Muhasabah Cinta (Arya And Arini)

182.I'm Just a Sinner

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Arini's steps stopped, he was so tired of going around the big house that had not been fully completed. There are still shortcomings in terms of color as well as all the contents and equipment, but it has seen the shape and all the rooms that will be all the place.

Arini was sitting on the stairs that had been installed tiles with white color, she was so tired was also very thirsty because that afternoon was also so hot.

"You tired?" ask Arya, either really asking and worrying or just a pleasantry to be able to freely approach Arini and sit next to him.

"Not to ask again, Sir. Arini was tired. Arini so confused this big house will be able to accommodate how many people huh? does Mr Tuan intend to make boarding?" Arini turned her head, looking at Arya who was increasingly narrowed in wonder.

"Not the cost of Arini, but the home of our future. Our little house with a lot of family members. It means home for us as well as our children, which is not just one or two, but many," replied Arya who was so dreamy.

"Sir is healthy?" Arini looked around more and more, seeing clearly how Arya's face was so close.

"Less close, Arini. If you want to see it clearly then look at it should be really close. Like this," Arya who said but she who took the initiative brought her face closer to the breath they both fought each other.

Again their neutrals were so close they also whistled at each other without blinking.

Impregnated with such a close distance as well as the soft breath that can be felt made Arya stunned, slowly her face getting closer and there was no reaction from Arini. Arini is still silent and Arya thinks she will accept what she wants.

"you look prettier in such a close distance, Arini. It turns out that love because God will bring satisfaction and happiness rather than love because wealth is also likeness" Inner Arya.

Arya's face is getting closer even a few inches longer their two noses will touch each other. But that is not what Arya is aiming for, but the cherry-red lips belonging to Arini that remain his target.

"A-Arini wanted to see there," fortunately Arini quickly realized it, otherwise the lips of the two of them would actually touch.

Arini also looks very nervous, she is so ashamed of God because lately she is often negligent about her limits with Arya. And this time he was also almost negligent and would definitely bring a sin of adultery.

Arini quickly moved, she walked in any direction to avoid Arya.

Arini really likes Arya, she also really wants to be close to him, but not now they don't deserve to be this close. They still need a bond that will make whatever they do will be a reward for both of them.

Arya also feels very sorry, she knows that Arini will not accept any touch before they are both halal but Arya always cannot control what she wants. The demon in Arya still controls her.

Arya moved, she walked after Arini who stepped first.

"Arini, sorry. I didn't mean to..."

Arya's speech came to a halt as Arini also stopped her steps and looked back at her. Arya's guts really shrieked this time, she really was like not Arya but someone else.

"Please hold on until God allows it, Sir. After Allah is pleased, anything can be done. But not for now" said Arini.

Arini looks so mature this time. She always turns out not always stupid, but there are times when she can turn into a full grown girl who also looks very smart.

Arya understands now, actually Arini is not stupid, but only lacking understanding. He just doesn't know because he's not high school either, and also the wrong upbringing of his adoptive parents that makes Arini such a fool.

If Arini was in the right hands maybe she would be transformed into a girl with high IQ, but it turns out that did not happen, because the destiny of her life must be like that.

"I will try to hold on for you, I will wait until that day comes. And it is in this house that we will begin" replied Arya.

Both of them became awkward, both of them were silent but stepped back.

Until quite a long time both of them were silent and only the sound of breathing sounds of the two of them fighting each other as well as their heartbeats that worked faster than usual.

"Arini, will all this change when you find your parents? would you stay away from me if they didn't like me?"

One fear appeared in Arya's heart. How the vices in the past both Arini's parents knew about it, and he was very sure it would be a hindrance to the future.

"I am a sinner, an adulterer, a drunkard who has just learned to crawl in the truth. No matter how good I am, I will definitely still get the title of a former sinner with all his bad behavior." Arya was silent.

Arya also kept her head down, she did not dare to look at Arini's eyes so bright, as bright as the light that gave light to her in the world of darkness.

"I'm just an inappropriate sinner, Arini. I don't know how many sins I have committed, I don't know how many women I have destroyed, and also I don't know how many illegal drinks that enter my body that have been fused in my flesh and blood. And that's not you're probably easy to forgive, is it?"

All of Arya's past deeds are said, she doesn't want any more secrets on Arini, he wants Arini to know everything from his own mouth, not from someone else's mouth, which may be added with complementary spices that will plunge.

"Everybody has a past, so does Arini. For Arini, it is better to marry an ex-sinner or an ex-con than to marry an ex-con who knows the religion but ends up in the abyss."

"Akhlak and bad habits can be improved, as long as Mr. Tuan really repents and will not repeat it again. All sins that have been fused in the blood as well as the flesh will slowly also shed by itself if it continues to be flush with goodness. So Sir don't feel the most despicable or the most sinful."

"Be assured that the door of forgiveness will always be open from God to all His servants."

A sincere smile came out from Arini's lips, instantly making Arya calm.

"Arini, I want to hear one more time from your mouth. Do you really like me? do you really love me?"

"My love for you is only for God, so ask God to answer it. If God allows our love to be united but if God does not allow as hard and as much as I love Sir, God will never allow us to be united."

"What if your parents won't allow it?"

"let God answer."

"Are you also not going to question our age that is far away?"'

"Living is not the foundation for staying in the household. Because the foundation of happiness in the household is love fenced with loyalty. Because age also cannot be a reason for eternal or broken in the bond of marriage. Then why do I have to worry about age?"

It felt good to hear everything Arini said. Now only God will decide the path for both of them.

Arya must also be able to get closer to God, so that the question will get an answer immediately.

"May God unite us in bondage."

"Amin.." said Arini assures.

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