My Ambitious Husband's

pseudo happiness (Almeera)

One week I have not met the man I love so much and one week I tried to bury my feelings for him because after all, the happiness of Azka is the most important even though my heart hurts I have to keep trying to be happy.

"Al .. what all the bread is ripe," the voice of the kake surprised me this morning

I had planned from the beginning if indeed this time arrived then I wanted to open my own business and because of my fondness for cakes and all sweet-smelling foods then I set up a small business opening small the pastry shop is far from the bustle of the capital at least I hope my current busyness can help me escape from the shadow of an azka son of mahardika. At first I thought I could stay around the capital and stay in my house, but it turned out to be very difficult if almost every corner reminded me of the azka figure that once filled my days, until finally I choose to go from all the things that make me remember the azka and here I am, in a beautiful small town accompanied by my brother kevin.

"Oh yes, please bring it forward."

"Don't daydream, isn't all this what makes you happy" Kake rubbed the top of my head while smiling kindly as usual

"Yes I'm so happy brother," that's the mantra I always say even though this happiness still feels very pseudo.

I always hope that everything I do today can bring me back to true love and happiness because however my feelings of love for the azka cannot be eliminated in the slightest and there is no feeling at all I hated him for 5 months. I don't know maybe this is what is meant blind because love proof to this day I still hope faithfully and reluctantly dispel my love for azka, I closed my heart too much to other men although not infrequently some of my best friends and being friendly and showing interest in me but unfortunately my heart did not accept all that my heart seemed to have been imprinted on me one name of azka son of mahardika.

Although the busyness of every day here is able to divert the thoughts and sadness of my heart but not if the day goes up at night and I find myself back alone again feeling tightness and regret in the chest for my own decisions.

"Dad ... What am I doing right?" I stroked the photo of my father and mother that I deliberately brought in addition to the violin and very important items that could indeed allow to be carried.

"Is everything I do just in vain?"I muttered with tears that accompanied me every night

"I want to see him dad, I want to see him"

"It hurts so much because I love him so much" I muttered with sobbing tears

Every day when I see a pair of lovers I always hope to be in the same position to love each other and complement each other. Sometimes I always wish Azka could find me here, I wish Azka was in front of me looking for me and saying she loves me, she loves me, although it only became limited to wishful thinking for me because in reality almost 2 weeks had not changed at all, all still remained the same fixed on what should be.

"You must be strong Al, all for the sake of his happiness." I'm shriveled

Every day I try to bury my feelings for the azka, but it all feels in vain because the more I try to bury my feelings the more I feel.

2 Weeks I have been away from the capital as long as my sense of longing keeps me tight even though I always try to look strong but I don't think my heart is as strong as my current body. Every time I think about my birthday, it hurts more and more as if it was all over as if I could never accomplish it.

"Al ... the cake was burnt," the cake approached me in haste and pulled out the barbecue from the oven

"Oh my goodness, I'm sorry I forgot the cake,"my own pain and as soon as possible I made a new batch of dough

Kake didn't seem to want to respond to anything I could see he just looked at me with a hard look I was trying my best to avoid the kake I could make sure he wouldn't let me at the moment. I don't know for now I just don't want to get too late in the sadness even though I'm still trying or I don't want this love to go away.

"Where is my sister going?"without looking at Kake I tried to control my voice that was trembling because this was the first time I lived alone in an environment that was foreign to me

"So, there's not much business and I promise you that after everything is done, you'll come right back here." Kake approached and turned my body slowly until my position faced him at this time

"No promise?"finally my tears broke remembering I was going to be alone and recalling the bitter reality that made my heart cramped

"Sister princess promise, don't cry okay everything will be fine,"kake wiped my tears gently and pulled me in his arms

I just nodded with tears flowing back. Right now only brother kevin can always get me through my days only brother kevin knows all my heart even if I don't say it though.

"Sister is sure you're the princess of a strong sister, so sister hopes you stay strong and happy with what you're choosing right now Al."

"I'll always try." My voice sounded raucous in Kevin's big brother's arms at this moment

"Well brother get ready first, promise me your brother will always be strong and fine as long as you leave?"kake loosened his embrace and looked at me gently

"Al promise." I tried to smile between my tears this morning

Finally after a short time Kake was ready and was about to leave me alone in a foreign place even though everyone was very friendly here but I still felt alone not because I was reluctant to socialize but more on my heart is still not fully improved.

"So don't go take good care of yourself Al!"said soft kake while peeping at the top of my head

"Both brother and sister be careful!"I slowly pushed my back to leave because if the longer the kake was near me then the more I could not hold my cry at this time.

With a slightly reluctant look Kake still stepped away and entered the car with a gaze that looks very worried to see the water mataki that has been sliding at this time.

Finally when the car kake increasingly visible away then the more bitter also my cry at this time.

"please don't put too much forward all my happiness, pursue the happiness of my brother for me." I cried softly interrupted by the roaring cry I hit the chest slowly which was increasingly tight.

I understand very well what kevin wants and what hope kevin has in his heart. But every time I told him not to think too much about my happiness then he firmly rejected all my wishes on the grounds of wanting to see me happy. I couldn't say anything more in the end because in fact if Kake behaved like he is today then it hurts my heart to see him as he is today.

Kevin and I love each other but we understand how we feel. We just love each other like a sister to her brother and vice versa.