugging her tightly, as my tears slid rapidly down my face. I was crying in his arms. I don't know what feeling I'm feeling right now. Mixed feelings rule my heart so crying is the best option right now. It seemed like her feelings of fear and guilt were more domineering. Hix..

I felt Ando's embrace so tight, like a fear of loss. I also increased my embrace. We stayed there for a long time, hugging as if strengthening each other.

Slowly I let go of our embrace as it started to feel tight. Brother Ando clasped my hand tightly and took me away from that place.

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