
I don't know how many hours I've been asleep in the living room after crying every sobbing considering how gently azka treats rania in front of my own wife.
I always think I deserve to be angry or should I just ask what you do after I'm gone but I don't think that's all that's possible
If you knew if Azka understood I mean actually my desire if I could express everything I know.
My head was too heavy just to think about what would happen to my heart next.
I was quite surprised to see the clock showing at 7pm and I saw absolutely no signs of azka in this house.
"I think I should get dinner ready soon" I muttered, trying to get out of bed
A moment I entered the kitchen all the food was on the dining table
"Bi why cooking didn't I tell you how to cook my job bi" I said hello in the kitchen
"It's not okay that non-aunty was willing to wake up non but non looks very tired" replied bi imah
"Thank you so much bi" I replied, trying to smile
Just now I was about to start my dinner when azka suddenly appeared from the front with a smile that never faded from his face and I could make sure his mood was very good and very inversely proportional to me.
"Azka have you had dinner?"askaku raahu
"Ah I've eaten outside Al so just continue eating you thank you" she replied in passing and hurried off to her room
For the umpteenth time my dinner was bland.
Is azka can not appreciate me at all a little as a wife why everything is too heavy I think for him.
I have to stay strong at least after all the companies and everyone under the fuzieyama group is safe.
In the morning as usual I always cook breakfast for me and azka.
"Tumben once azka has not been out of his room what I tried to call it yes it feels like he never got up late in the morning."
Tok tok tok tok
I tried to knock on the door of the room and there was no answer at all
I tried knocking for the second time but there was still no answer from inside, as I started to worry then I finally decided to enter.
Chequelek
I continued to circle every corner of the room occupied by azka just to see what azka keeps all this time.
My gaze stopped right on the frame that was stored on the bedside table there I could see there were some photos that were deliberately stored, azka save, I could see there fhoto azka and rania in various angles and immediately my eyes warmed up I finally cried at that moment when I saw there was 1 photo that was kept separate from some other photos, and then I was crying at that moment when I saw there was 1 photo,there is a photo of azka kissing rania cheek and I can see the radiance of love in the eyes of azka just for rania.
It hurts so bad why to love must be this sick father why I must love a azka why this feeling must be present for the azka why should I who can not win the heart of azka.I cry terggugu
I can no longer keep my feet.
"I have to get out of this place" I said
When he was about to step foot out, Azka appeared from the bathroom
"Al's?what are you doing in my room, Al?"that was the question that surprised me
I jumped in shock and brushed away the rest of my tears
"I just want to take you breakfast azka" without turning around I answered the azka question in a raucous voice.
When I was one step away from the azka room I could feel my hand being pulled and very suddenly we were facing each other in the end
"Are you crying Al?" That is the question I avoid
"Well, how could I cry this chastisement I think your room is dusty azka so please be diligent to clean" Iaksa laughed answering azka questions even though I believe my laughter sounded very discordant
Without waiting for a response I immediately rushed to the dining room because I thought I would not be able to if I had to look at the scenery in the azka room longer.
It was still early in the morning that it was already very heavy if it concerned the human heart.
If I am left to choose between working without pause or winning the heart of azka then I will gladly choose to work without pause but I cannot blame the feeling that without permission has taken hold of my heart my feelings for the chastisement that has filled all the recesses of my heart, my feeling for the chastisement that reigns in my heart.
"What for Al from today do I go to your office Al?"
"Yes azka today uncle zack has prepared all the requirements and what you need as a leader"
"All right I won't let you down"
"It's okay that we both try so you don't have to be too burdened and still be yourself"
I answered without the spirit that I knit last night all seemed to go yawning without rest just because continuously without pause I was pulled back to the fact that the heart of azka is only for a rania.
I saw Azka had no intention of responding to my words that I saw she was just looking at me expressionlessly.