Muhasabah Cinta (Arya And Arini)

95. It's hard to forgive

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"Arya, how is the company now. Is everything okay?" the arrival of Wiguna that Arya never wanted managed to disperse all the focus and seriousness of Arya in her work.

Indeed, the arrival of Wiguna makes Arya very upset. Just now he wanted to get serious and finish all his work but Wiguna came and outwitted everything.

Sadistic look always Arya let out when in front of her Papa. Son and father are the same, not only Arya whose eyes bulged but also Wiguna.

"For what did papa come? " the question sounds very hurtful to a father. But all that is common Wiguna get.

Just because one mistake from him was able to make Arya hate him until now. It's hard to get an apology from him.

Wiguna continued walking but not to where Arya was but walking towards the window. Wiguna stopped just behind the window staring at the bustle of the city from a height.

Everything was so smooth without a hitch, everything went as it should. But why the relationship Wiguna also Arya can not surf and as it should.

"Ar, papa deeply regrets this kind of relationship. Can't we really be like the others? will you not be able to forgive papa? " Wiguna continued to look outside from behind the window, she did not look at Arya who was still silent.

"Papa knew papa's mistake was huge. But isn't there a little papa in your heart, Ar?" said again.

"If papa can replay the time then papa will never make that mistake, but papa can not do it all, forgive papa," said Wiguna.

Arya stopped her activity, her heavy breaths kept coming out many times. Every time it was revealed again, Arya wanted to be very angry.

"Papa's mistakes won't be easy to forgive. Because of papa, look what happened to aunt Nilam she suffered so much even until now aunt Nilam has not been aware and all this because of the mouth of papa who is not in control," arya's words began to rise.

"If you hadn't told Hendra a lie, Nilam's agony would never have come, and Dimas wouldn't have lost his sister, Pa! all their suffering is because of papa! " Arya's words are getting higher than ever.

Arya was really very angry, that mistake he would not be able to forgive. Arya couldn't accept all that.

"Better now papa go, my work is very much," expel Arya in the name of work.

"It's been years, Arya! have you not forgiven papa at all?! " Wiguna turned to look at Arya who remained indifferent and was again busy with her work.

"Papa's mistake will also not be forgotten by Arya. Indirectly papa who killed innocent babies that also resulted in what aunt Nilam experienced until now."

"Arya doesn't want to be disturbed anymore, you better go." pinta Arya again.

Wiguna's mistake was indeed very big, just like Hendra who regretted he was also very sorry. But what can he do? he won't be able to do anything else, it's all done.

It may be true that he can be called a murderer, he also caused the suffering and destruction of the Nilam family but everything has been very far away.

Wiguna also could not make up for all his mistakes and restore them all. He's very sorry.

"Alright, papa's mistakes will never be forgiven at any time. But still, papa will always apologize. I'm sorry Arya, papa has let you down so much."

One grain from Wiguna's eyes escaped without Arya's knowledge, his regret was indeed ingrained as well. Before Arya knew it, Wiguna's thumb had removed it quickly.

Wiguna was about to go outside he turned his body and he saw the hijab girl who had entered and did not seem to listen to the conversation of the two of them.

Wiguna didn't care about it, he still went past Arini and left from there.

Arini just slightly shifted his stand, he did not want to block Wiguna. Arini did not know Wiguna at all but he still bowed respectfully.

Arya who saw the arrival of Arini continued to look at the girl, who turned out to bring juice for Arya as well as fresh fruit that she had managed to peel and cut.

"Bring it here" said Arya.

Arini nodded then, directly walking towards where Arya was. Arini gave what she brought to Arya.

"Sir, Arini apologizes yes, Arini's ear had heard a little talk Mr. Tuan with that person," said Arini regretfully.

Arini had no intention of eavesdropping at all but she had already heard because she had indeed entered.

"Arini only heard the mistake of the man that is not easy to forgive. What was the mistake, sir?" ask Arini curiously.

"It's none of your business" Arya replied indifferently.

"Yes, Sir. You will never be happy if you cannot forgive others. Verily Allah is Forgiving, Sir. God alone can forgive as much as the sins of His servant but why can't Sir? The best of a human being is one who can forgive others" Arini said.

"Whatever the fault of others to us or to those closest to us is not our business or responsibility to judge it. We must try to forgive even though it is very difficult to do and receive, but that is what we have to do" said Arini.

It is not easy to forgive as well as Arini, actually he is also very difficult to forgive but Arini is still learning to always be sincere.

"Are you going to forgive the person who always hurt you? " ask Arya.

"Arini will always forgive him, yes even if it is very difficult." replied Arini.

"Even if people really don't want you? " ask Arya again.

Arini immediately fell silent, who knew more it would never be wanted from birth, he was Arini. Even he had to be thrown away and washed away, wasn't that a sign that no one wanted him alive?

Arini regained her heart, she came back sad. He kept silent he took three steps and moved away from Arya yet so slowly.

Arini again stopped with her hands hugging the tray she was carrying. His gaze was blank forward, his tears seemed to want to come back out but he held it back.

Arya who was speechless saw Arini's movements so slow, she felt that there was something Arini wanted to say but not until.

"Can you forgive them all?" arya again. He kept waiting for Arini to answer.

"Yes, Arini will forgive that person. People who don't even want Arini to live at once. The one who threw Arini away, did not think Arini was also the one who wasted Arini. But Arini still hopes to meet them and ask them why they don't want Arini," Arini's cold-sounding words also quivered.

It seems that Arya doesn't know who Arini is talking about either. Arya thought the person was Arini's old man who had now thrown it away and had the heart to slander her.

How great Arini's heart, even he will still forgive all those who have done bad to him.

Arya stood up, she walked over to Arini staring at how strong she was from the look on her face.

There was a tinge of sadness so deep it was visible from Arini's face, and it was clearly visible from Arya's eyes.

Arini also shed her tears in front of Arya but Arini is unaware of her arrival.

"It's not easy, is it? I know you won't be that easy to forgive the people who wronged you, as well as me" said Arya.

Arini turned her head quickly, her hands quickly wiped away her tears not wanting to look fragile in front of anyone.

"It will be difficult, Sir. But if we manage to get rid of that frustration we will get his happiness. And Arini will fight for that happiness." Arini looked at Arya with her straight face.

His maturity is back again. The stupidity felt lost somewhere running.

"Hopefully sir can also forgive that person, from what Arini heard earlier he is papa sir right? Forgive him sir. Arini look at him already so sorry."

"Old people are everything, sir. No matter how big the mistake they are still parents who must be respected. Sir is still lucky to have a complete parent, so be grateful for that. Because not all children can be lucky to have and live with their parents," Arini said.

"Excuse me, Arini's still a lot of work, Assalamu'alaikum.. " Aryan passed out of the room.

"Wa'alaikumsalam," Arya did not stop Arini's departure, he just looked at Arini's back that was getting farther away until finally lost behind the door.

Arya was still speechless to understand what Arini was saying but she could not get the answer yet.

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