Muhasabah Love

Rival Plan

Myria's shoulders were shaking. His body was unable to lie while enduring the cries. He was willing to smother his mouth so as not to make a sound, but failed.

In the back, Angkasa was still standing upright with a broom in hand. No orders came out of his mouth anymore. He kept staring at the wife's back which was now slightly open.

"Would you tell your father if I really did, Myria?"

Myria shook her head weakly. "No."

"Why? Aren't you going to get some protection?"

"As long as I'm your wife, you have every right to do anything when I'm wrong. I will not complain or seek protection as long as you do not go out of bounds. You are my husband, taking care of your marwah is my duty. A husband is a dress for his wife, and vice versa. I'm sincere, Kasa."

Although his wife did not turn around and continued to sob, Angkasa could still hear Myria's words clearly. The 28-year-old man took one step forward and stood behind his wife.

"Stand up and close your eyes!"

Without the help of Angkasa, Myria stood up and remained on her back. Then, he closed his eyes according to the will of Space. Nothing happened for a few seconds, but after that, the strong embrace coming from behind Myria could feel.

Myria was silent, just like Angkasa. The man tightly locked his lips and only left a trail of kisses on his neck and head repeating as the embrace tightened.

"My anger is gone if it's been spitting at you" said Angkasa after hundreds of seconds of spinning.

Myria remained silent in the embrace. His tears slowly receded and a light sobbing remained. His white face had been flushed with puffy eyes and a runny nose. However, Angkasa still hugs without objection if his clothes are dirty.

"sorry. Though I was ready to get sick if you really hit it earlier." Myria's voice sounded soft.

The face that was originally tense and red was extinguished it began to comment on a smile. Each breath, Angkasa adds pressure in hugging to stifling.

"Where can I make the hand that should make your hand to Heaven later, the hand to make a living, the hand that makes you hug this will be made to hit? I can't, Habibati. I don't want my every move to be cursed by God and the Angel because I'm wrong with you."

"That's it, don't talk about it anymore. Sorry if I wanted you from earlier. About Mama, I'll talk to her."

"Mothers don't say anything, kok, Ka."

Angkasa loosened his hug, then looked at the face of Myria that was in front of his chest.

The black haired woman looked up and continued to tell, "I started the story. Mother is nothing like me. He was the one who made me when my curses were over. Mother said, no pa-pa has not had children, but I did think. I feel wrong with Mother and Papa too. They get grandchildren only from you."

Myria's speech made Angkasa sigh. There was just the behavior of the woman he married in looking for trouble. Others may have avoided things in the household, but Myria was just the opposite.

"I bit your cheek ...."

"Aw, aow! Gauze!" Myria patted Angkasa's chest hard enough for her husband to stop. "I'm not a bakpao, if laper eats rice downstairs."

Lumattan lightning granted Angkasa to Myria's sweet lips. "Eat it, so people don't eat gini. I swear, my wife is really good at testing patience."

Last blow, now replace the pinch given by Myria to the chest of Angkasa until her husband briefly complained.

"From the beginning it has been said that no ne-think mulu. There is something to think about. This is the head if you can say, must have asked for mercy mulu because it is crammed with a lot of bad things."

Myria cannot argue. He just took his eyes off and was busy playing buttoned shirts.

Myria wavers and asks to go down, but Angkasa ignores her.

"Mandy! It was late afternoon" Angkasa said as he stepped into the bathroom. He needed a soak and asked for a massage to reduce his fatigue.

***

The dining table is dominated by silence. Mr. Aji several times glanced at his son-in-law and son, but the two grown children were silent to each other. Wanting to ask, he held it down and chose to postpone it.

"How long haven't I asked you about work, what's your business at the office, Kasa?" Rather than the atmosphere continuing to be quiet and strange, Mr. Aji was pleasantry about something else.

Space put the spoon for a moment. "Alhamdulillah smoothly. Is Papa retiring this year?"

There's a line of smiles on Mr. Aji's face. Years changed, he had indeed been in Kalastra Group for a long time and should have rested long ago. However, because of the workings that are always reliable, the board of directors always extend the tenure of Mr. Aji rather than bother to appoint new people.

"Papa wants it so. I can stay home with my mom. Especially if there are grandchildren, maybe play with your children. But this plan will be discussed with your in-laws and all the directors to make a decision."

A granddaughter? Myria's heart was clouded again hearing that. All his movements stopped and immediately lowered.

Madam Nasita who was sitting opposite Myria immediately hurriedly reminded the husband. "Pa, if Papa retires, being at home with Mama seems like it's been fun enough. We can nurture love in youth, right?"

Mr. Aji who was not aware of his words was still relaxed. Mrs Nasita has not been able to give any news so she feels there is nothing to worry about.

The smile on the old face grew. Mr. Aji's hand immediately grasped the wife's. "Of course, Ma. Papa is always happy with Mama."

Not much different from the father's attitude, Angkasa also immediately grasped Myria's hand. The man cleared his throat, then took a breath and said, "Pa, Ma, I want to talk seriously."

The mood turned serious again. The attention of Mr. Aji and Mrs Nasita leads to Angkasa.

"A few months ago we went to the gynecologist because we wanted a pregnancy program. But the doctor said there's something that's making it difficult for us to have children in the near future."

Mr. Aji was a little surprised to hear his son's confession. He turned to his wife again and Mrs Nasita's response was just a slow nod as code to stay calm.

"The history of depression and anti-depressant drugs that I still often consume makes the movement of sperm-ma slow down." Angkasa continued to say, "As a result, fertilization is difficult to occur. The obstetrician suggested I consult again with Psychiatry so that I can release this drug completely. And these two months I've been in secret therapy without Mama and Papa knowing. Sorry if I had to hide this. About grandchildren, I hope Mama and Papa are patient again."

The two Space elders instantly kept silent. They were shocked, but could do nothing but support the child.

Myria beside Angkasa was still clenching her lips. However, because he did not want to charge the problem as if it was just centered on Space, he raised his voice. "Pa, it's not just Kasa who's in trouble. Myria as well."

"Darling!" Space immediately interrupts.

However, Myria continued, "Myria took the HSG test yesterday. And as a result, there's a blockage in the left fallopian tube. This means that it's harder to conceive if you rely on just one ovary."

Everyone's appetite suddenly disappeared. A long-lasting silence surrounded and each of them was busy with the same mood. Equally sad.

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