My Ambitious Husband's
chapter 35's
I tried to deny and strengthen my heart if the envelope in my hand was not the thing I feared. With trembling hands I tried to open a brown envelope that read an official letter from the court.
The heart and the little hope that I want all melted down unbroken my chest tightness it feels like my heart was hit by a big rock that surely this heart will not return intact even in the order of return.
I cried in silence through the heartache that spread to all parts of my body because of the official divorce letter between me and the azka that had been prepared exactly 1 month after our marriage.
"Are you unable to feel my feelings, have these feelings never been conveyed to you" I cried bitterly at the letter in my hand
The most bitter fact that makes me not want to live my life again is that Azka never wanted this marriage at all and all she did just because of her ambition for rania.
With a somersault I went out and went to the room where I could hug my father and mother there.
I walked slowly dragging my feet which felt very heavy I brought with me a divorce letter that I submitted 1 month ago to save until the time comes, I tried not to cry again and tried to become a strong fuzieyama almeera again, but all that I could never do because right when entering this music room tears back racing to wet the cheeks and tightness that is increasingly inevitable.
I walked around all my memorable photos with my parents, if I can choose then I want to go back at the beginning of the time before getting married with azka because at least I won't feel this much pain.
I kept the envelope with our divorce papers in the closet where I kept all my valuables from my father and mother at least until my 24th birthday.
"Dad mother will my true story be this complicated?"I muttered softly in front of the photo of my parents who were accompanied by a clear crystal circle that never receded
"Dad, would there be a man like you who would take care of me and love me like you who loves you so much" I rubbed my smiling father's photo staring at me warmly
I walked back to every corner of the room until I stopped right in front of my mother's violin. Without thinking anything I grabbed the ivory-white violin and played it.
"Mother is happy mother loved by father?"
"I want to be like a mother who loves you so much"
I kept muttering small questions in between my violin game accompanied by tears.
For some reason considering the fact that Azka who really wants a divorce and marries rania feels like I am required to bury deeply all my feelings for an azka son of mahardika.
I will try to restore the position of azka to rania if indeed the happiness of azka is a rania then I will let my feelings buried deep and I will not remember anymore because after all the happiness of azka is a priority for me.
Without feeling after much crying I fell asleep in this room hugging the photos of my parents hoping my heart would be comforted to have them as my parents.
Tok tok tok tok
The sound of knocking on the door woke me up. I squirm uncomfortably because I fell asleep on a sofa that was only 3/4 of my body length. With a feeble step I opened the door and found the priestess who was emanating with a confused look.
"Why do you see me like that?"
"I'm just worried that the lady all day, she's not out of this room at all, even for lunch, and even now if the aunt doesn't wake the lady, then the dinner will miss the miss"
"What time is it?"
"It's almost 9, miss"
And the answer to the successful faith made me realize and drowsiness that I think has disappeared since then.
"Why did my new aunt wake me up" I hurriedly walked out of my private room
"Sorry miss aunty just doesn't want to bother you" the imah seemed to be hasty following my steps
"I'm sorry Mr. Azka hasn't even returned yet"
Deg
The answer that was said bi imah successfully made my step stop and made me limp instantly.
"Miss is Miss okay?"bi imah seemed worried about my situation which suddenly squeezed and leaned against the wall
"I'm fine bi, please prepare a warm sweet tea for me tonight" without looking at the imah bi I tried to step away towards my room.
"Didn't want to eat something because from noon you haven't eaten anything"
"No need bi I just want a warm sweet tea tonight" I hurried back up my legs towards the room.
Silence in the room did not make me feel better because all the thoughts and pain came together made me just stare at the ceiling of the room with a blank stare without any tears. I do not know what exactly I feel because I am too hurt or too disappointed in myself who can not keep azka from rania.
Tok tok tok tok
Without answering I opened the door and showed her the booze with a tray containing a cup of warm sweet tea and my favorite chocolate pancakes.
"This lady aunty made her favorite pancakes because she's worried that she hasn't eaten anything since noon"
"Thank you very much bi" I received a tray from the hand of the priest with a trembling hand holding all the pain felt tight to the heart.
I stared without interest at my favorite sweet teas and chocolate pancakes because everything was suddenly as bland and I reluctantly ate the pancakes because however I should not be sick and succumbed to my heart because of my body it can't be as strong as my heart right now.
Bribe after bribe I intend to spend my favorite chocolate pancakes with a very slow eating tempo until without feeling half an hour I spend one of my favorite pancakes and at that time the door to the room opens the figure that this day confiscated my sanity.
"I'm sorry I came home too late Al"azka approached me
"What's wrong, have you had dinner?"I answered without spirit
"I've had dinner so you don't have to worry" Azk replied by passing to the side of the closet and looking for something
"Are you looking for your suitcase, Azka?"
"Well, haven't I kept it next to your closet, Al?"azka looks confused looking for her suitcase
"I've moved it into the closet and your own suitcase has been stored in the corner there" I explained in an uninspired tone
"Well why you should bother like that Al, but thank you so much"azka looked so happy
"You look so happy tonight" I tried to ventured to ask you what news made my prayer so happy
"Well, what is so clearly visible to Al?"
"Yes very clearly seen" I smiled smirkingly
"I think you already know very well Al plus cafe A&R which has been very advanced as much as you promised. Thank you"azka seemed excited to tell me all that tonight
"I am happy for you azka"only the answer and the smile I can give for the azka tonight remember all the words of the azka that I believe the closer the marriage between azka and rania.
