My Patient Husband

Chapters 17. What's with them 2

"That's not what I mean, brother. Anyone who wants to bed me now, I will definitely refuse because as I said earlier. Focus will definitely be divided if married, so I can't afford it." Said Felisha who was responded with a nod many times by Mato sign understand if Felisha is not ready to get married at this time.

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Since then Mato is still trying to make Felisha believe that marriage will not burden him will instead help him to quickly complete his education because Mato will be happy to accompany him during the education process.

Felisha rejected it for the same reason. Not wanting to be divided.

For two months Mato did not slack to persuade his lover to want him to marry. Not without reason Mato did it but Mato had his own reasons why until he insisted on marrying Felisha now.

The first was that Mato was afraid that Felisha would turn away because she often found a man who wanted to approach her lover. The second Mato was afraid that at one time he could not control himself not to touch Felisha any further than to hold hands and hold her while they were not yet halal.

Those two things that always haunted Mato's mind all this time. It felt like Mato was screaming loudly saying everything in front of Felisha that he was very tortured if he was close to his lover without Felisha knowing. But it was embarrassing for him.

Felisha herself was caught off guard whenever she met her lover, because she always talked about marriage. The unrelenting Mato said that he wanted to marry her soon. But Mato never wanted to tell Felisha about the reason why she had to marry Felisha in such a fast time. Felisha did not know if Mato always ended up playing solo in the bathroom after meeting him. Even though his lover did not make strange movements or wear open clothes. That's as easy as a Mato libido to go up.

Felisha forces Mato to give her the exact reason why she should get married before she graduates. And finally Mato said all of what was the main reason. Not for the second reason. Want to put where his face is if you have to be honest about it.

"Sister..Why is it always discussed that problem continues? I didn't know how to be rich anymore. I'm so tired of you, brother." Felisha said slowly but with so much pressure that it sounded like a soft whisper. Because he was too tired of Mato's invitation to get married.

"I'm afraid one day you'll turn away from me, baby. I won't be able to accept if you leave me because of another man." Said Mato, looking at Felisha.

"Oh Allah, brother. It was just a baseless brother fear for me. I have been walking with other men or have I ever chatted with other men. I told you I wanted to focus on college first, no intentions are laen-laen. Please!" Felisha clasped her hands together in the chest pleading for Mato to immediately stop her desire to marry Felisha in the near future.

"Never dear, you never did, I just said that I was afraid that one day you might turn away from me because we never knew in the future what we would be like." Matos

"Sister is too afraid of things that are not necessarily going on, brother. You should think if we are a match for sure we are not going anywhere. We'll be with brother. Inshaa Allah." Felisha assured Mato.

Mato was silent could not bear to see Felisha who had been teary, tears welled up in her eyes, soon will fall down her smooth cheeks.

Felisha's cry broke as Mato approached and hugged her tightly. Mato inhaled the fragrance of the hijab her lover was wearing and stroked Felisha's back to calm her down.

Long Felisha sobbed soundlessly in Mato's arms until she did not realize that the navy shirt she was wearing was wet with snot and tears. Mato lets Felisha cry in her arms to make Felisha feel relieved. Mato, worried about her lover's situation, may be distressed by her request, and soon leads Felisha to sit on a bench not far from where they are standing.

Mato ran away leaving Felisha busy neutralizing her feelings. And soon he came with bottled mineral water, unscrewed the bottle and handed it to Felisha to drink it.

After Felisha looked calmer, Mato grabbed her shoulder and leaned Felisha's head against her shoulder. Mato repeatedly apologized while peeping his lover's hand.

Similar events always repeated until finally Felisha and Mato both silence each other. No one said hello to each other for days or even weeks. But Mato never took off his monitor from Felisha. Mato never appeared before Felisha, he always saw Felisha's movements from a distance.

He saw the seriousness of Felisha in his pursuit of education. Mato has never seen Felisha hang out with her female friends in class other than Rufi and Lita let alone her male friends.

But at the same time Mato also felt disappointed because it seemed Felisha really enjoyed her solitude. Which does not seem sadness and longing for him because their relationship is not okay. His heart was instantly as in a crumple. Be ill.

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Felisha POV

I've been so depressed since Mato first expressed her desire to marry me, actually it's a good thing, but for me getting married before graduating college is very heavy because it will require extra energy and mind, especially if after marriage immediately pregnant. I really wouldn't be able to do it if I had to go through everything. That's what I have in mind right now

For two months now, Mato has been incessantly seducing me to want him to apply, with various offers. Starting from the one that will delay pregnancy until I graduate first until the less reasonable thing like fearing I turned away from him because of other men.

Because all this time I keep my distance from the opposite sex including with classmates. Not only because I know Mato is jealous but also because basically I am a little introverted when it comes to men.

I get tired of Mato's whining every time we meet. Every meeting, brother Mato always ends discussing about marriage. I was caught off guard by the circumstances, plus now I was on a lot of errands in college, making me sick of it. I like to fail to focus on it.

And finally I always try not to meet brother Mato first for a while, because it avoids fights that might happen again.

Mato calls me every day after work. But I never rubbed it. I deliberately avoided giving the two of us time to correct each other. Maybe I was wrong or he was.

Finally Mato came to me at the boarding house because his call was never answered. I can't avoid it this time but I don't talk much. Just saying that I don't want to be disturbed because I'm going to face the midterms. Mato gave in and understood my situation. When Mato came home I immediately went into the room to study. Rufi and Lita were also studying in their respective rooms.

After a few days of not seeing Mato and our exams were over, just waiting for the grades to come out, Rufi and Lita sat in the front gazebo of the class while waiting for the test results, suddenly Mato came to me and sat down before me staring intently at me. I cast a glance in any direction so as not to look at him. "Later tonight I'll be at your place." Her speech.

I flinch not to reply to her words. "Felisha" The baritone's voice again sounded slow but stressful and she was looking at me more and more sharply making me want to disappear from there right then and there.

"Hm." I only answered him with a short deheman while looking down to play a leg. Stay away from her sharp gaze.

Mato immediately stood up and left the three of us without saying goodbye. I lyrically two of my friends who are confused to see me and brother Mato like that. They must be wondering what exactly is.

Sure enough Rufi and Lita immediately raised questions in accordance with my estimation. After seeing Brother Mato move away.

I haven't been able to explain everything to them because I myself am confused by the problems that are happening in my relationship and Mato's sister.

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