My Patient Husband
Chapter 50. Some days
Felisha let Mato hug her for a while without returning her embrace.
"You don't have to be tired of apologizing. I've long since forgiven you, I just need your explanation why until you leave me for no reason. I am also sorry that as long as we are together there may be an attitude or words I lack in your heart. I'm sorry I couldn't follow your request at the time to get married. Consider this our last hug, hopefully you will get a better woman than me". Lisha said at length in the arms of the man.
Slowly Mato let go of her embrace. Looked at the woman, not believing what she heard.
" What are you talking about? what do you mean last hug?" Hearing Lisha's words, Mato felt like she was going to stay away from her. He was not willing to be separated from her again.
"Our relationship is long over, so please let me be with the man of my choice right now". Lisha
" Did I not have another chance to make amends for my past mistakes?" Mato is still trying to get that chance.
"If you want me to give you a chance to make up for it, let me close the story between us. I hope you are the same as me. Hope this is the best for us". Lisha
Mato is silent, not believing in the words of Felisha who wants to end their love story, now she has understood the direction of their conversation at this time. " It seems like I've lost, there's no place for me in his heart". Inner Mato.
"Alright.I understand. But can I ask you one thing?"
"What?"
"Can we still be friends?" Bidar Mato with a raging heart. It was fine if he could only be friends now and in the future, as long as he could still meet Felisha. Her thought.
"Why not. We can't break up, can we.." Felisha smiled as she said it, relieved that Mato and herself were finally able to make peace with their story that would become massalu. Slowly, Mato smiled even though his heart could not really accept their separation, but he would try his best for the woman he loved.
***
Ando drove his car away from the place. Trying to play the existing song to reduce the sadness in his heart.
"some days I feel I'd make a good sunset".
(there are days I feel able to make a beautiful twilight)
"some days I just don't wanna give up yet".
(there are days I just don't want to give up)
" some days it's hard to breathe".
(there are days it can be hard to just breathe)
"some days I'm over being me".
(there were days I gave up being me)
"some days, some days, some days".
(one day, one day, one day)
" some days I try my best to seem happy".
(there are days I try my best to look happy)
"some days this place sees better off without me".
(there are days this place feels better without me)
"some days I'm overwhelmed".
(there are days I'm overwhelmed)
" some days I'm lost inside this hell".
(there are days when I get lost in suffering)
"some days, some days, some days".
(one day, one day, one day)
"Some days I wonder what it's like".
(there are days I wonder what it's like)
"To live an ordinary life".
(living an ordinary life)
"Maybe I won't feel this way".
(maybe I can't do this)
"Some day"
(one day)
"Some days I feel like everyone hates me".
(there are days I feel like everyone doesn't like me)
"Some days I question, "Why would God create me?"
(there are days I ask "why did God create me?")
"Some days I'm holding strong".
(there are days when I hold strong)
"Some days I'm pretty hanging on".
(there were days I could barely hold on)
"Some days, some days, some days".
(one day, one day, one day)
"Some days I wonder what it's like".
(there are days I wonder what it's like)
"To live an ordinary life, Maybe I won't feel this way
Some day's".
(living an ordinary life, maybe I can't do this)
"Some day".
(one day)
"Some days I wonder what it's like".
(there are days I wonder what it's like)
(living an ordinary life, maybe I can't do this)
"Some day".
(one day)
The song "Some days" by Brent Morgan represents his current feelings. Choose to drive the car to the beach.
Sitting on a rock under a tree by the beach. Breathe as much air as possible and then exhale slowly. Take out a cigarette to smoke. Looking far out into the ocean.
His chest immediately felt tight considering the incident earlier when his lover was embraced by another man. In the suction of the cigarette in his hand firmly and then look up at the exhale of cigarette smoke into the air. Look at the stars in the sky.
"Why is it so tight, O Allah.It hurts more than it used to when in marriage". Ando.
Maybe with the former LDR and so their relationship is less intense, while the present almost every time always together so the pain is different.
His mother asked him when he would marry Felisha. At that time he could only answer on the grounds that Felisha was still in college. He will soon marry his lover if he graduates from college, and now the woman has graduated from college, especially the reason that Ando will give to his two parents. There's no way she's telling the truth, if she's waiting until Felisha loves her.
The longer he felt the piercing cold from the strong wind. Glancing at the circular clock on his wrist the clock shows at 10 p.m. He's been there long enough.
Stand up and move towards the car. Opened the door and was about to get into the car but broke it down. His eyes narrowed at the man and woman in the restaurant not far from there. Closing the car door and walking closer.
"Abraham?" Call Ando and the person called looks back.
"Eh bang Ando.how's the bang?" Abraham stood up and immediately greeted Ando ala man.
"Okay Alhamdulillah... You how are you?"
"Alhamdulillah good bang".
" Sit down first bang" Tawar Abra basa stale.
