My ex, my husband

EPS 117 Hug

'How did he get here? basic sucks. You ah!' muttered Rara looked at Reyhan who was still sound asleep in the wooden chair.

Rara tried to ignore him and went into his room. Hearing a voice unlocking the door, Reyhan opened his eyes and woke up.

Rara enters the room and Reyhan immediately enters and catches up with Rara from behind.

Rara was just speechless, Rara was standing in front of the table with a large glass on the wall so Reyhan could see Rara's face. Rara is putting her bag on the table while removing the watch and others try to busied themselves. But there was sadness and anger on Rara's face.

Reyhan was just speechless and confused about where to start talking. So confused he did not know what to say, all he wanted was to hug his wife.

Reyhan stepped forward and tried to hug Rara from behind, but Rara shifted her body slightly away trying to dodge. Reyhan did not want to lose, he stepped again and tightly wrapped his hands to the front of Rara's stomach, kissing Rara's shoulder.

Likewise with Rara who still did not want to lose, he tried to dodge again, and tried to release Reyhan's two hands that hugged him tightly. But the grip of his hand that encircled Rara's body, apparently very tight and tight, Reyhan really did not want to let go of his embrace.

"Let go" Rara finally let out a single word.

Reyhan did not care, only getting closer his embrace.

"Let go. You smell asem!" rara is still trying to get away.

"You too" Reyhan replied muttering on Rara's shoulder.

'Bad!'

Yes, it is actually both of them have not had an afternoon shower and it is natural that both smell bad in the nose. What was Rara trying to joke so that the situation is not too hot, it is also affected by the impact of her joke efforts.

"I'm short of breath!" rara shouted reasoned.

Finally Reyhan let go of his embrace, the second reason Rara apparently made Reyhan not bear.

"Where have you been? I waited from earlier" Reyhan exclaimed.

Rara just huffled.

"Darling..." Reyhan tried to grab Rara's hand.

Rara immediately pulled her hand but saw her eyes begin to shed tears and swiftly Rara also immediately removed them.

"Come here.." Reyhan stepped closer trying to hug his wife back.

But Rara actually stepped away from Reyhan, towards the large glass window that was still open curtains. Rara stood staring at the night sunyinya from behind the glass window. His lips began to tremble as if unable to hold back any more cries.

"I'm looking for you" Reyhan.

"Care if you're the same as me!" rara's voice was mixed with crying.

"Darling...." Reyhan stepped closer to Rara again.

"Don't come any closer!" Firmly Rara directly while extending both hands forward as if making a defensive fortress for himself.

Reyhan did not care, and just brushed off Rara's hand, breaking through his wife's defense. Quickly hugged Rara mercilessly.

"Let go! Not want! release Reyhan!" Rara screamed as if she was under threat, showering Reyhan's body with a small punch.

"I won't let go" Reyhan murmured from Rara's ears that were slightly mixed with tears, apparently Reyhan was starting to not be able to resist the sadness he felt.

"Hiks... hyks... Ga-ma-u.. Ga-ma-u Reyh-han.." Rara's voice began to stutter due to sobbing.

"I'm sorry.I'm sorry...." Reyhan clenched tightly to Rara with tears flowing along.

Hikks..... Rara kept crying. Trying to rebel to escape from Reyhan's arms was useless, because Reyhan hugged him very tightly.

Reyhan closed his eyes with cheeks that were already soaked with tears, tightly wrapped his hands together, hugging Rara very tightly as if he would not let go for good.

'Cry Ra. now I'm here'

Rara literally cried until she was unable to say anything, she began as much as she could until it was hard to breathe. His body began to limp because of the energy that was almost spent to cry. But Reyhan's embrace seemed to restrain Rara from falling to the floor.

Keep going, keep crying, and keep crying. Rara vented all sorrow, pain, anger, and longing, into Reyhan's embrace. For a long time Rara cried really until as much as not talking anything, and of course this is the first time Reyhan saw Rara crying as much as she could, and it was because of her actions.

"I'm sorry I got you up to this" Reyhan kissed Rara's head that was leaning inside her chest.

Slowly, Rara's crying began to subside, sobbing began to decrease, her voice had begun to calm down, her breathing began to be regular. Rara put herself in Reyhan's arms.

When Rara was calm and there was no sound of sobbing anymore, Reyhan slowly let go of his embrace. Placing Rara's face right in front of him, but Rara's face continues to bow as if unwilling to look at Reyhan's face.

Reyhan grabbed Rara's chin with his finger, then slightly raised it slowly to be straight in his eyes. The anger on Rara's face began to collapse, but the sadness and pain was clearly visible in Rara's eyes which began to swell from continuing to cry. His eyes began to glaze over again.

