My ex, my husband
EPS 113 Quarrels
"Mba Rara. let auntie who prepares breakfast" said bi Ina when she saw Rara cooking in the kitchen when the sun was still shy to go out.
"It's okay bi.." replied Rara as one hand held her stomach and one hand stirred the soup that was being cooked.
"Mba Rara is still having stomach pain, Mba Rara has to rest a lot"
"It's not so sick bi, the stitches have also begun to dry. Yesterday Reyhan didn't want breakfast maybe because I was late, so today let me cook so Reyhan would eat"
"Yes.aunty wash clothes first yes"
"Yes bi"
At 06:10, chicken soup and omelet and tucked sambal are ready on the dinner table. Rara went upstairs to see Reyhan. Arriving at the room, Reyhan was standing in front of a mirror wearing his tie. Apparently Reyhan woke up earlier than usual and was even preparing to wear work clothes.
Rara walks over to Reyhan and tries to help Reyhan put on the tie.
"No need" Reyhan exclaimed stepping back and distancing his body.
Before long Reyhan took his bag and went straight out of the room and went down.
Rara was silent, she was shocked until her body leaned against the closet, and suddenly wanted to cry but held her back.
'It's not usually Reyhan like this'
Rara soon follows Reyhan to come downstairs, hoping to meet Reyhan at the dinner table, but it turns out the dining table is empty and the food is still untouched.
Rara ran out of the house with a slight pain holding the remaining stitches in her stomach. Rara saw Reyhan opening the car door and the gate was opened by Mr. Udin.
"Buck...." Rara called out to her husband. But Reyhan rushed into the car and immediately pulled out the car.
'If you don't want breakfast, at least let me kiss your hand first before you leave...'
'Mas.why are you like this'
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Ahhhhhhhh!!!!! BEG!!!
In the car, Reyhan hit the steering wheel with his hand. She cried.
Apparently when called Rara earlier, Reyhan heard but ignored her, and while running the car, from behind the glass Reyhan saw Rara standing with a sad face and still pale.
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At 08.30 am, Rara was ready to wear all black clothes. He went out to meet Mr. Udin who was standing guard in front.
"Where is Rara going?" asked Mr. Udin saw Rara was neat and approached him.
"Sir Udin knows where my son is buried? can you take me there?"
"Of course it could be Mba, but Mba Rara has to rest a lot at home"
"I'm better sir. Take me there, yeah"
"Good Mba"
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After traveling for almost half an hour, Rara finally arrived at a family funeral.
His legs felt heavy when he was about to get out of the car, but the desire in his soul that strengthened him to be able to meet the baby who was gone.
Step by step Rara walked, hugging the flowers she bought on the trip. Mr. Udin walked in front of Rara to lead the place. Arriving in a small land with flowers on it, even the flowers look fresh as if someone had just come on a pilgrimage. Stamped with a tombstone bearing the name 'Raga Putra Juansar' .
Rara cried reading it. Mr. Udin who stood a little away from Rara was only speechless allowing his young master's wife to cry before his son's grave.
Of course it is one of the few names Reyhan and Rara have ever discussed for their son, apparently Reyhan chose that name to give to their son.
Rara knelt down and put the flowers she was carrying. Gently stroked the tombstone and occasionally kissed it.
'You must have met Uncle Obie there'
Rara covered her mouth with her palm, apparently she was already unable to resist the sound of sobs.
'Forgive me, son, I'm sorry I didn't take good care of you. I'm sorry, son, sorry...'
'Aarrgghhhh.' Why don't I just take Tuhaaanann...'
Rara cried as she hugged the tombstone.
I don't know how many tens of minutes Rara cried kneeling in the tomb of her beloved son. To the extent that it feels like the tears have run out so that they can not come out again, the voice even thins because of the sobbing sobs.
Seeing Rara's increasingly chaotic situation in addition to the scorching Sun, Mr. Udin was worried about Rara's health and approached Rara, persuading Rara to go home and Rara agreed. Not forgetting before they left, they prayed together for the little one and also Rara slipped the name Obie in her prayer.
Once in the car and Rara was quiet enough. Pak Udin offered Rara to eat, because from morning Rara had not eaten. Rara refused.
"Sir Udin.. Why did the flowers that were scattered earlier look fresh?" rara asked in a limp voice as she almost ran out of energy from crying.