"Other times, bro, I want to go home". Ando subtly refused the man's invitation.
"Who's been here..eh bang who's here?" Abra asked as he chuckled behind Ando looking for the whereabouts of people who might come with him tonight but could not find him.
"alone. It happened to be passing by so stop by here". Answer Ando.
" Oohh.don't be alone for long bang, if you want, I have a friend". Abraham said with a smile deliberately teasing the man who almost became a member of his family. Yes, Abraham is the cousin of Ando's ex-lover, Kalista.
"Hahaha.create you". Ando laughed at Abraham's offer. He knew that the man who had almost become his sister-in-law was teasing him.
" Haha..." Abraham laughed when he heard the former brother-in-law's answer.
"Gw first yes..." Ando went to his car.
"OK bang.ati-ati on the street". Abraham lifted both his thumbs into the air.
***
Ando stared at the quiet kos an, it seemed like the residents had fallen asleep. When he was about to go home, it suddenly crossed his mind to turn his vehicle towards the cost and. Glancing at the clock that already showed at 10:50. It is late enough to visit.
Choosing to stay in the car while staring at Felisha's room. Grabbing his phone and checking it. There were two missed calls from a number he named "My Lovely" and several incoming messages that turned out to be one of them was a message from his lover. Choose to open the first message from "My Lovely" later after that he checked the other message.
"Night sister.has it been sleeping?"
That's just the sound of a message from "My Lovely". He saw when the message entered it turned out that the message was sent after the call was not answered.
Soon her phone flickers a sign there's an incoming call and who else if not from "My Lovely ". He deliberately turned off his ringtone because he did not want to be contacted when he was on the beach. I really want to enjoy the solitude on the beach.
Swiping her face and cleared her throat to neutralize her feelings before pressing the green button.
" Hello, Assalamu'alaikum... " Say Ando after the call is connected.
Slender. No answer from across the phone.
"Hello.." Repeat Ando.
Sayup-sayup sounds a small sobbing and followed by a voice. "Srooootttt.." which is nothing but the sound of fluid being expelled from the nose. Instantly Ando kept the phone away from his ear with a frown.
"Hello. Assalamu'alaikum darling.." Said Ando who finally got an answer from across there. So love and unfortunately he to the woman that he did not know how to be angry for what he saw earlier.
"Where are you from? why wasn't my call answered? So busy you forgot me?". A series of questions that came out of Felisha's lips that made Ando unconsciously singled her smile.
" Why didn't you answer, huh...??" Felisha said in a tone that had risen by an octave because Ando did not immediately answer the question he asked.
"Jawab, greetings dear. Assalamu'alaikum..." Ando repeated his greeting that was not answered earlier.
"Needle..." Felisha replied, which sounded like she was not answering. Ando chuckled at hearing it.
"Why are you angry, baby? I had met an old friend, and his phone was accidentally silent so not surprised by me if it turns out that there is a miss. Pardon me..". Tempt Ando very gently while chuckling. It's also true that Ando met an old friend. More precisely the former candidate-in-law. hehe
" Isshhh...sampe this late?" Lisha asked in disbelief.
"The discovery was. Now I'm in front of the gate and you baby". Ando said casually.
" Haha...who is really a sis?" Lisha asked who immediately opened the door of her room then looked towards the gate. Sure enough there he saw Ando's car parked right in front of the gate.
"Why are you here this late?" Lisha.
"Just want to see you for a while before you go home". Ando replied, who immediately came out and stood in front of the car with a big smile looking at his lover who walked towards him while holding a cellphone in his ear.
" But the fence is already in the conci. Can't get in". Lisha said while behind the iron gate.
"No papa. I'd say I just wanted to meet you the expanse is not willing to enter".
" Yes back home, have you met, right?" Get rid of Lisha pouting.
"Hahaha, just a moment, baby, I'm not satisfied to see you".
" Isshh.." Felisha blushed. Suddenly his face was hot. He was sure his cheeks were now red.
"There come in. I go home now". Ando told his girlfriend to go back into his room.
Felisha nodded and turned around to return to her room.
" Dear..." Call Ando. Lisha turned her back to look at her lover who was outside the fence.
"Love you.have a nice dream baby". Ando smiled.
" Have a nice dream too, "reply Felisha smiled sweetly and then walked back to the room.
As Felisha was nowhere to be seen again, Ando's smile slowly faded. His love is not yet reciprocated. He still needs a struggle that does not know until when he himself does not know. But her heart was a little relieved to see the sweet smile of her lover that looked so sincere tonight. I don't know why he saw there was love for her in that smile. Hope so.
Glancing at the paper bag that was lying next to him, Ando then drove his car across the streets of the city that began to be empty. He unconsciously smiled every smile to remember his lover's smile earlier. There is happiness after the sadness though happy not yet how tonight, but Ando sure gradually will be a lot of happiness that comes to approach as long as he is a little more patient again.
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