Reyhan stared intently at Rara's eyes as if unblinking. Gently stroked Rara's face with her thumb. Sure enough, Rara shed her tears again, a sign showing all the wounds she had stored. Reyhan grabbed Rara's face and was about to kiss her on the lips, but Rara did look at her face. Apparently Rara is still reluctant to touch one of the sensitive parts. Reyhan could not do anything and just resigned.

"I'm sorry.." Again Reyhan can only say that. He really did not know what to say, and it was just that sentence that continued to haunt him in his heart and mind.

It may be true that men are speechless creatures. But that doesn't mean not to mean it. It was precisely because of his sincerity that made him speechless.

"Have you eaten?" finally Rara let out her voice, and the only thing that came out was that question, a familiar question, a question she almost asked Reyhan every day.

A wife will not let her husband go hungry. Moreover, seeing Reyhan who fell asleep in the wooden chair earlier, made Rara think that Reyhan was very tired.

"Let me order some food first" Rara exclaimed then walked to the table again to pick up her phone and order food through an online app. While waiting for food to come, Rara went into the bathroom to clean her body that had been around Jogja all day with Mela.

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After the two finished bathing alternately, then they had dinner together, the menu that had previously been ordered through online. While eating together, Rara really said nothing, not even looking at Reyhan at all. And Reyhan understands that.

As soon as dinner was over, the two decided to rest, Rara was already lying on the bed facing the wall. Of course they sleep one bed, because in the inn room only consists of one bed only.

Reyhan turned on the sleeping lights and turned off the headlights. He climbed into the bed and into the blanket. Reyhan approached Rara and of course hugged his wife who still did not want to talk much because of his mistake. As Reyhan hugged Rara from behind, Rara just fell silent and did not move anything, seeing her only speechless without rejection, Reyhan kissed the back of his wife's neck, and Rara was still speechless only to hear her breathing, like resigned.

"Honey.." whispered Reyhan in Rara's ear.

Of course Rara was still silent.

"Here, come here, face me." Reyhan said.

Unexpectedly, Rara obeyed Reyhan's wishes and immediately turned around.

Although there is only a little light from a dim sleep lamp, but it can be seen quite clearly that Rara's face was wet from crying. Reyhan directly rubbed Rara's cheek with his hand.

"If you haven't forgiven me, that's okay. But please, don't hate your selfish husband" Reyhan said.

"I'm sorry, who can't be a good wife and mother" Rara finally started talking while still crying.

"Sstt. I was wrong to blame you, which makes it clear that this is God's decree. I am a husband who can only hurt his wife. I'm sorry Ra..."

"I understand you did that because of my lies, I didn't mean to lie to you Reyhan. It's just that I'm just trying to give you space so you can spend time with your family and not want to worry you. I really didn't mean to lie to you, Reyhan.."

"I don't blame you either, it's just that I really don't like being lied to especially when it comes to your safety. Sorry for throwing my disappointment and anger at you. Sorry dear.. Never mind, don't cry anymore" Reyhan continued wiping away Rara's tears coming out again and again.

The two hugged each other, and Reyhan kissed his wife on the forehead occasionally.

"Rayhan...."

"Yes?"

"What about your dream?"

"meaning?" Reyhan was confused and immediately looked at Rara's face.

"You remember? when on the terrace of the apartment, when you invited me to get married, you had said that one of the reasons you chose me because you thought we came from the same family, not whole and lacking in affection. Then you want us to complement each other and make our children can feel the warmth of the family. But you know, now I have a hard time getting pregnant again Reyhan.."

"Darling is hard doesn't mean you can't"

"Reyhan.it took me a long time to get pregnant again, a long time Reyhan.."

"Ra. Anyone we can make a child. Many abandoned children that we can foster as our own children. But. a wife like you, there is only one on this earth. Ra.. getting children can be from anywhere, but getting a life partner like you, I have to be willing to be in the iced tea in front of my employees" apparently Reyhan began to slip his jokes hoping to calm Rara.

"Reyhan.." muttered Rara annoyed with a slight smile line on her lips.

Reyhan immediately hugged Rara again, and Rara also returned with a hug that was no less warm.

'I really don't know what it would be like if you didn't survive. I could not accept the situation, but I never regretted deciding that the doctor would save you from our child. Because now I realize, our son must be in the right place. And you are still where you should be, by my side. Rara. my wife, keep breathing, keep living with me, until we age, and till the ground is buried...' Reyhan.

'Reyhan's selfishness yesterday, not without reason. He also has the right to rebel against the lies I have committed. The other side I can take is that he did it because he loved our son so much. Now I know, the thing he hates the most is lies, for whatever reason. Although I was very hurt because of his words, but I also realized, he was the man who always tried to make me to breathe and be at his side. Although I felt tormented because of Reyhan, but I realized, Reyhan also healed him. And even so, I never thought about separating from him at all. Although each of us takes time to be alone, ultimately forgiving each other is the key to a relationship. I love you so much, my husband' Rara.

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