My Ambitious Husband's

chapter 26's

When not finding azka in this house negative thoughts began to appear alternately and of course it greatly weakened the defense that I had tried to build.

"Don't wait for him Al even though azka is your husband but you must remember azka's heart still belongs to rania" I kept trying to strengthen myself to expel all negative thoughts that had a very bad impact on my heart

With a weakened step I entered the one room that I specialized with all the relics of father and mother, and, in this room there is an ivory-white piano and a matching violin surrounded by several photos of my togetherness with my father and mother that stick beautifully on every wall of the room somehow every entering this room I feel like mom and dad are always next to me.

I walked around every corner of the room with the occasional press of the piano keys as I passed by. every time I play the piano or the violin in this room I feel that my father and mother beside me always give me a warm smile of their spirit that I never see and get again when I'm outside.

I started playing a song from da-ice called boku no kiseki because I hoped that there was one miracle that could make me realize my father's wishes quickly without anyone getting hurt in the future.

"Dad if there would be a miracle even a little for me" my heart

I play the piano with my mind always fixed on my father and mother because only this is where I can feel my father and mother stroking and touching the top of my head like when I was little father and mother would be very happy to see me finish one song in one game of my piano.

"I see I can always play it until the last note and I see your little girl is always able to finish one song in one piano play and father's promise to always give me a gift I want her now dad"

"I want a miracle here Dad I want everything to go the way you should"

I cried awkwardly at least for today just let me cry I just want to go back to being a little girl father and mother I just want to go back to feeling all the affection of father and mother for me at home this is at least only in this room I want to be myself showing myself who is not as strong as it seems.

Tuts for keys I press produce a heartbreaking tone because I think every piano game is the content of the heart of a pianist itself so it is not easy every time I play the piano then everyone who hearing it will always understand what I feel.

Dad had said if I was sad then never play the piano because it does not reflect an almeera fuzieyama when basically I was just a very fragile woman a woman who in the end requires a backrest and cannot stand alone.

"What I have to do about his doom and his feelings, I just want to see him happy dad I want to see a man I love so much can find his happiness even though it's not with me even though dad"my inner heart kept screaming

Moreover, what I have to do to keep the azka keep all the sincere feelings of azka whether I really should be hated by him I think I will never be able to for that proof the more demanding my feelings on the azka.

On whom should I blame all this to whom should I hold responsibility for my own feelings. Isn't feeling not to blame because basically my own weakness and selfishness are to blame.

Is loving you the choice God gave you to realize your father's wishes and protect you? if it is, then as much as I love you, I will still love you. Because only in this way can I protect both of them despite the pain I always get in the end then I will protect the azka by hurting myself.