Muhasabah Love

Namira shock

"You still ask Hanifa? My son died, it was because of your son Namira! Had Malik not gone with him, Malik might still be alive today!" Shouted Sintia.

"Ma. istighfar ma. they know nothing about this. don't blame people constantly.." The Imam Malik's father.

"Just wild! Let them know, if this is all because of their son. It's all Namira's fault.. Namira made Malik this way!" Shouted Hysterical Synthia.

Hanifah and Abdullah looked at each other. They understand the state of Sintia. Who wouldn't be sick if the only child was gone forever. They were silent and did not answer Sintia's words. Abdullah took his wife home. They also say goodbye to the Imam.

"I'm sorry about my wife's attitude sir.I hope you and your father can understand." Malik.

"Yes, Mr. Imam, I understand the condition of Mother Sintia now.." Hanifa.

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It's been a week Namira's been in the hospital. Namira's condition has improved. The doctor allowed Namira to be treated at home. Namira's father and mother are grateful that Namira has been allowed to go home.

"Alhamdulillah, finally, you can go home too son.. I'm glad to hear that.." Hanifa. Namira just smiled. Although Namira is allowed to go home, but Namira feels there is less. Namira's eyes look like they're looking for something.

"Namira? Are you not happy?" Ask Namira's father.

"Why son? You seem to be looking for something.." Ask her mother too.

"Where's Malik? And which baby is my baby? Why was it that while I was in the hospital Mas Malik never visited me? And why was my baby never delivered to me by a nurse, or a doctor?" Ask Namira. Namira's father and mother did not answer Namira's questions. They are confused as to what and how. In their hearts, they wanted to tell the truth. However, they are not up to the heart for it. Moreover, Namira has just returned from the hospital, and his condition is still not recovered. They also had to lie.

"Dad, Mom. Why are you quiet? What husband and son?" Ask Namira again.

"Namira's.. Malik can't keep you in the hospital.. Because Malik has a sudden business, son.. Malik's on assignment out of town.. And Malik has said goodbye to Mom and Dad really.. right sir?" Say Hanifah to her husband while giving a code to say yes.

"Yes.." Answer while nodding.

"Certainly, where is my son?" Ask Namira again. Again, they are also confused about what to answer and find the right reason.

"Look Namira.your baby is born prematurely.so, it can not be visited by anyone before.and, your baby is safe kok Namira.your baby also needs special care, too, leave it all to the nurses and the doctors.." Said his father was lying.

"But, I'm his mother.I deserve to look at my son.." Say Namira again.

"Yes, you are entitled to your child.It is not that they do not allow you to visit your baby.. I hope you understand, son?" Say Hanifah again. Namira nodded in understanding.

Namira, however, remained sad. She has not been able to meet her husband and son.

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Arriving home, Namira was astonished. Why he was brought home to his parents again, not his own home. Namira asked both of her parents.

"Mother..Why am I brought back here again? Why don't you take me to my house?" Ask Namira wonder.

"Namira... condition you have not recovered properly..who will take care of you? While your husband doesn't exist.." Sintia.

"Namira, at least, you stayed here for a while. Until you're fully recovered.." Said Father. Namira just nodded. There was no suspicion in Namira's heart.

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A month has passed. Namira felt like she was healthy again. Namira felt something strange in her heart. I feel something is strange.

Namira had been home for a month, and she felt like her husband had never contacted her. Namira waited a month for news from her husband but did not exist. Every day Namira always looked at her HP screen, hoping that her husband would contact her, but never came.

"What the hell are you busy there? Is there no time to contact me? Why are you disappearing?" Said again.

There was no news of his son either. I'm getting the feeling that there's something weird about all this. Fearful that something has been hidden by her parents.

"I feel like I've been here a month, but why hasn't my husband heard? Not even my son is there.." Say again.

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Because he continued to feel the irregularities in his heart, Namira finally determined to find out for himself. Namira intends to go to her in-laws house. Namira went there on her own without the knowledge of her parents.

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Namira has arrived at Malik's parents' house. Namira stepped towards their house. The door of the house is closed. It looks like his host is inside. Namira knocked on the door.

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Before long, someone opened the door from the inside. And it turned out that Sintia opened the door. Namira immediately commented a smile to her mother-in-law.

"Assalamu'alaikum ma.... how are you?" Namira said politely as she extended her hand to shake hands and wanted to kiss her. However, Sintia did not receive Namira's hand.

Namira was surprised by Sintia's attitude. Iya saw the look on Sintia's face that looked red as if holding back anger.

"Ma.. mama why? mama's sick?" Namira asked attentively while wanting to check her forehead skin. Respect, Sintia immediately brushed off Namira's hand. Namira looks surprised by Sintia's attitude.

"Enough! What are you doing here?" Sintia Sudang.

"Ma.. I'm here to ask you about my husband... did Malik tell you about my mother?" Ask Namira nicely. Sintia smiled cynically and was annoyed at Namira's question.

"Oh.. You don't know yet? Where's your husband now?" Sintia.

"Where is my husband? And what happened?" Tanya Namira was curious.

"Basic damn carrier!" Sintia spoke harshly and was unable to continue her speech.

"Why ma? What the hell's going on? Please tell me where my husband is. I deserve to know.." Namira said pleading with Sintia.

"Because you Malik is gone forever. Because of you Malik lost his life! If you hadn't taken my son away, he might still be there!" Spontaneous cintia. Namira looks shocked to hear Sintia's words.

"What's? You may not ma... This is not possible. mama lied right, same me?" Namira said in disbelief.

Finally, Sintia pulled Namira's hand violently. And Sintia took Namira somewhere. This is where Malik and his son are buried.

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Arriving there, Sintia showed the grave of Malik and his son. Sintia pointed to the tombstone that inscribed Malik's name there. Namira saw her husband's name on the tombstone.