My Ambitious Husband's

chapter 38's

After my meeting with tom I was going to go back home because I thought if I went back to the office then everything would weaken me even more.

With as usual I do all my activities in general preparing dinner and all the needs for the azka although sometimes in the end the food was never touched but I still prepare it just to busy myself and divert the attention of the heart that is always dominated by my own ego.

From day to day I always try to prepare my heart and prepare myself with all the possibilities I try to build a defensive shield for myself even though I'm not sure if it will keep me strong or vice versa because if it is about the affairs of the heart then it cannot be said trivial.

"Assalammualaikum" the greeting from the voice that made me even sadder suddenly sounded in this house

"Greetings waalaikum" I ran towards the front door to greet my in-laws

Well that came unexpectedly today was my own mother-in-law. I always feel sad considering that I have hurt her by betraying her trust I have hurt the surrogate mother with my own silly game.

"What's the news dear"mama always kissed me on the cheek every time we met

"Alhamdulillah Al baik mah,mari enter" I took over the mamah bag and held it to enter the fuzieyama dwelling which again cooled

"Oh yeah is azka home yet?"

"Not yet may be any moment, mamah qo did not say come to visit?"

"Mamah deliberately wants to give a surprise plus mamah misses this good mother-in-law"mamah replied while hugging me tightly

"I'm sorry Al mah"that's why I suddenly cried in my arms

"Sstt don't apologize Al you are already very perfect to be an azka companion"mamah rubbed the tears that came down my cheek

"Thank you very much mah" in the end only a thank you can say to mamah

"Oh yeah are you cooking?"

"Yes, Al was cooking dinner"

"Your help is Al"

"Eh don't want to mamah mamah break will run out long journey"

"Nothing dear mama likes to cook so it won't cape"

"Alright, I'm very grateful that you helped"

Finally I also cooked dinner with the help of mamah until without feeling the time has exceeded the schedule of the azka return from the office.

"Nah Al try you call azka, tell him to quickly go home a wife as beautiful as you qo ya diiarin aja"mamah a little joking though very slapping my heart

"Ahaha alright mah Al call first" I replied with a stiff smile

The first telephone connection was completely no answer from azka so continued until it reached the fifth time only azka answered the phone from me even with a tone that sounded sniffy.

"Azka I'm sorry if I'm bothering you but I just wanted to tell you, mamah came to visit and we finished preparing dinner and mamah expects you to come home soon for dinner together"

"All right"

That is the only answer to all my words for azka, well I sometimes want to be selfish but all just wishful thinking will not be real.

30 Minutes later, the sound of a car roar entered the yard and I believe it was azka.

"Greetings waalaikum" I unknowingly greeted him with a smile as usual

"Why don't you tell me if you came to visit?"azka touched the hand of the woman who gave birth to her solemnly

"You all want to go to a meeting in the area around here tomorrow so today you want to stay here"

"All right tomorrow azka deliver mamah to the place of friend mamah y"

"Yes, I want to let us eat dinner first your wife has prepared all the azka"

Azka seemed to be staring at me without a warm expression as usual. And quickly rushed towards the room to clean up.

Finally the atmosphere of our dinner there were only chats that were started by my mother-in-law because neither I nor Azka seemed to want to open the chat as usual the rest of us just be a listener by occasionally responding as necessary.

After I finished cleaning up all the leftovers and washing all the dirty dishes after our dinner, I rushed to the room just to avoid all the suave questions regarding our wedding.

When I got to the front door of the room somehow my body shook and was not able to just turn the door knob. I tried to throw a rough breath and neutralize the heart beating crazily in fear with all the reality that was welcoming behind this door. Withstanding the turmoil of my heart I still tried to enter even though I already knew what would welcome me.

I circled all my eyes to the corner of the room looking for the azka figure that made my heart ache more and more, I did not find the azka in the room only felt the wind blowing from the open balcony and I believe that is where the azka tonight. I tried not to make any noise to avoid an azka because however I would not be ready if there were any questions regarding our marriage. But unfortunately when I was about to climb the bed Azka was not far behind me.

"There's something I want to ask you Al"azka surprised me and made me look back at the azka

I was too surprised to respond to the words of the azka without the cue of the azka pulling my hand and taking me to the balcony.

"Azka please let go of my hand" I tried to let go of my hand held hard by azka

"Listen I just wanted to ask"azka seemed to be getting tighter pressing on my wrist until my wrist felt sore

"Please let go of the punishment you hurt me"that's why I cried realizing the harshness of the demeanor on me tonight

Azka seemed to loosen her arms and was surprised to see me crying

"I'm sorry Al"

"You know the real azka who should be apologizing is I'm not you" I tried to smile between my tears tonight

Azka's forehead seemed to frown in incomprehension

"Whatever happens in the end please give me a little sense of your faith" I still cry with eyes that look deep into the sky

"I don't mind if in the end you'll hate me so much but may I ask for a little bit of your trust for me a punishment" I looked into his eyes asking the azka for a purposeful remark I repeated

"You know all humans must always have a reason for everything they do, right" I still dominate our conversation tonight

Azka was still silent and only heard my every word

"Either what uncle Ardhan said at your meeting the other day but clearly after that day everything was different again"I cried looking at Azka with all the words I was sure azka wouldn't understand where I was going tonight

"I always wish and believe in myself if you're just tired and overworked in the office, I always try to stay as long as you ignore me I always try to think positive all this time at least I hope tomorrow Azka will be warm to me again. You know for some reason the more I try to hope the colder the attitude you're showing me"

"But I still want to thank you at least you've still been friendly to me the last 2 months, I don't want to be selfish forcing you azka, I know enough myself to see you trying to open up and trying to be friendly all along that's more than enough for me" I smiled wryly in my tears

Azka did not say anything she just pulled me into her arms and hugged me tightly which in the end made my cry even more innocent.