My ex, my husband

EPS 78 Rara Decree

17.00 Reyhan said goodbye because later tonight he had an appointment to accompany his father to survey the place for a new project later. While Rara sorted out the apartment and then took a bath and prayed Maghrib. After Maghrib, Rara was getting ready, because Rara had already promised to meet Bimo in her apartment. Bimo has already sent the location of his apartment, and Rara is headed straight there.

Rara sat opposite Bimo in the middle room of Bimo's apartment.

"Tumben you asked me to come here, but I can go to your apartment if you want to see me"

'Lord..maybe my decision here will not be wrong' Rara.

"Dog.."

"Yes?"

Both of Rara's lips seemed to lock each other, not wanting to say. Oxygen feels thin to make the breath sliced. The heart beats special, not as usual.

"Why Ra?" ask Bimo.

Rara looked straight at Bimo's face.

"Bim.. Can we talk tonight as friends?"

"Aren't we friends?"

"Please talk without thinking that we've had a relationship"

"Why are you Ra?"

"Bim. I beg you.." persuaded Rara.

"OK on.." Bimo resigned.

Rara took a breath for a moment, and exhaled slowly.

"Do you still love.. Mia?" ask Rara very slowly.

Bimo was silent for a moment.

"Why are you asking that?"

"I'm your best friend, and I want my best friend to share my taste"

"I don't know Ra"

"Just answer me, tonight consider me your best friend, not your ex"

Bimo was silent for a moment.

"I think, still.." he continued.

'I've guessed' Rara.

"Are you willing..Told this to your best friend, about how you felt the first time Mia said she was going to marry another man?"

"It hurts" Bimo replied firmly.

"Just sick?"

"Destroyed.." continued Bimo.

"If it turns out that Mia was not married, or so married but she separated from her husband, then Mia returned to you again, will you accept it again?"

'The reality is that Mia is now separated from her husband Ra' Bimo.

"Bim.answer.I'm your best friend tonight"

"I'll rethink that for Ra"

"Why?"

"Because he didn't prioritize me. Even I decided not to go back, because he had already destroyed everything"

Rara and Bimo were silent.

"Bim. without you knowing, what you said just now, that's how I felt when you left me for another woman. And just like your answer, I won't decide to go back either, for the reason that I'm afraid of being destroyed for the second time" Rara shed tears.

"I didn't know it would feel like this, Ra.. Sorry..." Bimo shed tears.

Rara approached, putting her palm on Bimo's cheek, gently rubbing the tears that were dripping quietly on her handsome face.

'Don't cry Bimoku' Rara.

"Honestly, I was sick too, knowing now you feel what I used to feel. Somehow, as if I don't want you to feel it" Rara continued.

"Maybe it's a punishment for me Ra.."

"Bim.one thing you need to know, I never hated you, because you were my best friend"

Rara and Bimo quietly stared at each other.

"May I hug you?" bimo Pinta.

Rapun stood up, followed by Bimo. They stepped closer to each other, and embraced in the warmth of friendship.

Long enough they embrace, melt all the wounds that exist in each of them.

"Have let go. lest I change my mind later" joked Rara.

Rara and Bimo laughed. They let go of hugs.

"Are you going to marry Reyhan?" ask Bimo suddenly.

"What do you know?" ask Rara.

"I know everything. After that night when he met Reyhan, Galih told him everything. And I know, you'll be here to say this" Bimo said.

"Bim, at least you have fought for Mia, you must be sure that every struggle will bear sweet fruit, even though not through Mia, God is preparing someone more than Mia, believe me.."

'As Obie said, All struggles will end beautifully. But it's beautiful not just on that road' Rara.

"I believe Mrs Reyhan.." joked Bimo.

"Hahaha what the hell!"

Maybe Rara has fallen to his death fighting for Bimo, and hopes to get the result with Bimo. But after Obie came in his dream, Rara realized that it was beautiful not just in one way. Which means, Reyhan is the beauty of what Rara has fought for and sacrificed during her journey of love.

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In the morning, Rara walks into the office to her study.

"Reyhan?!" Rara was surprised to find Reyhan already in front of her room.

'She is like a ghost, always appearing suddenly in front of me' Rara.

"Go away, I want to go in" Rara opened the door and put her bag on the table.

Reyhan followed him from behind.

"What does siiihh...why do you want to be here early in the morning?" ask Rara annoyed.

"I want to hear your answer" Reyhan said impatiently with a slightly sweaty face.

'He looks like he's done lifting 2ton hahaha' Rara laughed inwardly.

"I can't Reyhan." replied Rara slowly.

"Whataa?!!!!" scream Reyhan.

Rara quiet.

"Why???!!!" Reyhan.

"Yes I can't.."

"Well, why, what reason??!"

"I can't accept another man's proposal, because I've accepted your proposal"

Reyhan. Rara smiled.

"How dare you prank me, you rrr, here you are!" Reyhan tickled Rara.

They laugh happily at each other.

Rara Diary

Loving Bimo so deeply is not a mistake in my life. Instead I thank you, because I learned a lot, so I am proud of myself who unconsciously I have become friends, friends, lovers, and ex, in one person. Not necessarily anyone else can perform that role simultaneously.

Maybe my heart will always forgive and accept Bimo, but if my struggle is physical, maybe my whole body is full of stitches. I-i know.. Bimo has already got what he has planted, even though the fact is that I don't want him to get it myself. Because I never expected him to feel the pain I was feeling. But true, God is indeed Most Just.

Perhaps many will ask, why the hell did Ra you not give a second chance to Bimo?, I just smiled at the question. They don't know how many times I've given them, but he was still wasting it. Although I know now Bimo has changed, but I also know my trauma is difficult in foxes. Therefore, one of my reasons for deciding this is, I do not want this trauma to backfire which will explode again when I face difficult circumstances if married to Bimo.

Thank you Bimo, you were one of my greatest journeys until I was at this point.

After my trip with Bimo, I met Obie. Knowing Obie was not suffering, although in the end death took me away from him, but therefore I was able to continue walking in a state of heart and feet full of pus and thorns. His departure might leave regret, but his immortality was the path he had chosen earlier. Remembering him is a fun hobby, missing him is a calming thing.

I learned from Obie that everything that looks bad, is often a valuable thing even priceless. From him I learned, that to love is not to be loved. Sincerity needs no reward. And the struggle does not need to be displayed, but proven.

Obie is a precious thing I haven't had. But God is the owner of Obie. Even so, I feel treasured being loved by a priceless person like Obie. She's mylover.

And this is my last option. Choosing to live with Reyhan, spending the rest of my life with him, even if I don't know, this is the right choice or not, which is obviously Reyhan is a new hope that I will fight for until the end of my breath. His boldness was indeed not a good thing, but his earnestness was something I needed to appreciate. His success is something I will do every day. The jealousy is the alarm when I fall asleep in my grief that I will face later. Reyhan is my husband whom I will obey. Reyhan is my place to cool down, he's my paradise.

Greetings, Rara.

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'My ex, my husband' this means 1 person in the same way? or the... 'My ex, my husband' these are 2 different people?

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