"Every morning, Mr. Udin bought flowers on orders of Mas Reyhan, Mba. Looks like Mas Reyhan always took the time to the tomb before Mas Reyhan left for the office"
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Since Rara's return from the hospital, almost every day Reyhan comes home from work late at night. So that makes Rara have to eat dinner alone at the dining table. At 21:05 Reyhan arrived home, and he did not eat, since he often came home late, Reyhan was almost never touch Rara's cooking, Rara said, he always answered to have eaten every meal in question or not, and when the morning Reyhan did not make breakfast, whether it was bi Ina cuisine or Rara cuisine though.
Reyhan came home from work and went into the room without saying a word, he was more silent. Even enter the room just to shower and change clothes. After that he immediately went downstairs, sitting in the living room while facing his laptop to continue his work. Even lately Reyhan often fell asleep on the sofa in the middle room, either because of fatigue due to work to sleep or indeed deliberately not to sleep in the room with Rara, I don't know. Clearly, Rara sensed that Reyhan was moving away from her and making some distance between them.
In the room, again and again, Rara's chest hurt, especially in the chest. Such circumstances are enough to make Rara accustomed because it is not the first time, it indicates that Asi Rara must be pumped immediately. And immediately Rara took the breast milk pump stored on her bedside shelf and immediately pumped the acid. Asi Rara is quite good, and Rara always keeps it when it is finished at the pump. Although he himself does not know what his purpose is stored, which sometimes makes him always remember his son, which ends he himself will cry when he remembers it.
As the day wore on, Rara looked at the clock at 23:14, but Reyhan did not enter the room.
'Did he fall asleep again downstairs?'
Rara went downstairs to check on her husband. Looks kitchen lights and other spaces are dark, there is only light from the middle room that is still lit. And sat a man on the couch who was still busy with his laptop.
"Mas.. are you still working?" rara asked when she reached the end of the lower stairs and walked over to her husband.
Reyhan did not answer.
"Mas..it's night, let's go to sleep" asked Rara.
Reyhan still did not answer but buzzed his head to look for a moment Rara who stood near the middle room table, then looked at her laptop again.
"Mas.continue again tomorrow at the office, you have to take a break" Rara said while trying to close her husband's laptop screen.
"What the hell are you!" reyhan exclaimed while fending off Rara's hand that touched her laptop.
Rara surprised.
"I still have a lot of work. If you want to rest, just rest first!" reyhan continued with a tone that could be said to be snapping.
"Mas..why are you?" rara's voice still sounded soft and tried to stay calm even though her eyes were already glazed.
Reyhan only looked sharply and then turned his gaze to his laptop again.
Rara took a breath and exhaled slowly.
"Why don't you ever take me to our son's grave?" Rara finally asked that.
"Care if you're the same as him" Reyhan said.
"What??? why are you talking like that?" Rara was quite shocked to hear Reyhan's reply.
Reyhan quiet.
"Mas.i'm her mother"
"Mother?? which mother lets her child be tormented in the womb?" Reyhan buzzed his head and looked at Rara's face, a look of anger began to appear on Reyhan's face.
"Tortured? letting? what do you mean?" Rara's confused.
Reyhan stood up and faced Rara.
"Still lying? da?! you fell down, didn't you when I went to Japan? the bruise on your forehead wasn't due to a kitchen cabinet bump, was it?!" Reyhan began to raise his voice, apparently he was already unable to contain his anger.
Rada speechless.
"Why? why silent? let's answer.answer!" Reyhan is challenging.
From the lower room near the kitchen, bi Ina and Mr. Udin woke up to hear a commotion. Apparently Reyhan and Rara quarrel hard enough to wake bi Ina and Pak Udin.
"Sir.it seems like Mas Reyhan and Mba Rara are fighting. How is this sir" bi Ina worried.
"It's mom, let it go. We don't go out. This is their business, we cannot interfere ma'am" replied Udin.
"But Sir....."
For some reason, suddenly Rara's body felt hot, her chest began to clench.
"Mas.sorry.I don't mean to lie, it's just..."
"What only? uh huh? keep what does that mean? what?!"
"Mas..after that I've checked with the doctor and I'm fine.."
"It was okay back then, but you know what the long effect was?! what consequences?! did you check it carefully and routinely?! that's one of the reasons our son didn't survive. If you hadn't been lying, I would have taken you to the doctor every day. But you chose to lie to me. So this is the end!" scream Reyhan.
"Mas..are you blaming me?" Rara started to shed tears.
"Who else do you think is more worthy of my blame?!" Reyhan looked at Rara.
Rara was silent unexpectedly.
"Reyhan.if I could choose.. I'd better be the one who died. But I realized, I'm not God, Reyhan.." In Reyhan's presence, Rara shed her tears profusely, then turned around and stepped upstairs, into the room, but not his room, but his son's.
Rara locked herself in the room, sitting on the floor hugging her knees, crying.
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